October 27, 2021, 11:53 PM
#05
Good evening everyone๐๐
How is your day today? Did your day could be productive or not?
By the way, I don't have time earlier to visit my account because I'll do the house chore which is washing our clothes. I don't use a washing machine so I didn't finish it fast.
That's why I miss the chance to be thankful for my two sponsored who has been believing me.
Thank you @BCH_LOVER @jasglaybam for the opportunity to be one of your sponsors. I don't know what you saw on me, to decide to be my sponsors but I am glad that I have you.
Back to the topic;
Have you experienced being broken, or being cheated of someone you love?
Me I've been experiencing it with my first love.
I thought being in love was the most precious thing in the world when I was a teenager.
When I was in high school I don't have time to have a boyfriend, I'm scared of men so when someone approaches me before I was running away just like he has a virus that I should need to get off with him. But he hasn't the truth as he is a handsome boy, every girl flirting with him. Maybe that is the reason why I need to get off with him even though we don't have a relationship. Before kasi I was dreaming of the right boyfriend for me, a boyfriend who doesn't hurt me. A boyfriend material like on the pocketbook, a boyfriend who's only seeing me only me (it's kinda selfish, but this is how I've been dreaming with my first boyfriend)
So I and that handsome boy didn't have a connection anymore because when I decided to be friends with him he left away and transfer to another school. (So sad) Sabi nga nila "Nasa Huli ang pagsisisi"๐ ๐ end of our story.
By the way, when I was in high school I have a lot of crushes. ๐ talandi ang lola niyo, but Crush is like paghanga lang para sakin noon.
When I finished high school I didn't go to college just like others because we don't have money for my tuition fee. So I got a job first, I've been a saleslady in plasticware, like orocan, tabo, timba, plastic toy, etc.
Then two college boys approach me and ask me first what time is it. Then I answered them, after that the next thing they did was ask for my cell phone number, but that time I don't have my phone. I just borrowed my brother's phone. So I say I don't have, after that, they always came to our store as if they buying something but they didn't ๐ ๐ (tumambay lang mga Loko-loko).
But in the end, the one guy was so makulit, he even hatid me in my house. I don't have that before as if he is my boyfriend that time (Duh๐ )I told myself that the person who would meet my parents first was my first boyfriend but it didn't happen, he is the one who meet my parents but he's courting didn't last because I told him that I need to finish college first before I could have boyfriend, ending Nganga๐ ๐ he didn't continue then disappeared na siya. I thought he even resume what he started but it didn't happen.
So then I realize that the guys were pursuing you if they know that they had a chance in you which is a very very wrong attitude.
Because if someone loves you even they don't have a chance they are willing to take the action to prove to you that he is the one for you but he didn't try it. (Sayang may itsura pa naman,sabagay popo nga may itsura eh )๐คญ๐
After that, I don't intend to have suitors because all I want to do was to go into college at that time. Then afterward I got some good news, I got my scholarship in our barangay. Our barangay captain chooses me to be one of his scholars.
That the story begins......>>>>>
I met him because of my college schoolmates, We go to his house and then, my schoolmate and he were cousins, at first he didn't notice me, because one of my classmates before was sexy she has a big boom in front of her chest. (Did you know what I mean)๐๐
But my eyes deceive me it won't stop staring at him as if he sees me๐ Then afterward I received some electric power that flows in my heart when I heard him sing a song, so I was the one who make the move (oh jivaaaaaah, ang lantod)๐คฃ๐
I ask my schoolmate to get his number because they are cousins I know he knows it. (Before I forgot he also my schoolmates but ahead of me, he's taking computer science)
When I got his number I'll never think twice I dialed the number and type what I wanted to tell. And voila he did not notice me because he asked me what I wearing that time when I've been, in their house. (Sarap kaltukan eh)
Fast forward....
He didn't t court me for a long time (wow such a big word)(ako nga ata ang nanligaw)๐ ๐คฃkidding. We've been texting each other for almost three months, sometimes we've met. And he even waits for me every time we've been on the same schedule. He treats me for lunch, meryenda and recess.๐ ๐คฃ he even buys me a load when I don't have a load, to text him.
After that three months, I say yes to him, I remembered it was October 22, 2007, that was the date when I got my first official boyfriend. I thought before that I was dreaming because the one I had in him was" Love at first sight" he's my very first boyfriend. I dreamed about our first kiss, first date when we were officially on, and soon.
We were happy together, I remembered when I'm in their house he even cook for me, he's taking care of me. I never thought that he could hurt me, and cheat on me.
His cousin never told me either that his cousin has a girlfriend in their provinces after I know that, I decided to have a break on him but it didn't work. It is because he already knows my friends he used it, my friends were the reason why I am hurting so much. Because they already know what happen to us but they were inviting him every time we were going out. I don't have a gut to ask him who's he loves me or the one who's in the province.
Then I accept the fact that I don't have him only because he already had someone else. So ang siste naging kabit pa ko, ๐ ๐ Hindi Alam nung girl na dalawa kami. (Ang gwapo diba)
But I decided to finish it na, Hindi na kaya ng konsensiya ko kaya nag break din kami. But before it happens I told him "kung sino ba sa amin ang mahal niya" then he answered" yung nasa probinsiya daw" kasi they are been for four years. And they are childhood sweethearts.
So after that conversation, I'll cut my sim card but I remember his number๐คญ๐คฃ(paano makakamove on eh noh)
This was the first heartbreak I had, but now when I thought that experience it is not hurt too much maybe because it was in the past.
But I've learned from it, that love isn't so magical and isn't precious. It can break your heart easily, and it is hard to move on.
The most lesson I learned from it was to check the status of your suitors if he/she had another one in this place or another place.๐คฃ๐
LOVE - four-character letter but it has a big responsibility to make. And lots of feelings would exist, like happiness, sorrow, lying most dangerous thing was taking the life of one another.
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I have never felt love. I only observe someone who is in love. They feel happy. But when they are hurt by love, happiness turns to despair.