Have you ever asked when you were a child? What do you wish to be in the future? What dream do you want to be? What kind of profession you are aiming for? Do you wanna be a doctor who cure any disease? A policeman who serve and protect the country? A teacher that will give knowledge to the future generations? A lawyer that will fight for the rights of people? Because for me, I wanted to be an engineer when I was a child.
Why do I want to be one? I don't even remember the reason of it why I wanted to be one when I was a child. Maybe it sounds cool? It is what my parents wants me to be? That it is where people look up it you? A profession for smart people? Or is it just my dream to be? Yeahh that dream of mine almost vanish on my head. That I can't even see a glimpse of it.
Because when time passes I almost lost my dream because of wrong choices in life (is it actually a wrong choice? No idea). I don't know why, but my track put me to electrical field. For almost 5 years of my student life I'm studying everything about electricity. It's not that I hate electrical field. Actually I even win a competition at electric competition.I just don't know why I'm here and doing it. but then, I saw an opportunity an engineering course is in front of me. I wouldn't gonna waste this chance like I did before. I grab it.
It's almost been a week since this things bugging in my mind, if you all gonna noticed I become too inactive because I'm not in myself for time being. My brain is always exhausted for a number of things especially this one. I been thinking for whole week if I should shift courses. My course actually is BSIT-ELEC bachelor in Science industrial Technology major in electricity. For some reason this is what I put in my enrollment for when I'm an incoming first year student.
I do accepted my fate and thoughts that it is my calling. But then at the middle of the year I become bored and lost. I realized I'm studying the subject that I didn't want to be. I can't picture myself in the future working in this field. Not that I don't like it, actually I'm the best in all my class in terms of this field I'm not bragging a chair just stating facts. But when you look ahead 5-10 years in the future and you can't see yourself that means there's a problem and you must look at it very well. I deeply think what is the main problem, is it just to bored to be in this course? Do I look it too easy that why I wanted to try new things? What else? I can't find the reason.
But then a week ago, I heard that my college school is accepting to shift courses. When I heard that one, I first deeply think if I would gonna shift courses. Let's go to the "No, No!" Side first, I don't wanna change course because as I said 5 years of my life was spent studying this field and it would be a waste if I'm gonna shift courses, second is that engineering courses is as hard as they said that many students cry on this one. Third is that I am scared, yupp I am, scared to be left behind by my batch mate, my classmates they will be going 1 year ahead of me I'm gonna see then graduate first before I do. But a side of me wanted to shift courses, first reason is that this is my dream since childhood, I study as hard as I could to put engineer before my name. It is my parents wants me to become at my elementary days also and even people around me Thought that I will be an engineer in the future. And so it makes pressure in my shoulder that I need to be one. I study hard because of it, I even mostly focus on math because they said this is where engineers good at. Third is that, engineer day said have high salary yeah everything's about money.
After a days have passed, what do I want to be? What do I think I will be more happy when I chosed.? Stay in safe or take a risk? I did take a risk. I know that even though it would put another year for me, that it will be a harder course that previous one. I know that I will be happy with this one. I will blame no one but myself alone because it is me who chosed it. I wanna be an engineer, yupp I shifted courses, did I do the right choice? I do
Closing Thoughts
Hello hello there my fellow readers and writers Its me once again your lazy writer lazysnail, I'm sorry for being inactive for this week again. Or for the whole month. Especially this week. And yesterday, I have a lot of things to do, and to be considered and I'm choosing priority over priorities which is which as they said.
If you have 2 option to choose, take a risk or stay for safer side. I suggest to take the risk especially when it's an opportunity. If you're scared that you will gonna regret it still choose it. Because no matter what you chosed a in all at the end, there's always a regretting moment and that what if part of your life.
You did the right choice and, in fact, you are the one who will write your future. Keep fighting, a successful man always does a second option di po ba?