My Suicide attempt! 😭

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4 years ago
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I don't know what do.. I really feel that i want to gone, in this world i mean, i want to end my life.. Yesterday i tried again to attempt to end my life by slicing my left wrist by a blade. In the c. R. But suddenly i heard some voices in my head telling me to stop it because my 3 children really needs me..!! Then i only cut 3 slice with little drops of blood on the tiles.. Then i stopped.. and wash the blood droplets on the floor. Thanks for the voices whispering in my head because it was too loud for me to be convinced. Than the other voice who tell me to kill my self

Thanks God i made it yesterday. To still hold on even if there's no way!!! To hold on.

I can't help my self i really alone no one family is there for me to understand and to help me specifically to my live in partner.. He is the most person pursuing and pushing me to the edge of my life..

I am already suffering from my depression since i was 12 yrs. Old and now im already 34,still it gets worst. And only one time i go to some public mental health professional. Coz its very expensive to have a treatment.

This is also my 5th times of trying to end my life.... I dont know what to do..

Because my relationship with the father of my children is very arrogant, very sarcastic, no patience, no care for me at all.. All he want is i have to give him more money in order for me to treat him well

I can't help my self but to cry and isolate my self inside the c. R. Coz he keeps telling me that im only acting and i dont have any mental illness.. He said if i kill my self i have to hang myself out side our house or in far away places that he can't be blame by anyone.

I don't know what to do.. I hope you will not judge me,my problem is for real.. Im here at read cash so that i can forget my sadness.. Even a little... Im so much sorry for sharing this story, and my problems here.

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it's your life..not his, the father of your children..i know it's easy to say until one going through this..but there is always an option.. choose your option wisely..help yourself.. lots of love from here..❤️❤️❤️❤️

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User's avatar girlnextdoor
4 years ago

Thanks for the advice you gave me my friend

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

Welcome dear❤️

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User's avatar girlnextdoor
4 years ago

Thanks my friend

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

I hope that you will be able to get some treatment for this! Depression and other mental health problems really are problems that start in your brain. Most people would need to see a therapist, and probably a doctor, to treat that problem.

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User's avatar AntiSJWLeft
4 years ago

Yes i know but it's really expensive to go to the doctor thanks for helping me to cope up with my problems

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

Oh dear, don't take your life that way. Just think about your kids, what will happen to them if you're gone? I don't really know your whole story, but I know life with a partner who don't understand, care and love for you is hard. Just pray always my dear, if you feel like you're giving up always talk to God. He is the best listener. If you're feeling that way again, jist write here on Read.cash, have some virtual friends here, talk to them and share moments through writing and commenting. I know you're a strong woman. You can get over it. Just hold on, life is hard but your kids need you. To live is beautiful, not all are given the chance to see how beautiful life is. Take care always dear. 😘

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User's avatar eommaZel
4 years ago

Yes my friend thanks for reminding that to me thanks for encouraging me to stay even lifevis so hard

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

Don't do that, life is wonderful just focus on positive thing.. Let God carried all your burdens..killing self is not a solution. Always look for the bright side of life. Have faith

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User's avatar Kris2310
4 years ago

Yes i know my friend thanks for that my friend for helping me out here this really helps me a lot thank you so much

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

You're most welcome, if you feel down just write article and share here you had a family/friend willing to listen you and guide you. We are family @read.cash we never see each other personally but we connect through writing..keep up the good work.. Nice write up by the way.

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User's avatar Kris2310
4 years ago

OK thanks so much my friend

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

nice

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User's avatar MH.Imran1987
4 years ago

Please be stay strong. Even if its just for your kids. Think what would they feel if your gone. Please don't do it again!!

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User's avatar El.Vin
4 years ago

Thanks my friend for the concern from you im very grateful because I have family friends in Read cash.

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

Nice. Keep going!

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User's avatar El.Vin
4 years ago

Thanks

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

Stay strong attempting suicide can’t really help👍👍👍

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User's avatar jenny12
4 years ago

Yes i will try my best to be stronger thanks for the advice you gave me here i felt that im not alone. Because of you all..

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

Yes thanks my friend for the support and suggestions to me

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

That's why it's very helpful if you have someone to confess to or to talk to who could understand you. Been there in that point of my life that I also wanted to commit suicide, it felt so alone but I turned to God and it help me a lot. Since then I know I'm not alone . And joining communities or platforms like this, can help you too. I know, sometimes it's easier to open up to someone you don't know rather than your family or friends because you think they will only judge you. Always think that you have kids, suicide is never a solution. Be strong for them. Aja! 😊

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User's avatar Japzuey
4 years ago

Thank you so much more for your helpful suggestion and advice to me, im very so overwhelmed and flattered. My friend.. I will do that my friend.. Thank you again

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

Your welcome. 😊 Be strong, you can overcome that problem.

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User's avatar Japzuey
4 years ago

Thanks so much for that

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

Welcome. I subscribed on, I hope I can get back. Thanks ☺️

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User's avatar Japzuey
4 years ago

Done subscribing to you my friend and liking

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

Dear dont even think of such things.... U have whole your life ahed...🙂🙂🙂

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User's avatar Asif_135
4 years ago

Thanks for encouraging me my friend

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

I am suffering from it thats why im helping my self to be productive here in Read cash i can let my self be happy for the moment i forgot my problems.. Just prayvfor me my friend

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

U always have my prayer and support dear... stay strong...😊😊

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User's avatar Asif_135
4 years ago

Yes thanks for hearing that from you my friend because im literally alone as in no one is there fir me to talk to i dont have friends hete in this place my live in partner place all the people dont like me here my neighbours and his family and relatives because they says that im a mentally ill person.

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

SUICIDE?oh cmon..its not a solution to your problem..if you feel alone..just try to sing and dance without partner or stress eating until your dress was choking and blowing..hehe

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User's avatar MaeGun
4 years ago

You make me laugh.. But seriously thats the problem no food to eat then my live in partner wants me to go out or do something to provide money and foods to us then hes always angry because he has only earning because of covid lockdown 1500 php every 2 weeks.. Nothings else then he wants me to ask always to my old 58 yrs. old mother to ask money every time we dont have if i cant ask because my mother dont have some extra money to give me he will always fight shout angry because i cant help him but the truth is im going to some charity asking foods for us but for him it's not enough

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

Be strong. SUICIDE is NOT the solution whatever your problem is. Better to talk so someone you truly trust. ALWAYS REMEMBER that committing SUICIDE is a SIN... YOu need to think your children. If you're going to end your life, what do you think will happen to your children? Do not let them alone or left. They needed you.

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User's avatar Gracee
4 years ago

But i dont have any friends. Right here in my live in partner place.. Even my neighbours are gossiping me that im crazy woman and very bad to my husband.. And all the family and relatives of my live in partner ate angry to me coz they don't like me so much..

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

I know your situation is bad but that's still not a reason to end your life. Have fear of GOD.

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User's avatar Gracee
4 years ago

I know my friend thanks for helping me..

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

You don't need yo kill yourself . what for? There is nothing worth killing oneself for in this life because every problem has as expiring date.

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User's avatar Aybanty260
4 years ago

Im nowhere to go my mother and my relatives don't want to help me because I have 3 small children to feed

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

The three small children have father I think.

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User's avatar Aybanty260
4 years ago

Yes he is the one who make me suffer more from this

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

Ohh sorry about that. There are better days ahead just know that

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User's avatar Aybanty260
4 years ago

You need some advice to your parent. Killing your self is not a big choice to ran away your problem think about your kids how they will grow up with their mama when you'll die? Maybe you should split up to your husband now.

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User's avatar Thesauce
4 years ago

That's my problem my mother is not willing to help me to get out of me in this situation because we cant support my children needs and we dont have any own house to live.. She is only giving me some money to buy foods for my children but not really big. I can't help my self because promised im nowhere to go no one is willing to help me to live with them coz i have 3 small children.. Even my own mother and uncles and relatives. My mother is only living in our relatives..

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

Stay strong dear 🙏

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User's avatar Bensaga
4 years ago

Thanks my friend pls pray for me

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

I will dear ☺️

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User's avatar Bensaga
4 years ago

Even if you will give him money he will only ask for more , if what i think of him is true. Save for yourself. Do not tell him all the amount that you earn so that you can have some if you really need it the most .

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User's avatar Mirriam23
4 years ago

Yes i know my friend but he always check my phone.. He is very much observant

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

Don’t ever dare to think to leave this beautiful gift called life..💔

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User's avatar Tsm77
4 years ago

If you can afford to live without that guy then why not free yourself? Why do you let yourself suffer so much?

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User's avatar Eybyoung
4 years ago

As i said i dont have any money for foods, shelter, house, and any family who will accept me together with my 3, yrs. Old 2yrs, old 7 months babies its very expensive to feed them. All i have is the money i Earn here in Read cash and other free earning sites. No parents because im a unwanted child both my parents tried to abbort me since i was a fetus inside the womb of my mother.

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

Omg your situations sucks, and your kids are little. Please have some birth control to avoid getting pregnant especially your situation is bad, kids will also suffer.

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User's avatar Eybyoung
4 years ago

I agree with you.

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User's avatar denzjam
4 years ago

What do you mean you agree? Please she needs a friend to be strong. Give her at least a piece of advice and words of encouragement.

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User's avatar Gracee
4 years ago

I agree to your comment... Please read my comment. scroll down. thank you.

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User's avatar denzjam
4 years ago

@Gracre and all who help me to encourage my self to be stronger thanks a lit my friend you dint know how much you help my feelings tonight that imbnot slone read cash family is here for me.. 😭 My tears are falling while im reading all your comments 😭😭 thank you so much!!! 😍 Pls my friends i really need your strong prayer to god to help me and guide me here to save my soul from hell because of committing suicide

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

I know how you feel my friend. Everyone feels sad, depressed, stressed, or angry sometimes especially when dealing with the pressures of school, friends, and family. Suicide is not the answer. You can share to us about your problem, share to your relatives, or your trusted friends and they are willing to help you. You are not alone, your readcash friends can give you some advice. Your sons/daughters need you. Think of them my friend.

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User's avatar denzjam
4 years ago

Thanks for the heart felt response from this

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

Welcome my friend.. Please don't do it. Stay strong dear.

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User's avatar denzjam
4 years ago

Yes i know.. Thanks

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

okay dear. Update us soon.

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User's avatar denzjam
4 years ago

great article..dear..

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User's avatar mostanzid.123-
4 years ago

Thanks its my probs

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

We all live under the same sky but you and I are far apart

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User's avatar Sagor1995
4 years ago

Yes its true

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

So Sad

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User's avatar Mehedi.Hasan74
4 years ago

I know

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User's avatar Kloverztel28
4 years ago

😍😍😍

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User's avatar Mehedi.Hasan74
4 years ago
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