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The Pressure On My Tummy Makes Me Feel Weak: Hysterectomy Surgery. So as you guys know, I've been operated months ago, like 10 months ago. Whenever I feel the pressure, my body were reacting and that's where I'll feel that I don't feel well. My body will rest up early, I'll find things heavy to finish, I can easily get tired and all I can feel is... there's a pressure inside of me where I can't easily get rid off. This feeling is all started when I got my operation, it's easy to me to pit myself under pressure and I don't know why. Sometimes I want to understand everything but this one is stopping me for thst kind of thing, I felt like I have no enough energy for today to continue everything, to continue my day, to continue the rest of the time. I want something so comfortable, I want something that can make my tummy so comfortable. Last night, I slept for like 4 hours and when I woke up, I still want to sleep. So I slept for like another 4 hours and when I woke up again, I know that I don't feel well. I even put my girdle back because of my tummy's pressure. Whenever that I feel this way, all I want is to rest up and let the things flow for a moment it's because I really feel weak. I'm not even on the mood to say a word, or to say speak one word. I want this eyes of mine to rest up, my body to rest up. But nvm, I'm not even sure why I feel this way. I really feel so weak today and even last day 🥲, I can't explain what kind of feeling that I feel. I just feel weak. I hate this feeling eversince that I got operated, *jusko mga ate yung tahi ko until now ang sakit sa loob.* Everytime that I can feel this, it feels like there's a pressure inside of me where I don't want to feel anymore, something heavy, something that I can't explain. My body just feel weak, yes. I just think that maybe this one is a side effect, since my left ovary was gone already and I have right ovary left. I can't even eat pork, or anything that has so many oil on it because of my PCOS. I can get allergies easily and acne whenever that I'm eating something oily, my obgyne even told me to avoid eating them and eat more veggies and fruits. ***I can't deny the fact that I envy those people who can eat what they want.*** A every little steps of mine. There are times where I really feel weak, where the weakness and tiredness are driving me into the corner. There are times where the sadness and self insecurities are not leaving me, and there a times where my body can easily caught pressure than it was before. I have a baby steps where am I trying to do my best to be good at anything, where I am trying to surpassed my limit, but it was all ended up like I was tired during that day and I don't feel well. Where I am just resting 24/7 without finishing every little things. Everytime that tiredness or fatigue were dragging me into the corner, I want to tell my partner that I don't feel well, or I'm not feeling well, but yeah... it's just me who was afraid to voice everything? I don't know why I'm thinking this way but, I'm afraid to voice out. I am afraid to tell her about what I feel, or what I really feel. Maybe because, I don't want to cause any headache to hee since I'm just *naninirahan lang dito.* I'm not aware that everything will change when I undergo surgery, like I became moody, I can feel tiredness easily whenever that my tummy are not feeling well. Sometimes, I am asking myself if it's wrong that I undergo surgery, or I'm not? Because if I didn't, for sure right now I'm already *dead*. My left ovary where the cyst is can't stand any longer, it was soon to be raptured when I scheduled myself to undergo surgery, my doctor said if it burst out then there's a high rate that I'll be positive of what they called **cancer** and I may not be able to be cured. I'm already aware about it, that the cancer can spread to my body, but still I didn't pay attention to it because all I was thinking is I want to leave this world behind where all of my heartache is present. But then again, God didn't allowed me to take my own life or to be dead. ***Why everytime you want to ended up everything, something is coming up and that one is saving you again?*** By the way, as am I writing this I also doing my module, a multi-tasker yes. I still have 11 days before my midterm and I need to finish everything up. So I guess, I need to put more focus and more tension answering them starting now so that I can legally finished and send them through their email when the time comes. Final Thoughts I don't even know that my time management will be affected so bad. I still have many case digest to finish and I don't know why I have this kind of activity when I am taking a course of ***BS Office Administration***. Some users here are from that course also and I know they already knew how hard to study to that subject since the major or main subject was gregg shortgand or what they called steno.

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