Should I teach?

Date: July 19,2022
Author: Sequoia

"When I grow up, I want to be a teacher."

This was the exact phrase that I have uttered back when I was still in my kindergarten years. We were rehearsing for our closing ceremony and were told to choose a profession that we want to be in the future. Being a teacher wasn't really my choice, in fact, I didn't even know what I want to become back then. It was my aunt who told me to choose teacher and as a very obedient kid, I went for teacher.

But who would have thought that, that simple and scripted chosen profession back then will really come to life? I am now a teacher in profession but not sure if I could really apply what I have learned and acquired from my four years of studying in college.

Well, searching for a job nowadays is so strenuous and that's the reason why instead of teaching, I ended up being a brand manager of a Chinese business tycoon based in Singapore. I mean, I have no problem with my work but I just can't help but question myself if this is really want I wanted. Will I just really abandoned teaching?

Aside from that, I also feel so left behind by my batchmates because they are already teaching in some private schools-exploring and developing their teaching skills, yet here I am, stuck in the four corners of our house. Can you blame me if I compare myself from them? I mean, I know that we have our own different timeline and journey to take but hey, waiting is so hard.

I talked with my workmate who happens to be an education graduate as well like me but ahead of me for almost 3 years. She said that she don't have the guts to apply as a teacher anymore because it seems like she had already forgotten about being a teacher for how may years of not being in the field of teaching.

I don't want to be like that. I have just realized that my heart is really into teaching. I wanted to teach and share my knowledge to my students. I want to touch their lives and inspire them. I want to see them become successful. And most of all, I want to fill this hole in y heart that only teaching could do.

Well, this might be dramatic and not my usual topic but I just can't help but express what I really feel inside.

Anyways, I have received a news that the school where my cousin is teaching is actually hiring and she asked me if I wanted to apply. Without any doubt, I said yes right away and this Friday will be my interview. I just hope that I can ace it and bring home the bacon.

Well, I think, that's all for today's blog. Thank for your time and have a great night.