And now it's starting over again...
My day started with annoyance. My bitcoin.com wallet is not working properly. Every time I open it, it goes back to my home screen. I could not make a single transaction. I need to withdraw my bitcoin cash because I have a scheduled check-up today. Then I remembered that I could import my seed phrase into my daughter's wallet, so I woke her up and told her that I needed her bitcoin.com wallet. Of course, I don't want to touch her phone without her permission. So after she handed me her phone, I imported the seed phrase and withdrew the amount that was left in my wallet. I have no idea why my wallet is like that. It all started when I installed its latest update yesterday. If I had known that this would happen, I would not have even bothered to do so.
Moving on, my daughter accompanied me on my check-up because my husband had to work. We arrived at the clinic 10 minutes before 11 a.m. I did not expect that there would be a long queue of patients. I was third in line, and it took an hour before my turn came. And I was already hungry. My stomach was churning. I even sent a message to @Yen just so I wouldn't get bored while waiting. She said she was busy because it was her mother-in-law's birthday today. After a while, my turn came, and as soon as I entered the room, I got nervous. So the doctor told me to relax. He asked me how I felt, and I told him that the medicine had no effect on me anymore. That I am having trouble eating and my speaking has become nasal.
He stated that my condition is not good and is worsening after reviewing my records and performing a physical examination on me. He said that I needed to have a blood test done, and he prescribed me additional medication. If my condition does not change or get better, he said that my meds would be administered through injection. After hearing that, I felt numb. I could not understand the things he was saying anymore. It was a good thing that my daughter was there to help me.
After that, I bought the meds that he prescribed, but only a few because my money was not enough for everything. I only had two thousand pesos in my wallet. My husband was already home when we arrived. He asked me about the result, and I told him that I needed to rest first because I didn't feel well after hearing everything. And then he needs to go back to work, so I just told him just now about it. He looked so down, and it had me teary-eyed. I am worried too. I thought that I was getting better because I did not feel anything until a few days back. Then he said that I didn't have to worry and that everything would be fine.
I don't believe that anymore. I know that maybe sooner or later, my body will deteriorate, or worse, my days will be numbered. Oh gosh, I had to pause for a while because my eyes wouldn't stop crying. I feel so helpless. I thought that I would not have to go through this kind of situation again. I thought that things were getting better. I guess I have to accept now that I don't have much time left.
I have taught my daughter everything. About my wallets, my tokens, and even my Pegaxy scholarships if something happens to me. She said, "Mama, you'll get better. We will travel to South Korea, remember? " I know that I may be exaggerating, but I think it is better to prepare beforehand. Oh gosh, I am crying again. It felt like I was stabbed in my chest, and it was painful to breathe. I hope that I still have more time left.
Sorry guys, I just had to let this all out.
Date Published: February 18, 2022
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Ahh bless you sis. You will get better, I’m sure of it. Just don’t loose a positive outlook and BELIEVE that you will get better. I know it’s easier said than done, but you have lots of people who love you and wish you best 💙