Emotions can have you saying a lot of different things knowing you don't mean every word, most especially when you know there's nothing else left in a relationship and you feel you've set a perfect image, I guess she must have been your biggest regret. I know I tend to breathe differently when she leaves but I can imagine how you would feel worse than an asthma attack trying so hard to catch your breathe.
Some people come into your life once into a life time maybe as your spouse, as a friend or a partner and when they do we just have to pray that we're done with playing games. And if not, we will completely use up our lifelines in the process.
Like an unfinished novel yet already a classic, the best book I've ever spoken to was you and you're blessed to be among the chapters. In her story I can continue to grace the blank pages that have yet to be written. I used to think that my biggest fears was dying too young or not reaching my full potential, but when it hits me and I then realize that my biggest fears become just another failed project. All because I skimmed through her pages and never took the time to read them carefully, also didn't care to retain the information, didn't even respect the content and didn't handle the book with care that it left many pages torn.
What would you expect from a broken heart, that keeps trying hard to reminisce over her....its just like a book off a shelf that has been read countless times even after getting the message. Sometimes you talk about it in front of a whole lot of people all because you want to be free like every other reader yet comparing your situation with a book. To put her back in the same shelf and risk the chance of somebody else realizing that there isn't any other book there more valuable.
I couldn't agree more, maybe it was actually with you but you didn't know how to keep it. But if you are lucky to have one in your life that stays with you, then I'm sure you're one of the luckiest. Why are you worrying over the things you can't change, just like an ink that has been written on sheets of paper cant be cleaned off. And this goes out to every one that has left you....been sober only makes you worse, maybe it wasn't really your fault.
It's time to move on and stop hurting because the more you do that every other person comes to that same shelf and would pick up the same book and equally flip the pages just as you did. Have you ever been in this situation before, he or she is your Ex now, if it was meant to be then you should be fine with how you are.
Many things could affect our state of mind and one of them is from the impact of breaking up. I actually found myself in that condition but we where never certain it was a relationship....we could just be tagged friends anyway. I hope you do get the message I was trying to pass, the more you keep inflicting pain over a failed relationship someone else has equally engaged with the so called lover. Goes out to everyone, forgive me if I was only referencing the guys here.
One of the main reasons I wasn't active yesterday was because I went for a school defence, which turned out great. My whole experience was bitter sweet, I stood for hours just to get in. I will also try to cover up more and read my comment section....love you all so much.
Thank you for reading....
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