Life is a cycle in constant motion, and we are all part of that cycle, understanding what place we occupy in this great game board and for what purpose is the difficult part. I confess I still don't have a title for this article, but as I write I will call it "Overwhelmed But Firm".
I have been having trouble falling asleep for several days now, even though I go to bed very tired, I feel overwhelmed with a great weight on my shoulders and a lot of anxiety. For that reason I decided to write this article to analyze myself and unburden myself; I think I will start with my job, I know it has a lot to do with my mood. I work in a hospital as a nurse and I was working in the operating room area as an instrumentalist in the operations, but after enjoying a vacation when I returned to work, they had changed the head of the nursing department, and by necessity of service they changed me to the "Neonatal Intermediate Care Unit" (assistance of newborns).
I am sure you will think that it is not so bad, and that it will be easier and more pleasant to work in that area, but I am sorry to tell you that at least in my country (Venezuela), there is a shortage of medicines and if they are found they are very expensive, and many other factors that I prefer to tell you in a separate publication, in conclusion I have to see babies die every day, and the suffering of their families, the helplessness that all the staff who work there experience is overwhelming. Living this experience undoubtedly affects my state of mind.
Since the beginning of this year all my family members without exception have suffered from "covid", many of them for the second time, this month it was my mother-in-law, my husband and my children, thank God I only got a mild flu, but I had to bear alone with the care of his illness. By the way, I was finishing a semester in college and dealing with all that caused me a lot of anxiety. My youngest son is still sick with the flu, complicated with stomach problems (with his intestinal flora), my husband is having irritable bowel problems, and he is also stressed by his university, because he has to defend his thesis; this affects me greatly since I am very used to his unconditional support (I accept that I have been very dependent on my beautiful husband).
I don't want this article to be too long, and the truth is that there are many other things that are affecting my mood, but writing this article helped me to understand that many of them I give more importance than they deserve (for example that I am gaining weight). I also understood that I am neglecting my health "both physical and mental", I had a little medical checkup to rule out some concerns about it.
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P.S: I want to let you know that English is not my native language, for that reason it is very likely that I may make some mistakes in the elaboration of this article. If this should happen, please feel free to correct me properly. It will help me in my learning process.
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