A bit of good and a whole lot not.

Date: December 12,2021
Author: Sequoia

"We all have bad days, but one thing is true; no cloud cloud is so dark that the sun can't shine through"

-Miranda Kerr

Life will sometimes make you lost your mind because of the unexpected occurences, and that is what exactly I am feeling today.

I just wanna cry everything out and wish that it will somehow relieve the heaviness that I am carrying in my heart since the moment I wake up. Oh wait, did I even sleep?

Currently ranting this things with a big puffy dark circles around my eyes. No, I wasn't punch or hit by anyone. I got it from having no sleep last night until now. However, before I share the reason, please allow me to apologize for being inactive for the past two days. I just need to pay more attention to my repsonsibilities in real world.

Anyways, where am I again? Oh yeah, I feel like my brain is floating while I am writing this article in my phone. Been wanting to dive in the dreamland already but my mind won't allow me.

A lot of things have happened today that maybe triggers my insomnia. I honestly don't have any plans to write an article today since it's Sunday. However, keeping all this things within myself alone will make me lost my sanity.

I wonder if this day has been cursed or what. Everything is going on a total opposite with my plans. Life itself isn't willing to cooperate with me.

I've said a lot of things already but you still didn't know what made me act like this. So, as a thoughtful and kind tree, I am gonna share it with you guys.

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I haven't gone to sleep since last night because of the reason that I was making my academic responsibilities and requirements that is to be submitted this 15th day of December. I basically only have 3 days left before the judgment day. But still, I am not even halfway through it. I even feel like my efforts were not going anywhere.

I even cried while making the modules and othe school stuffs last night.

It was around 4 am in the morning today, that I was able to finish the Module 1 of our Field Study 1 requirements. I decided to give myself some mercy and sleep.

Unfortunately, my cat was sleeping next to me and she woke me up at exactly 6 am in the morning. Just imagined the number of hours of my sleep. 2 hours? 2 fre*kin' hours? Will you still blame me for being grumpy?

But thae real sad news just arrived 5 minutes after my kitten woke me up. My aunt told me that my hamsters are dying.

I mean, my only male hamster died last Friday and then another hamster is dying again? Seriously? What's happening to my pets?

I immediately got up from my bed and went to my hammies' cage. There, I saw my female hamster, Chang2, fighting for her life. She isn't moving anymore but still breathing.

With a sad heart and crying eyes, I carried her and let her stay in my chest until her last moment. She died in my arms and it was the most painful sight of all. I buried her in our yard and wiped my tears.

I checked her grown up babies and I sighed in relief when I noticed that they are healthy and active. I only have 3 hamsters left and all of them are female.

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But my day isn't finish yet, it was around 9 am in the monring when I decided to sleep. However, I can't! I was so stressed already and couldn't finish any tasks because it.

I shared it to my man to lessen my burdens. Unexpectedly, he asked me to go on a date with him in McDo to relieve my stress and somehow relax. I am so happy about it and grab the offer right away.

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Today is horrible, heartbreaking and terrible. However, today is wonderful as well.

My mom told me that not every day will be your day, that's why, we have to learn to make it through the day no matter how bad it is. Life will be tough on us at somepoint. That's why, we also need to be tough enough to fight it back.

As what the saying goes,

"It's just a bad day, not a bad life."

Just flexing my niece who changed my mood via her picture.

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Author's Viewpoint

I will definitely make it up to you all after December 15 guys. Please bear with me. That's all, thank you!