Healing is Messy!

Heartbreaks and breakdowns will never be easy. There will always be good and bad days. There are times reminiscing about what could’ve been done to change the outcome and there are times you thought you’ve already moved on. There are days that you feel that you’re totally over the pain but random moments will come that will hit you all over again and again.

It will still hurt you, even if you think that you’re okay already.

When the night is deep, and when you look back at the things that you once held before. For all the promises that they broke, you will still hurt. Remembering all the days that you feel tired of everything but you can’t do anything, it still hurt. It will still hurt you after everything; you will still feel the deepest pain and the same agony. You will still see yourself shattered into pieces; it hurts and definitely hurts you.

But once you get past these saddest and most miserable times that you are currently in, you will never ever wish to feel the exact phase but still, this phase shall never be forgotten. You need to remember all the details of this healing process because it reflects you.

People come and go for certain reasons, but always remember that you should not remain in the same place where they’re left you wounded. But you need to begin again no matter what.

Courage is as simple like as opening your own eyes.

 Courage is the way for you to fall in love with sadness and let you sleep. It’s the courage that helps you to feel and face every single night that you can overcome all the pain even if at times that you feel like you can’t.  Courage is not made of combat but rather a quiet fight that flickers even in your darkest moments that reminds you that you’re strong, you’re definitely growing, and there is always hope.

Changing the world means changing your world as gradually, little by little, gentle as you heal.

You need to heal no matter how messy it could be. If you want to grow, you need to leave something behind, that’s the reason why making space for grief in the middle of growing is very important. You can mourn your past to make a new space for a newer you.

So for everyone who is asking and still wondering if they will ever move on,

Yes, you will. It takes time but you will definitely heal. It will never be easy; in fact, the process will be the hardest thing you’ll go through. Moving on is messy, but one day you’ll wake up and you will feel okay, everything will be fine. You will think of them still, but it’s going to be a different kind of thinking.

At the end of everything, and when you already healed, you tap and say to yourself I thought I couldn’t, but look at me now, I’m still here, healed and alive!