To Live the Life that I Want - I Must Try It

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I don't have much thought in my brain right now that is maybe the reason why I can't think of a topic to write. As in since morning I've been thinking already of what to share here or what to talk but to no avail, I can't really think of anything. And I actually forget that when I think too much of a topic, the less of chance that I can think of any.

So, what I did awhile ago was to just chill, do what I have to do and I stop thinking nalang muna. I might just get a headache if I continue to think so, I stopped. And later after that I finally thought of something while I'm on the bathroom, hehehe. It is actually thanks when my mind started to imagine things again, lol. So here it is.....

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Y'all know how a big fan I am of daydreaming. I always do this on my free time or whenever I feel like daydreaming and imagine the things that I want to do that I can't do in real life. There's a lot to consider if I want it to happen in real life but in my imagination I am free to do it without the cost or whatever. Coz it's so much free and I don't have to think of some complication etc,.

I can even do it while washing a plates or while dumping some waste from my tummy, lol. Or even while washing my clothes or even while eating, lol. It is free that is why I love to do it. And in the fast few days, I only notice it today while i'm on the bathroom that I am thinking too much of living alone. I mean, in all of my daydreaming I am alone and living alone, I am trying to be independent person.

Thinking about it I have this desire of living alone sana. Far from our home, far from my family as in I want to try living in a place that is new to me. The unfamiliar one that I can explore whenever I have time. Yep, something like that. I want to try to live alone as in alone in an apartment, boarding house or a condo unit? Oops, I can't afford that yet but it also appear on my imagination, lol.

In my daydreaming this is always present and I think in reality I really want to try to live alone far away from my family. I will only give myself a year to explore the world in my own or what more to know about life, about living alone and how it is if I don't have my family on my side. I am super dependent to them and I can't move if Mama is not with me huehue and I think it is a bad thing.

I am already 27, turning 28 this year and I am still dependent to them. Although I know already a lot of house chores and I am the one din naman who's preparing our foods here but still, living alone I think is far different from this. There's a lot of things that I wanted to do if ever I try to live alone. And I can only do it without my family on the side.

I don't know I am just too shy to do it with their knowledge so I prefer to do it in a far away place. With no one knows any information about me. It's like I want to start over again but in different place. Maybe soon I will make this happen. I also want to live in my own so I will make sure to experience this even just for a year. I will also make sure that it will be a hell of adventure.

I am so jealous to those teenagers today that has a lot of courage to try their luck in different place or some even go to different country. I mean, why it look so easy but me just thinking about is having a lot of negative thought already. Why not I try first right .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·. If only it is that easy, aigoooo. But I'm really alsi thinking for my oldies. I know they will allow me naman but, kaya ko ba?

Nothing will change if I continue to be like this no. How I wish it is just easy, or maybe it is really easy and I am the only one who's making it more complicated?

Oh self! ┐( ˘_˘)┌

The only question is, when will I make this happen lol. 乁༼☯‿☯✿༽ㄏ

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July 04, 2022

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ganyan na ganyan talaga isip ko before nung nag start nako mag work....yung gusto ko maging independent at nangyari naman...but now that I am away from my family, sobrang lungkot ko lang baby gerl...iba kasi pag may family kang uuwian after work eh

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2 years ago

Go spread your wings Ruffaness!

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2 years ago

I've daydreamed too, most of the time when I go to bed I stay up for a while. Living alone is good but not so good, in the long run you will always want to have someone by your side.

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2 years ago

Same Ruffa, nakakainggit yung mga teenagers sa YouTube na nagba-vlog tas andaming views. Nag-eenjoy na sila tas kumikita pa habang nagbibiyahe. Parang napaka independent na nila sa financial support ng mga magulang nila. Malay mo Ruffa mangyayari din satin yan balang araw.

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2 years ago

Minsan, ako nagwoworry sa future mo 😅. Hndi pwd forever ka mag daydream madam..you need to move, step forward and pursue your dreams.. Step out of your comfort zone...that's when you'll achieve real freedom and happiness

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2 years ago

Nakailang sabi kana nito madams pero till now diko pa rin magawa gawa 🙈🤧

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2 years ago

Di tayo mag progress sa life madam if we stay stuck into where we are right now. Agree ako sa comment ni madam @Jane. Hehe. It takes courage to step out of our comfort zones. I guess it's time for us na to explore and see what the real world is. That's where we learn most in life. ❤

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2 years ago

Madamssssss, hahaha magaling lang mag plan walang action naiinis na ako sa sarili ko ay

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2 years ago

Isang taon pala tanda ko sayo Ruffa dapat tawag mo sakin kuya hahaha. If you're always thinking of living alone you must try to daydream first what is the pros and cons of it and write them down, if one outweighs the other you must assess if it is still worth it.

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2 years ago

Ay paumanhin koyang hahaha.

Hmmm, oo nga no. I'll ty to do that po hehe. Thabks

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2 years ago

I know you can do it..I became an independent as early age of 16. San saan na ako napadpad

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2 years ago

Grabi man super bata mo pa. Parang are ko 18 sya umalis samin.

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2 years ago

Hehe ang hirap kasi buhay dati, jusko po.. Lagi salat kahit sa food😂

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2 years ago

Sinabi mo pa, tas now even if may work ang mahal na din naman ng mga bilihin, aigooo

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2 years ago

Kaya nga eh, ako nga kahit may work hindi naman ganon kaluwang pagdating sa pera. Siguro kung hindi ako nagpapadala s parents ko sa province😂. Kaso d naman maatim😂

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2 years ago

I have also such imagination that I'm alone living on a simple house but secretly a billionaire having billions of net worth but seems like my imagination differs from reality, the important is daydreaming limitless since those daydreaming might be turn to reality someday. I also want to become independent but I'm worry about the expenses since the way of living is too expensive.

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2 years ago

Hahaha ay bet ko yan, pero nadaan na din sa imagination ko yaan. If only no, epro oed tong mangyari siguro if kakayod ng malala haha samahan na rin nh diskrte

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2 years ago

Try ate, pramis may matututunan ka. Ako takot nung una pero iniisip ko it's time for me to travel around and to try my best lalo na sa lahat. So far sobrsng goods, kahit stressful work ko at the same time masaya naman na.

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2 years ago

Huehue bat ang babata nyopa ang lalakas na nh loob nyoooo, how 'bout meeee (。•́︿•̀。)

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2 years ago

mahirap po mamuhay ng independent pero makakaya mo po iyon kapag nag tuloy tuloy ka po.

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2 years ago

Pwd namang subukan ano, kapag di nag success try again lang huehue

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2 years ago

Do it, sis. It will be worth it.

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2 years ago

Kaya ko kaya. ( ꈍᴗꈍ)

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2 years ago

I think you can naman, as long as you have enough allowance for your expenses, or if you have a job and then marunong ka ng magbudget, kasi mahirap naman kung walang kang panggastos diba? Na try ko na yan 😂, may work naman ako nun pero hindi ako marunong magbudget ng pera ko kaya kahit malayo ako sa family ko at may trabaho ako, sa kanila pa din ako humihingi ng pang allowance KO kasi yung sahod ko kulang pa din dahil ang gastos ko, kaya ang ending failed yung goals ko, umuwi din ako agad sa bahay. 😁. However maganda siyang experience at madami ka talagang matututunan, hopefully magawa mo din yan soon . Anyway i can relate, hirap din akong magisip ng isusulat ngayon, ayaw gumana ng utak ko😂.

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2 years ago

Ohhh, meron naman if ever. Maganda sana gawin habang may madudukot pa nga ee kasoooooo, yong loob ko lang talaga lagi ng pumigil. Tama sinabi ni Mommy sakin Mahina loob ko huehue.

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2 years ago

Try mo Siya for once. For experience lang, ganun. Wag ka lang magtitiwala agad sa mga nakakasalamuha, sa labas. Hindi siya mahirap at hindi siya nakakatakot bxta hindi ka lang mawawalan ng pang gastos, kasi yun talaga ang totoong nakakatakot sa pag iisa. Ako nga 21 palang ako nun nung magtrabaho ako malayo sa fam. ko. Ang disadvantage Lang kc sa side ko Hindi ako marunong magbudget at magluto kaya laging sa labas nakain, kaya mabilis maubos ng pera ko. Mabuti nalang laging to the rescue fam ko.

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2 years ago

Gahhhh, pero para sa taong katulad ko na pinangungunahan ng hiya baka di ako makisalamuha sa iba ahahaha baka pati sa work pano un HAHAHA pero susubukan ko talaga to, soon.

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2 years ago

True yan ate ruru. Iba talaga pag ikaw lang mag isa. Like building something from a scratch. Yung wala kang ibang maaasahan kundi sarili mo. Hmmm, I am actually thinking to move out from our home since I alerady graduated from college. But thinking about them leaving behind breaks my heart.

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2 years ago

Yon nga ee. Titingnan lang if kaya bang mag isa talaga. Yong di ba dumidepende sa iba diba

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2 years ago

You can make it happen soon ate! Sana masubukan mo na yung mga gusto mong gawin. Hehe. Wag ka matakot ate.

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2 years ago

Sana nga charmy charmy. Balak ko na talaga ee nag ask na ako sa kapatid ko, desisyon ko nalang ang aanuhin.

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2 years ago

daydreaming can also lead you to work abroad.

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2 years ago

Haha, r3ally ( ꈍᴗꈍ)

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2 years ago

Saka grabe sis, yun Ibang teenagers, andito sila sa site na to as writer. Mababasa mo na lang mag cocollege pa lang pala sila ganun. Tapos yun Iba na 20+ ceo NG sariling business, tapos tayo pinanganak lang para mainggit

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2 years ago

Bwahahaha natawa ako sa pinanganak lanh para mainggit hahahaha paranh sa mag juwa, pinanganak lang para maging masaya sa relasyon ng iba huehue

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2 years ago

Pinanganak lang para maging Marites, pinanganak lang parang maging kabit, Iba Iba na talaga ang mga roles ngayon eh

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2 years ago

Bwahahaha ang lala nong kabit yawit

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2 years ago

Try it, pramis may mga matututunan ka pa about yourself. I lived alone when I was in college, di naman kalayuan hahaha pero mga 2 hrs pa rin byahe from ours. May video call naman na kaya di ka masyado mahhomesick if ever. Planning to go abroad din, in God's time.

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2 years ago

I hope kaya ko ee, ang dami lang talagang pumipigil sakin na gawin sa ngayon. Pero soon, soon talaga sana magawa ko.

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