Not all your friends are your true friend

June 26

All by myself I never knew that there are still a person who can used you and bring you down.

I am a kind of person who is humbly putting always oneself in the ground. I mean my personality is always burning kindness and humbleness. I've learned to become like this it's because of the people surround me and the learning day by day. I set my mind that always be kind to those who hate me even the fire burns out already inside. It's hard but you don't have choice because you don't want others hate them.

I don't know if this article will gonna be a rants or something like it is just expressing myself of this unexpected happening to my life.

I've come this scenario of this kind friend of mine. I don't know why she's like that where her personality always wear two sets of personality. A good and the bad. I know there were no perfect characteristics in this world but how come that she tried to make herself bitter towards her friends plan and goals in life. It is something like, she messed up and give us a reason not to trust her anymore.

I've known her so much respect because as a matter of fact she is older than me. My respect is always with her up until now even how many times she used me.

Whenever she had something to fix, she always call me just to fix it. Yes, I became her one call away friend. I am her 'ear' to listen all the messy things in her life and whenever she will gonna say 'secret lang to' well of course, I will not let her down by sharing those secrets of her. I always respect her because it is my pleasure that she trusted me all the way. I thought I am the only one knows about all her secrets but nahhh hehe she also share it to others. Well, she is the only one lead her secrets out of the bag. And yeah, whatever, its her life.

A little by little knowing her a couple of months, my impression to her is suddenly change because I already prove that she's different the way she is. But no matter who she is my respect is always within her. Even sometimes she gives me a reason not to trust her again.

The time has come that her real personality already come out. It is something like I am not deserve to have a respect from her. I am human as well even I am younger than her still I deserve to have respect.

These are the things that makes me startled the happening. She even scolded me without any valid reason. She keep uttering words in a high pitch in front of me with two people surround us. She is mad at me why I decided not going to the city and have my appointment. The reason why she is mad because she set her appointment with the same schedule of mine. Well, in fact it's not my mistake and it's not my fault. I have a valid reasons also why I didn't went to my appointment because that time I need to focus making lesson plan because I have three preparations unlike to her she has only one preparation and already ready made. I was like speechless the way she treat me that time in front of me with other two person. ( in my part seems like there's no happening still my approach was still fine)

And the other scenario, when we are together in the city. We have something important errands there. She went to the terminal first and she leave me at the Public Office. So, she waited me at the terminal even she don't know what time I finish my appointment there. After a couple of minutes, I'm done and I walk by the street even the sun is up and so hot. I told her that I need first to passed by the minimart to buy a water because I am super thirsty that time. I received a chat from her that I need to fast and I keep asking where are they located, I keep observing where is she but I've heared a loud voice coming from her and she shout at me with lots of people surround. I feel so small and bursting out my anger into my mouth. I even badly response to her that "they should leave me why you waste your time to wait for me" It feels like I am so angry that time because of the hotness from the sun and she makes me dishonor in the crowd. Of course, it is very humiliating. She don't have a heart of what will gonna be my feelings from her approach.

Worst thing about is that when she uttered words that will make me underestimated. They underestimate my capacity unknowingly they don't know that I have a capability. They judge me that they are the only one can passed the required rating from our rankings. It feels like i'm too small. In fact, they don't what's behind my success maybe I cannot shout to the world one of this days because it's not official yet. But I know God is with me no matter what the result there were always a better plan from him into my better days.

Indeed, we can have a friend who will downgraded us. Not all the times they are good in front of us somehow they will give us a reason that they will not be trusted one.

Choose a friend who will stay true to you!

No hate, Just Love.