I Give Up

A lot of you guys, my lovely readers must already know by now that this is not my first read.cash account. The account I opened when I was referred by @Kushyzee was doing great despite not having been visited by the Rusty for over three weeks. I kept on doing the needful, writing, and interacting as much as possible until I noticed that all my comments were showing "low score comment or spam". As I was still a noob, I asked @Kushyzee and he told m, I had been spammed, trust me when I say you can barely imagine my pain.

It might have really hurt but I wasn't going to give up, hence I opened a new account and started from scratch; putting so much effort, hoping to recover lost ground. It was one of my happiest day of the year when rusty visited my first article. I was related and finally rejoiced that things were going the way I had envisaged. Little did I know that this seeming joy was going to be fleeting. Not long after, i realized i stopped earning and soon i was spammed again.

Now I ask you, what would you do if you were me? A lot of people would give up and a lot of people will continue using the account hoping they might probably get unspammed and then some might open a third account! By now you know the category I chose. The pain was unbearable as I thought I had made a lot of progress on that account but little did I know that fate had other plans.

I opened another account, which is the one I'm currently writing with and after two Weeks it has also been spammed again! Gotcha, I'm just kidding. Well in those two weeks, I gave it my all and after two weeks of grinding, Rusty paid his first visit. The incidents with my past accounts has prevented me from total happiness as a part of my mind is secretly preparing for the spamming eventuality.

After visiting a number of my articles with about 12 hours in between each visit, I noticed that in the past 3 days that gets had not visited at all. At first my heart raced and i think it skipped a beat cos I thought my nemesis had caught up with me. The last time all of this happened I had to say goodbye to my hard work and progress and start anew. What I did wrong still remains history and I can't quite fathom what I did to deserve as of this. Having thought about all these, I have come to the concluding conclusion; I give up! Yea you heard that right, I give up!

That was what I thought until i thought to visit a particular telegram group where I asked @happyboy what was happening to my account and told me that it is a norm, in the sense that it has happened to almost every writer on this platform at one time or the other. After all said and done, I still give up!! I give up but this time not on Rusty but on my sense of entitlement, not on read.cash, but on my thinking that every article of mine deserves to be rewarded, not on the people who believe in, but on my self-centeredness.

All of us have multiple motivation for being here and I have never made a secret of the fact that my number one motivation is the reward, but now I see that if I keep holding that thought, it will simply depress me and force me to leave this platform. I am going to rearrange my priorities and send the reward to the tail end of the list. I am going to enjoy my time here with or without tips!!