We all have a different kind of parents where sometimes we are too lucky to have them, but most of all time we are always lucky since we have a parent who didn't choose to abandoned us or who didn't choose to have an abortion despite of poverty.

"When will you plan to have a work?.", other parent questions to their daughter or son. Most of the parents think that because they are the one who give everything so they have a right to be so demanding. I even experienced this scenario, my family always cared about money especially my mother. Whenever when I'm calling at the house, all I can hear is when I will be sending them money. The hardest thing of being a breadwinner is you handled everything.

I have step sisters and and brothers but they all have family now. So my parents are just expecting me to give everything to them.

Ofcourse, I don't have any problem with that but what I just want is for them to asked me first if how am I or what's going on to me already. If I'm eating 3x a day or if I'm not Skipping any meals, not the money.

Hey, I know children's have their responsibilities to their children. But don't take it for granted to the point where you will going to bring back everything including the day when you gave birth to them.

I can't blame the teenagers who committed suicide especially those breadwinners who choosento end up their life. The simple wish from the teenagers can't approved sincentheir parents don't have any ear to listen about their children's rant or problems. And yes, why I am writing this? Because I'm experiencing this right now.

We can only wish for the best, pray for their souls and hope that when they comeback to life, their life will be different.

DJ Raqui Secret Files.

I heard this when I was still in g10, the story was qbout the breadwinner who took his own life because of his family's treatment. The story was send by one of his friend.

Let's call him Ryan, ryan is a call center agent and also a breadwinner of their family. His family was composed of 5 members but only him who supports his fanily and his sisters and brothers doesn't care at all. Ryan was always scolded by his mother and father, and ryan is the one who's taking care of them.

To the letter that was sent, it said there that ryan just drink coffee every lunch or break time and doesn't eat any food. When his friend asked him why, ryan told him that he gave all of his payslip to his mother. He pitty Ryan and buy him a food instead so that Ryan can eat.

After months, ryan was very happy and it was so unusual for someone who's happy for just one day. His friend found it weird since how come a person can be so much happier for just a day? Right? That's different already. A day after that, Ryan didn't go to his work. At first, the sender thinks that maybe ryan is just sick so he didn't bother about it. But days and days passed, their manager already asked why Ryan is still absent. That's the time where the sender found it weird, he planned to go at Ryan's house only to find out that Ryan is already laying at the coffin.

See? Life is unpredictable, we don't know that maybe now they are still here, but tomorrow they aren't. That's why being with someone is important. Asking if howntgey are is really important, we don't know what the future holds.

Final Thoughts

• I can't find the audio anymore at YouTube, but it was uploaded. I was crying when I heard that when I was still in grade 10 because I knew that I'm already at that situation. Everytime that things are getting harder, what I do is to think wbout Ryan's story and I always says to myself that I should be thankful because I am breathing and I am kicking.

If I ended up ny life years ago, maybe it's my 5years death anniversary. All I am thinking is I am thankful because I still manage to hold on after everything. I know life is always not that good, life is never been easier. We all experience where sometimes we feel like we want to be die already. But no, let's continue to fight 💓