Why I can't write:Duties and Responsibilities

January 13, 2022

Awesome day my dear Read.cash friends! How are you all? I hope you are in a good situation.

When we write we need to relax our minds, bodies and have enough sleep so that we can think well. If we don't have enough rest, we don't have the energy and our mind can't think of even one topic.

This is what I'm experiencing now, as you all know I already have a baby, he is three months old and it's been a week since waking up at dawn become his hobby. I thought it will change when he grows old, they say. Usually, he wakes up at 2 or 3 am and fall asleep again in the morning, so we need to stay awake too. What I do is I play with him so that he will be sleepy again. And when he sleeps at 7 or 8 in the morning that's the time also that we head back to sleep but sometimes he wakes up in two hours. My eyes and head are aching when I immediately get up to carry my baby. Then went back again to sleep when falls asleep. That's been our routine since last week.

This is our picture when he woke up at dawn, he's hyper and shouting and laughing. I have a video of him but can't attach it here. He's laughing and that makes my sleepiness away. Look at my eyebags guys.

And because I don't have proper sleep, it seems that my mind doesn't function well that I can't think of what I will be going to write, also my body doesn't want to move like it just wants to lie down the whole day doing nothing, but of course, it's impossible to do so as I have responsibilities as a student, wife and a mother. Sometimes even though I squeezed my mind to think of a topic, it's not like before that I can think of one or two topics a day.

But of course, I don't want to be inactive here for long days so I need to think of motivation to write at least one.

My motivation

My baby. I don't hide the fact that we are earning here so it's important to us. We write to earn and also there's a bonus which is to interact with others. Since my partner doesn't have work now because of this pandemic their company cut the number of their workers, and my partner is just a newbie in their company so he includes those who lose their job. We need money to buy for our baby's needs such as diapers, milk since he's mixed now, etc. So I need to push myself to write for we need extra income. Even though I feel a bit sad since rusty's visit to me is not like before, maybe because my interaction here lessen and I don't publish every day like before.

Closing thoughts

Even though, my baby gives us a hard time getting proper sleep it's fine with me as long as he doesn't have a sickness. And when he is awake at dawn he's very cheerful and always smile at me which makes me not feel the sleepiness. What I do is I just capture a picture of him while smiling or I took a video. I'm hoping that soon the sleep hour of my baby will change.

Regardless of my situation right now, I will still write here and interact.

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Thank you guys for reading this so far.

-Loveleng18