What's Bugging Me.

I feel jealous. To be honest, I'm a kind of person where I'll open up about what I feel instead of being secretive.

But before that, this article will be a short version for today since I'm not in the mood to type more. There's one thing that I want to do when me and my oartner broke up. My patience can't stay any longer because of jealousy, I wanna ask you guys. If your partner are jealous of one person, are you guys willing to avoid them or you'll continue to stalk/adding them despite of the reality that your partner is jealous?

Let's proceed to the reality that no one can control orhers, right? Even if you told them many times about this and that, there will be always a one thing where it can be happen all the time. You two can get separated due of being jelous.

I told my partner that I'm so disappointed because of what she did, I disappoint by her once but today is the I'm more disappointed than the first one. I don't know what's the reason why she added the people who I was jealous. I told her that if she can't change that attitude she can told me, I am willing to leave if she want someone to provide what we called "Love." I don't want to settle to a things where it hurts me, I just want someone who can accept what and who am I and someone who can avoid the people who I was jealous with. I already got hurt by the same reason with my ex, and this is the second time where it happened again. No, actually this the 4th time.

I already promised to myself if ever I got hurt again by the same reason, I rather leave than to stay. I'm not a robot, I clearly explain everything to her including what I want and what I don't want. She's old already, she knows what is right and what is wrong. But this thing keep happening and I can't manage it already.

If she want someone to fulfill everything to her, then go. I will let her than seeing myself crying because of the same happenings that was happened before at my ex for almost many times. I already told myself that before I entered to this relationship, I'll think a obout everything when things are not on the right side already.

I'm disappointed and jealous. I'm planning that if me and she broke up, I'll find some boarding house or bed spacer where I can still pay enough and save enough for myself. I know that will be hard again, but what can I do? I can't leave here any longer when the two of us broke up. It doesn't if I don't know anything about this things. I just want to clear up my mind and my brain.

I also have a problem inside the house, jusko wag nasya muna dumagdag at napupuno na utak ko.

Okay lang kung sabihin niya na gusto nya pa ex niya o mahal niya pa, handa naman akong hiwalayan sya para balikan niya ex niya, handa akong hayaan siya para dun sya sa taong mapapasaya sya. Ayaw ko magsettle sa pain at heart ache, enough nako sa bagay na nangyare before, kung mauulit ngayon ayaw ko na talaga ulit. Sobra na eh, sobrang ayaw ko na hays.

Final Thought

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