Hello beautiful people!
I hope you all are doing fine amidst of the shortcomings and uncertainties we may feel day by day. Always remember that a positive life is a happy life. ✨
UNTA; is a Bisaya word that means SANA in Tagalog.
TANAN; is a Bisaya word that means LAHAT in Tagalog.
And we have this expression, "sana all" that means you are wanting what someone has achieved or have. Not an insecurity though, but it is kind like hoping you could have such too.
These past few days, I have been saying "sana all" to myself. Not because of the things I saw but because of the situation I observed to.
There is this one person I am talking to everyday. Actually, she shared to me how their family is not perfect. How they used to have fights with their siblings, and sometimes with their mom, and seeing their mom and dad fight too; not physically but the usual fight of our mother and father. Which these situations are natural. Let's say this is how the bond of a family is getting stronger. Like you can see what each every member of the family needs from each other.
Why "sana all"?
It is because every time I have a conversation with this person through video calls, I used to see and hear how her family members are closed with each other. Like I can clearly hear their laughter. They talk to each other non stop. They teased each other which what normal siblings do. That their dad is going with the flow with the conversation they have and join them. And it feels so nice knowing that they have a happy family, that they are together. That they are complete. And looking and hearing them made me say, "sana all". How I wish I have that too?
Well, I used to have that. Before. Many years ago. It is just that, I am too young to really understand how it feels to have a complete family. To talk with them non stop. And I wanted to feel that again now that I can understand life. But how? If I am away from my family. If my dad is away from us for years now. If my brother is not in the province as well. It just really breaks my heart in silent. I feel so insecure.
And I have this second "sana all" too.
I am actually happy that my sister and her little family is finally home in our province after months of deciding and weeks of preparing for the requirements going home. I am happy that Liam, my niece gets to breathe fresh air and enjoy life in the province knowing that he was born here in Cebu and just a year after this pandemic blown up that he was not able to enjoy and meet some kid like him. But good thing, this time he can be able to do so.
My mom and my younger brother was very excited to see Liam. And I am happy that they got to see him for real this time. And they called me through video call and I felt insecure again. That I am the only one left here and they are almost complete there at the province. How I wish I am with them. As much as I wanted to cry in front of them knowing I missed them so much, I cannot as I do not want my mom to worry about me. I have no choice but to composed myself and show them how happy I am that they are together this time. I need to show my smile and just hope that soonest I can be with them too. Another sana all that I wish to turn into finally in no time.
That's all for today beautiful people. If you have any thoughts about this, feel free to leave it in the comment section below. Let's interact. Stay safe always! Xoxo ✨☺️
- MissJo 💜
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