Random ft. my Insomnia

Heya crazy dreamers 👋👋 How's your yesterday? I've seen a lot of sweet stories here and even on my other social media accounts. I feel that everyone is having fun yesterday. So for me just expected, we have a family dinner and we have random talks until midnight. I'm actually enjoy as it serves also as our bonding. But on the other hand, I'm also a bit sad for my cousin because yesterday ,his girlfriend broke up with him for the reason that she is still in love with her ex and she decided to give another chance to her ex boyfriend. What a Valentine's gift she give to him. So we comforted him because he cries a lot. It's my first time to see him crying and we actually crying also while giving him an advices. Maybe, it's not the right woman for him. The right one will come soon my dear cousin.

Basically, I can't think of a certain topic today as I'm not feeling so well. Dysmenorrhea is attacking me, you know girly thing. So I just shared about an update about my life hehe. But aside from this cramps and pain that I experiencing now, I also have a problem about my health. Lately, I can't sleep well. For the whole week, I only have 12 hours of sleep. I know that it is so unhealthy but I also don't know what happened to me. Mostly, I only have a 1-2 hours of sleep everyday so the results is dizziness and I don't have energy to move. I even force myself to sleep early but it is still the same. That feeling that your eyes is close but you are still awake and you are aware on what happened to your surroundings. All of a sudden, I woke up without any reason. I watched the clock on how to moves its hand. I hate being like this you know because as time passes it becomes worst.

Maybe overthinking is one of the reason why I'm becomes like this. I can't deny that as of the moment, my mind is preoccupied of a lot of things. I'm worried about my acads and also to some personal problems. Also, I always experience a bad dreams whenever I sleep so sometimes I choose not to sleep. There's a certain guy who is always chasing me in my dreams. A man in a black hoodie. I don't know why it happens to me. Maybe it's because that I always watched horror and movies about serial killers hahaha. So it's really my fault haha. I avoided drinking coffee because they said that it can also be the reason why I can't sleep at night.

I already said it to my Aunties and to my Mom. They said that I should consult to a doctor regarding with it because it might cause a big impact to my health. So I planned to set an appointment so that I can able to know what's the problem in me. Before I already consult to a sleep specialist and they already give me a sleeping pills but unfortunately it is not effective to me. I am still awake the whole night. They also recommend some vitamins but it has no effect in me. So I stop to intake that one.

While waiting on my consultation date, I tried to search some tips on how to beat insomnia, but the first one is to avoid stress which I think I can't prevent. Just like I said, my mind is fully loaded and it seems that it will exploded. I also start executing light exercises every morning so that I can still have an energy. I also limit my phone screen time. And of course I tried to change into more healthy lifestyle. Through this, I'm hoping that I can help myself to get my sleep pattern back to normal again. I admit that I'm a little bit nervous what might the results of the consultation. But I really need that on else something worst might happened in the future.

So I guess I will cut this article here because eventually my co-leaders chatted and said that we have a very very short meeting tonight about our plan to our performance activity. I believe that it's actually a short one because they will only asked if how's the activity going. For my group, we actually done practicing and composing a song earlier and I was so surprised because my groupmates is so talented. I hope all haha. Take care guys and always prioritize your health hihi. Thank you for supporting me always dreamers 🤗🤗