She Cheated on Me(?)

What will you do when you find out that your partner is cheating on you?

In today's generation, cheating or breaking up with your partner became a common thing. that it is okay to break up with him/her. some teenager even proud of themselves when they have a lot of exes. But I'm not one of them, me a twenty years old I only have two relationship.

In this article is about my first ever relationship/ heartbreak.

The beginning; encounter

My story with my first girl start when one of my friend who's serving in a catholic church tried to convince me to join in a youth encounter. youth encounter is a program of different churches where different teens from their vicinity will join and interact with each other. but that time I considered myself as an atheist I don't believe on religion and slightly believe on the existence of God but I myself respect others belief. It took him a 2 days to convince me and our circle of friends. It's funny because the only reason why I did join is because that time it is summer vacation and that's the best choice to do in spending my summer vacations.

And so, we travel 2-3 hours from our place and went to a resort. we will spend our whole weeks in that youth encounter. The first day is still okay, we just introduced ourselves to everyone and the priest instruct us about things to do, not to do, and don't even dare to try. that night we just have a bonding with my friends. and the second morning come fast. after taking our breakfast and cleaning ourselves we went to a room where we will the program gon'na happen. we talk about ourselves, our regrets, questions in life and many more. in every session we change our seats based on what the instructor command us. It's just funny because in that day I seated next to stranger they wouldn't try to talk to me. but that's actually okay for me.

The third day is different I seated next to this girl. Without a minute had past she then talk to me with a confidence on her tone. she kept on asking me about things and to not become rude I did responds to every questions she throw on me. She's actually jolly person and lively a complete opposite of me. I tried to concentrate to the speaker in middle but I ended up chatting myself with her. I even saw the speaker continously looking at us like he wanted to throw something on us. I kept on making my voice low but she's just too loud. after that day, at night, my friends teasing me because it is rare for me to talk especially for a total stranger. I even myself was amazed to what I did. the next day and the following days is normal it's just that I'm catching a glimpse of her looking at me and she's approaching me every break and every night. A whole weeks went so fast, but after we go home she then approach me and asked me for my emails and facebook account.

The confession

The time we went to our respective home I thought everything will end there and I will gon'na forgot her name. But , that thing didn't happen. She kept on bugging me and telling me she wanted to talk to me. We're exchanging thoughts for a weeks and we to go out for a number of times. She even invited me to their church where she is serving at. She mostly start the conversation and open some new topics . I didn't know why she's doing those thing but I got attached to her and addicted at the same time.

A months had passed, I realized and decided to confess my feelings. But I haven't confess to anyone for my whole life. I take courage and think of an idea how to confess my feeling. I waited for the perfect moment to confess it but I mostly failed to do it. So, I decided to tell it through poem. I'm actually good at constructing words after making a poem I written it in a old paper and then left it in her bag when we part ways after our date. She then found out when she got home and asked me if that's mine . and that's when I confess my feeling on her. she told me she has the same feeling as I have.

The revelation: She cheated on me (?)

And so I decided and told her that I will gonna court her. I did court her. Brought her chocolates, flowers, and presents. We become too closed to each other. The past version of me who didn't attend church mass because of her. We always talk to each others, exchanging how our days went and how we fill that day. She even introduced me to her family. That time she told me she want me to come over their church to attend mass so she can teach me how to play guitar. After the mass she told me if she can teach me playing guitar in her house. I said "yes" without any hesitation. When we went to her house her whole family was there. I seriously wanted to go out and run that time but I'm frozen in shocked and fear at the same time. I seated on the couch and she introduced me to her family . I'm so happy that time thinking everything is going to be okay. We even didn't fight even once.

A month before her birthday 6 months of courting her we go out for a date. We spend whole day with each other. She even told me her plan in the future and I'm one with them, we laugh and enjoy every bit moment of it. When I went home I started thinking of my gift for her birthday I did prepare for that moment. 2 weeks before her birthday. I'm then, informed that she's letting someone from her school to court her too. I was shocked that time and disappointed because she didn't tell me anything about it. I immediately asked her about it, she apologized on me and then I she tell me she's being court by someone for a month and a half.

I didn't know if she cheated on me or if that thing she did is counted as cheating. But I felt cheated and broken that time. After that I told her I will gonna stop courting her. I didn't chat her nor open her messages I stop everything from her and go back to my old self but wiser.

For me, love is commitment and loyalty. That what ever what happen you'll stay loyal and committed to one person only and other third party will be considered as cheating. No matter the bigger the problem is , the boring the situation is you'll choose someone you truly loved.

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