"What is sadness?", "What is happiness?".

We, as human, we often ask ourselves like, "Why am I sad?.", "Why I am feeling this way?." or, we always said, "This day was unbelievable, I am so happy.", So the exacty question, oes this two emotion is fighting over your feelings? Is life sometimes makes you feel unbelievable? Makes you feel your worthy, and sometimes you aren't? We may build too many questions regarding of what our heart felt, regarding on how some shows their interaction towards you or towards other.

Deal with the question, "Why is my emotions were fighting?, what for?." There are times where we feel really happy and there are times where we feel really sad, it's not that we wished or we want that, it's just that no matter how we tried to go on and to be okay, we always up ended up asking ourself if we really happy or if we feel sad.

Lol, I'm a kind of person where I really want to ask myself everytime if this day, I will be happy or I will be sad? Sometimes I ended up laughing to myself because I'm become a bossy type to my emotions lol.

It's all above our head. What do I mean about it? It's all alive inside of our head, he reality is they're just existing in our head. I know sometimes that the pain was made up by our minds and nothing more. That somtimes everything was just because of what we are thinking that's why we ended up in the situatin where sadness is eating us.

All of sudden my mind went blank HAHAHA oh sorry.

So instead, let me add this questions for Question Diary part 11, hope you enjoyed this!

What makes you unique?

• Hmm, I think the right question is. What making us unique? We have our different possibilities qhen it comes for being unique, right?

Sometimes, we unique by the action that we showed off. We're unique by the movements that we do, we're unique by the attitude that we have towards other people and other person. But what makes us more unique? It's us.

For me, the only thing that making us unique is ourselves. The way on how we look to ourself without depending on someone.

Do you spend more time thinking ahead or reliving the past?

• I have both, I have much time thinking about whatwill happened ahead of time and I have much time reliving the past and start thinking everything like mixing up.

Why am I like this? Maybe because I love thinking about the result of my doings? I mean, I'm trying to connect them, to connect everything like they used to be. I'm not against to the reason where am I supposed not to understand everything, lmao I didn't understand any bit of them so...

Do you wake up excited for the new possibilities of a new day?

• Yes, especially when I feel the hug of my partner.

Wait, for those who were confused, let me tell you one thing, I'm not lesbian but a lesbian lover or femme. I don't know what is the correct term for it or whatsoever, but I'm not a lesbian po mga lods.

Nagkakagusto ako sa lesbian? Yes. Actually, sa lesbian lang talaga ako nagkakagusto, not sa girls, not sa boys, only lesbians lang.

So when you'll asked me when I started being like this, it's already since child. When I was still a kid I was molested and some of you knew that, so that time I became afraid to boys except to my father. But days went, that trauma of mine was fading away and it all started to change.

I started to love everyone who surrounds me and who gives support to me. It's started to change where I learn to trust boys again yet I can't love them HAHAHA sorry. I'm a lesbian lover so I'll stay what I was.

Final thoughts

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