Life for me is a series of ups and downs. A journey which everyone has the opportunity to take. It is also unfair but people still aren't used to it. I have witnessed how life for me became unfair and yet many people would still rant and complain about it. Why not get used to it?
I am done with crying and ranting and going into series of depressed episodes. Life might be laughing at me when he/she sees me vulnerable, crumpled and powerless. I stopped crying over his/her wrath. I don't want to give him/her the satisfaction of winning over me anymore. I want to put on my resting bi*ch face when he/she hits me again. When he/she throws me lemon, I want to be the unbothered woman.
I wanted to keep on doing the things that leads me to my dreams even if life keeps on giving hindrances. I will allow life to do his/her thing and I will mind my business too.
Life holds a lot of meaning for me depending on my mood and emotions. I'd like to think that life is a rainbow. Colorful. But it is not. Rainbow has happy colors but life isn't just comprised of happy colors. Red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet. Those are happy colors eventhough violet is associated with death. The youth are now slowly trying to change that to the BTS. So , violet again is back to being a happy color.
Colors. Life has many colors. Each up and down, winning and losing moment is represented with a certain color.
We love to think that life is colorful and life is a rainbow when everything is fine and well. Usually, life is good when we get to travel to places with our family, friends and even alone. Life is beautiful when we got employed, promoted, bought our first car and stafted building our house. Life is good when everyone in the family is doing great and healthy. Life her is color red. It resembles love and happiness. Well, life here is any color that is light and good to see.
We conclude that life is unfair when we want to take our own lives and leave everything behind. Life is black and dark when we lose our job, when we can't do what we usually do, when problems arise or when a family member bids goodbye forever.
A lot would prefer to experience life being colorful. Of course, we want fun and what is best. But things are not controlled in our own hands that challenges really sprout from time to time. We hate the dark side and the bumoy part of life. But it is there to teach us to hope and pray. Because when everything is fine and well, only few people pray.
Maybe God is making you wait because He wants you to practice the act of prayer. Maybe God never give you the promotion because He knows that it will make you stray. Maybe God sprinkled you with fever and cough because you have forgotten to pray.
I don't know what I'm trying to say. I don't know if I'm making sense. I blame the vaccine. I haven't got fever or anything. My arms feels better now too. Thanks God!
Lead Image is from unsplash.com
Thank you so much everyone! To my sponsors, upvoters, to the people who spent time to read and comment, you made my soul happy! Thank you heaps!
September 24, 2021
11:04 p.m. | friday
Murakaami.7
Hahahaha. Aray. Hindi ako nakailag doon. Guilty ako sa pagcocomplain at pagrarant. Hahahaha. Why this? Why that? Why me? 🤣 minsan nakasanayan magcomplain tapos minsan nakakapagod na din magcomplain. Yung wala ka ng energy para magcomplain. Tapos andoon din yung feeling na baka sabihin ng friends na panay reklamo na lang kaya minsan ninanais ko na lang manahimik.