The Epic Experience of Living Alone for Days

Yesterday, Mommy F told me that they would go to Mommy D's house just to, you know, enjoy the weekend, even just for an hour. They didn't ask me to come along because they already knew that I would never go with them. Well, it's not like I don't want to be with them, but this is a rare chance for me to be alone in our house. I am more than happy to be left alone here and they know that.

I am even suggesting to Mommy F that she should just sleep in Mommy D's house because Mommy D plans to sleep there. But she set aside the idea, saying that I would be alone here, so she would still go home. Aww, so sweet, haha. But I told her that Mama is here, so she doesn't need to be concerned about it. I also told her that even if it's just a minute away from the house, traveling alone will be hard for her.

As you all know, her legs sometimes go jelly jelly and if she's not careful, she will really fall to the ground. And because she's alone, I am afraid that something might happen to her if she travels alone. But she just answered that she's strong, so I don't have to worry. So I just gave up on convincing her. If that is what she really wants, then gora. I will just wait here outside the house for her. She's really stubborn at times.

By the way, don't be conscious of or what with Mommy F, Mommy D, and my Mama. I think I mentioned before that I have three mothers. Lucky me, I know. hehe. And I would really be happy if Mommy D would spend the night there. Aside from that, she can definitely enjoy her time there. They will have a lot of "Marites" time, which they really love to do. But well, whatever.

This is really not my main topic today, although they are connected. Let's get on to the real thing and let's talk about it now.....

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Looking back in the past, whenever Mom left me alone in the house to attend to some important things, I still remember I was still in college when they told me they had to go somewhere in Las Peas. I already forgot the matters that they have to attend to, but I think it is about my Mom's house there. They traveled a lot in different places, and I was left in the house because I had school.

I am all okay with it, as I am really not fond of travelling. I am even okay alone in the house as long as I have money that I can spend for my meals. Sometimes they will be gone for 2 to 3 days, and the longest that they have been gone is weeks, I think. It had happened for such a long time that I had already forgotten about it. When they leave me at home, I am always the happiest because I feel more liberated than when they are present.

But, what I notice when I am left alone in the house is that I am more lazy, to the point that I will also skip my meals because I am too lazy to cook, even though we are using a gas stove. I know it is bad, but when you are free, you tend to do anything that you want, and the worst thing is that it will continue to go on if parents never go back home. Skipping lunch? Yes to that. No taking a bath? Oh yep, yes to that again.

I also experienced this when I lived in Batangas for months with my sister and brother. When they have to go to work, I am alone in the apartment. My sister will just leave some viand for me and some extra cash for my lunch. And once they are already at their workplace, I am on my bed with my phone, busy reading Wattpad. Seriously, I shouldn't be left alone in the house because I can't really do anything if that happens.

Another is, I develope a mañana habit or what you called "I will do it later." I really hate that side of me. I hate that I am a full time lazy btch. I don't want to be like that anymore. When I am with thr fam, at least I have someone to remind me of doing this and that. They can point it out to me and I can fix it. I don't know why when I'm alone, I just love to do nothing at all, lol. Seriously, if you are my roommate, you will loss my patience to me. But wait, I am still not sure if how I am if I'm with a strangers.

Living alone is one of my wishes, or more like being independent with my family. But I think it is not a good idea to do that. But well, I can still try naman. If I really want to, I can make things work. But I am not sure if I can keep this up, let just see.I always imagine myself living alone, far from my family, but I am not sure if it's going to work. But I wish it would work. I have to get used to it now. I'm still up with this plan.

So yeah, I know now what's going to happen to me if I ever decide to live alone. ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ

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This ks supposed to be publish last week but I wasn't able to finish it so I only publish it today, teheee

September 06, 2022

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