Random thoughts

21st of February 2022

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I want to have some fun by exploring, see new places, meet new people and have the time of my life. I want to be free like a bird and fly high in the sky without limitation or fear of pulling pulled down by gravity.

I simply wanna enjoy myself without limits and have all the fun in the world which includes going to anime land (Japan), seeing some beautiful sights, having Japanese girlfriends and getting married to one, joining a dojo and become a samurai, or perhaps a ninja- which ever one's training wouldn't require me to push myself beyond my limit.

I'd better wake up from this dream before it traps me and allows me to no longer be able to differentiate between reality and fiction.

Surprisingly, after writing the first two paragraphs I got lost in thoughts and fell asleep. Woke up and realised I had slept for about 2 hours plus- signs that I need more than enough rest, as it's not normal for me to suddenly fall asleep for no reason.

Speaking of sleep, I've not ben having enough rest lately, I mention this all the time. Unfortunately, there's nothing I can do about it as the stress is simply inevitable. I find myself mostly awake till midnight and early hours of the day, after which I'd go to bed while also making up early the next day so I can meet up with tasks before me.

In the end, there is no rest as long as one is alive. Rest only comes the day we transcend from this mortal body unto higher planes of existence.. that's what we've been told from childhood, but I'm in doubt. What if the next world is an even greater stress, what if there is no next world, and what if we can gather enough resources during our youth and finally attain retirement at age 30? Food for thought....

As for me I'd stick to the last question... I'd rather stress myself as much ad I can now that I'm still young and retire at a very young age so I can enjoy the rest of my life while sleeping and waking whenever I want.. .plus the usual early morning jogs to keep me healthy.

I wanna go to my fantasy land called Japan. People that have been there say that Japan isn't really what it seems, and they got tired of being there barely weeks after their arrival as the initial excitement vanished instantly, plus the fact that strangers weren't warmly received as compared to what is shown on TV. I wouldn't care if this is true or not, lemme go experience it myself, after which I'd decide if I'd stay or not.

I wanna gather enough during my youth and go to my dream. I wanna have all the fun in the world and I don't want anything to stop me. I will push myself daily, deprive myself of sleep until I get that which I want!