Conqueror of Laziness
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Every last minute of doing something before the deadline becomes my hobby. You know, it will make my mind productive and my actions will instantly flash. hahaha. Like, every Sunday because of my laziness to wake up early and prepare for early hashing is the key to catching the 6:00 am service. Speaking of laziness, we all have a day when we feel like laying in bed and want to do nothing. I think it is ok to be laziness at one point of the whole week, through laziness we are able to rest and relax from those things that pressure us. Laziness will not be considered ok if everyday is doing nothing when it is important one.
Me, laziness day is Monday I don't know but I observe every Monday of the week my body can't help to be lazy. Lazy to wake up early, do the chores and get into the class. You know, sleeping is all I want on Monday. Also, my laziness is triggered when I don't feel okay, like having a heavy heart like a few days ago.
Despite the laziness, did you know that through laziness we are able to become productive. Procrastination is the result of laziness, and procrastination makes the deadline shorter. The shorter the time, the more our mind corporations. Like what usually happens to me, every monday tons of school work awaits and sometimes I procrastinate to like doing all the work one day before the deadline. That's how laziness affects me, I need to double my time to fill in those hours of laziness.
Overcoming laziness is much harder like what we expect because you know we always overcome laziness in our way of thinking by doing the plan task but end up doing nothing. The most difficult laziness to overcome is when the weather is gloomy or it is a rainy day. It is so hard to resist the call of our bed especially when the cold breeze hugs us. Good to you, if you overcome that laziness co'z me that's the most challenging part to be productive in a day.
If you really want to overcome laziness , like what I do every monday. It is good to start up our day with a cup of coffee to awaken our senses for all the tasks we must execute to be successful. In drinking coffee we can do our meditation. If you're a coffee lover, you can do the exercise, a simple or heavy one. It is important to awaken our senses. I realized when I start jogging every morning, the more I sweat, the more productive my mind becomes.
Second, don't plan too much ahead of time. Planning is okay but not too much co'z it will make my mind exhausted by imagining it. Planung this and that makes me want to sleep more because of the thinking that there are too many things I need to do. I love to plan honestly but I ended up doing nothing. So, what I did, I just do what is more important.
Lastly, discipline our time. Time never depends on us, it will continue to move and move and if we don't value the time we lose so much opportunity. Discipline our body from being lazy. Have you ever experienced, our mind is ready to do but our body is not. Discipline by waking up early, doing exercise and sleeping early co'z sleeping late at night makes our next day lazy because of the lack of sleep.
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Let's talk . . .
Date: October 16, 2021
I want you to be okay. I want you to be good and fine. I want the best thing in you. I want the best of you. When you are okay, I am okay. But there are times that I can't control things. I want the best and only happiness. Maybe you feel co'z I don't want you to feel good and be unproductive. My life is in your hands the moment you stop, is the moment I die. I always talk to you, consult you and nurture you. Talk to you early in the morning to start up my day with greatness and before sleeping to release the baggage within that day Some people take you for granted for being fragile without their knowledge, slowly breaking you piece by piece. But how can they know if they don't care? So, talking to you is essential co'z anytime you will explode like a bomb.
Whom I am talking about? or referring with? It's our heart. Our hearts carry both positive and negative feelings that no matter how much we try the moment our heart is heavy we become unproductive beings. A secret place for all our feelings untold. It needs to be healthy as much as possible the more we keep negativity our actions will speak. If it is full of gratitude, happiness, sadness, pain or other feelings, actions will always speak of what's inside us no matter how hard we try to hide it.
I don't know where it is headed and what's the main point of it. I just want to do free writing to ease the heavy feeling I possess in me. My apology for this article.
Waking up with good vibes and welcome positivity co'z this is the last day of examination. Doing the routine at the exact time and it becomes more beautiful on Saturday. Mama cooks breakfast knowing that any minute my exam will start. Right after I turned in, I received a text not totally ruining my day but affecting me so much. I suddenly become unproductive and lay in bed at all because of the message. The plan of publishing early postponement and the topic I must write diminish. Staring at the notepad and ending up with nothing even a single word written on it. I need to release and talk to someone whom I trust.
God knows struggles and He sends someone that I can share with. He sent him. The guy whom I openly share even writes articles at read.cash except mentioning his name. Throughout our conversation and asking me "how was my day , especially the exam", I replied "My heart is heavy '' without a second he calls me. He just listens and tries to make up for my day. One thing I adore about him is, he knows how to divert my emotions, even becoming a clown and throwing some cringe lines that we both hate and laugh when heard or read on social media. Still confused, if we are in a relationship I'll answer you no, still in the process of getting deeper. And we don't do harsh things to enjoy the process of getting there.
Right now, the heart is ok and back to being productive. I clear my unseen notification bell because of the update version and a ready to publish article even if it turns into nonsense. Again, my apology. Time checks almost 1 in the afternoon and the gloomy day is gone,hoping it will continue. Happy lunch, read citizen.
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Question me and I'll Answer
Date: October 15, 2021
*"Rain, rain go away come again another day little children wants to play"*
Welcome to gloomy days together with rain and thunder. Maybe Maring is not done yet. I sang the song co'z I missed bathing under the rain, so I did it. I publish early co'z I have an examination later and I need to study harder but the weather wants me to sleep, lol. Cup of coffee para sa natutulog kong katawan lupa hahaha. I am inspired to make this by Mareng @Ruffa "With Orpheo and some Questions" and tap me on this site. https://read.cash/@Ruffa/with-orpheo-and-some-questions-bb406ec9 https://randomwordgenerator.com/question.php
*Lemme start😊*
**When you're by yourself, what do you usually think about?**
I always daydream. Who doesn't love daydreaming? In daydream I can be who I want and wish to be. Usually daydream as a wealthiest and influential person that just one call I can get what I want. Daydream that I am a mafia boss, gangster and a spy. Throwing daggers and knives with guns in my hand like what I read in wattpad before. Inspite, I imagine walking down the aisle while singing with my crack voice hahahaha. I don't know but I just love daydreaming.
**Who in your family can't you believe you're related to?**
My brother has already died. Many people could say we are not related to each other because of our appearance. I don't know but he inherited my mama's figure when we grew up, especially the skin. I remember when I was a kid they always tease me by saying "*Nakit.an raman ka sa basurahan din giampon raka namo oy''* ( We just see you in the trash bin and adopted you) and I always ended up crying because of the thinking I am an adopted. They always broke my childhood heart, you know🤧.
**What's your definition of success? Has it changed over time?**
Success is when I can see my mama's pride in me. Some people could say to me "just one step and you will be successful" maybe in school matters but not in life success. My definition of success never changes as time goes by, everytime I see mama proud of me even in small things I feel successful. Successful to make her happy, successful being a child, successful to make her life easy and successful to give what she wants.
**What app or website completely changed your life?**
Lalayo pa ba ako, its read.cash. This platform changed my life, not just me but all of us. This platform becomes our diary and a secret keeper to speak what we've been through. I gain ideas and perspective from different writer. Also, we earn because of our hard work to make an everyday article. Through read.cash we are able to buy foods and pay some bills. No words can describe how my life change after meeting this platform. Yes, it is hard at first and easy to give up but when we spend and engage our life giving up is not that easy because it is part of our daily life to write, read and interact.
**What did you learn from the last book you read?**
A wattpad book? Educational book? Financial book? A bible? Life book? I don't know what book you're referring to but I could pick the bible. As a Christian it needs daily communication with the Lord- praying and reading the bible. I know in the bible we learn so much but today I learn to "**Let go and Let God"**. Let go of those things that hinder me to grow and drown me into sin. Letting go is not easy, that is why let God remove those things by pruning and rebuking in painful ways co'z in pain we grow more mature.
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If I were a...
Date: October 14, 2021
These past few days I observe the changes in me, I don't know if it is a good change or bad. Together with that, I become more distant and alone. You know, I have been depressed for some reason but thanks to read.cash who has become my free wall or diary to write what my mind runs. Paperwork and examination awaits me in reality, I need to make this fast. By the way, if I am not mistaken, last week this prompt was open to all the writers who wanted to join and I read many articles about it and I can't mention you all😊.
*Without further ado, lemme start😊*
**If I were an Inventor** it would mean I am genius or smart enough to invent new things that people would love and entertain. Invent something that will help to make our life easy. Fun thing is, I am already an inventor in my daydreaming moments, especially inventing to make my schooling easier.
**If I were an Inventor** I would invent eyeglasses with hologram google. This hologram google is only visible and accessible when you wear the eyeglass. I know it sounds cheating but who cares I want that invention. Just one tap in the side information given. This invention always comes into my mind when I have a profession that is objective only in the discussion portion. Literally, I memorize 2 sheets of yellow paper back to back. If only eyeglasses with hologram google were in the market surely I can't buy them hahaha. I don't have money and it will cost thousands but if I am the inventor I can own more than one piece.
**If I were an Inventor** I would invent a dream controller. A dream controller that depends on what you prefer to dream while sleeping. If we dream good, beautiful and we feel so much happiness in the dream, the next morning our day starts with happiness. But when we dream about something sad our day will be sad also. Our dreams affect our mood of the day. Like what happened to me, I was so lonely because a friend of mine's dream about my family faded. I can't help to think negatively and think of some scenarios that make me more alone. So, if we have a dream controller we can dream whatever we want.
**If I were an Inventor** I would invent a mirror that makes everyone beautiful when they look at it. You know, looking at the normal mirror tells our real appearance and I see some people look down on themselves because of it. If I invent a mirror that makes everyone beautiful so that they will know their worth and gives courage to believe themselves they are beautiful co'z acknowledging our own beauty makes us more beautiful.
**If I were an Inventor** I would invent waterproof shoes of all types. Wearing white shoes suddenly heavy rain comes, the white shoes become brown shoes and the feet together with socks are wet. For the student, it is so difficult and a hassle to wear school shoes on a rainy day. Usually the shoes will get wet. So, waterproof shoes will ensure that no matter how heavy the rain is, our shoes and feet are still dry. It lessens the hassle in minding our shoes.
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Response in Worth Fighting
It is a 13 day of October, and a few days from now I will celebrate my 2 months here at read.cash🙈. The weather seems so good from the raging Maring yesterday, hopefully. Early in the morning, I just checked and read some articles and I am stuck in @BreadChamp article "Why fight for it if it's not worth it" and I ask her permission to make an entry on it. Thank you sis for allowing me😘. Thanks for saving me and my loaded mind😂. https://read.cash/@BreadChamp/why-fight-for-it-if-its-not-worth-it-5da41400
*Lemme start😊*
**If your partner hides your photos on social media, is it okay for you?**
Totally okay, no big deal. Just like what I want, a private relationship no need to flex or whatsoever. If he does hide my photo it is up to him co'z it is his account.
**Is it considered a one sided relationship if your partner is not 100% open to you?**
A big yes, in a relationship trust is the foundation to make the relationship healthy and grow. Being open to the partner means so much and it helps the relationship go deeper because both of us know what we are fighting for. Kung hindi nagloko for sure no need to hide. Openness is important on the girl 's side, I dunno if you could agree with me. In girls if our partner is very open we feel like he loves, trusts and treasures as much as his partner by considering knowing. Kaya nga partner kasi dapat dalawa tao ang involve.
**You opened your partner's social media once, is it okay that your partner changed her/his login right ahead?**
Yes it is okay to change his password co'z it is his account not mine but what is a big deal is when he didn't tell me the new password hahaha. I trust him but the gut feeling and overthink inside me will cause our fight. If he wants privacy maybe in the first place he could not let me access his account. The gut feeling will always be there even if we don't want to. Change it then tell me the new password to avoid fighting and misunderstanding😘.
**Is this type of relationship already a toxic one?**
Maybe no, a toxic relationship is when both of you are hurting and not growing individually. Toxic when no more understanding of both sides and one voice rule the decision in a relationship. When that situation comes, leaving and breaking up is my solution to save from being more toxic. It is better to end than to suffer more.
**When can you say that it is over?**
When? maybe when I did my part to fight for but my partner still wants to let go and go. I want to fight as long as I can, for me not to have regrets when break up comes and proudly tell myself "I did my best in that relationship". When I say it's over, totally over kahit ubos na ubos nako.
**Do years in a relationship matter to you?**
No, many couples last for years but end in break up. In years, partners can get to know each other more and still break up and some stick to that relationship because of the word "sayang". No matter how long the relationship or small span of knowing when both of you are ready for lifetime commitment in each other's arms surely ends up into a married thing.
**Is it still worth fighting for if you already tried your best in your relationship?**
This question is what stuck me the most the moment I read until now. Part of yes but also part of me no. Maybe yes, still worth fighting for if I see my partner also fight the relationship we have. If not then maybe that's the time the fighting for is not worth it. I will stop fighting when I can see he doesn't see my worth.
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I got $590K to Spend
Evening cold breeze to you😘
I feel the raging storm that tries to destroy together with strong wind that anytime the proof will fly away. Heavy raindrops will longer flood will be the next thing. I feel the typhoon like what the news said. I see the flash of thunder light with the roaring sound. Did you experience feeling heavy then suddenly the weather acts like what you feel? Like today, the weather is what I want to do. To let them feel my raging anger boil in me but then I can't do it co'z I don't want to destroy something. Too much with that and I will not go into details why. That is not what I am talking about as the title speaks hahaha.
*Lemme start😊*
Money can't buy happiness but money can buy what makes us happy. If you don't agree with me, I am willing to open and wide my arms to welcome your money in my life hahahaha.
I first read it in a @FarmGirl article and many co-writer wrote their entries, many to mention you guys. At first, I wanted so much to make an entry as early as possible but weeks later I decided not to put my eagerness awake today to write about it.
`Note: If we have the same perspective it is pure accident and I made not for comparison.`
590K dollars is not a joke, it is equivalent to 29,500,000 in the Philippines currency exchange. Woah! Can I have it😂 Imagining having them in my hands makes me tremble and giggle in excitement. Money, money, money where are you?😂😂
**Build house and buy a lot**
Where Mama and I are comfortable with. I want it in a quiet area and away from many people to avoid gossip and CCTV neighbors hahaha. Not so lavish house and two storey style because when mama gets older it's difficult for her. A house that has a pool and balcony where I can see the sunrise and of course the house must be surrounded in bermuda grass. That is what I dream for in my house. Also, a house and a lot for my siblings and their family.
**Build business**
A mini groceries store and a buy and sell product from the farmers. Here, we need to have one ride to go to the public market. I need that business so much that I save for it and try my best to make it happen.
**Invest into Stock Market**
As I study those fluctuations going up and down I fell in love with it especially when it will turn into a green line. The risk is visible co'z it is like a gambling so for me to lower the risk and avoid too much stress of thinking about the graph line I will invest into different categories. Food, Financial and Real Estate are my target categories.
**Donation for Charity**
Charity for homeless people from children to elder. I don't but it is my nature to help those homeless by giving small amounts and praying for them. My heart silently cries when I see one homeless person being ignored by people. I could donate 1 million for them to live comfortably and eat healthy foods to sustain their body.
**Give 1 million each for my siblings**
I see their needs and their family needs. I want them to be part of my success and that huge money will help them to start a business and for them not to work day and night or go abroad just to earn. Giving them meaning we can be together one more time and bond with our mama co'z mama is getting older.
**Educational Fund for my niece's and nephew**
I want to secure their future. They can get what course they want without minding the expenses. I don't want them to experience what I experience.
**Tithes or 10%**
I will bring back God's portion because He is the owner of it. I will not have the huge amount with His help and favor.
**Joint bank account with Mama**
The rest of the money will be put in the bank and made a joint account with Mama. I want to pamper her so much regarding the cost and share my success with her.
So, 590K dollars where are you? I am ready to receive and hold you hahaha. Come to mama 590K dollars😂… You, what will you do with the 590K dollars?
Shalom and Greatness awaits😇
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Wind Voice Wins
***Rule your mind or it will rule you.***
***-Horace***
He started to speak again and happened again and again countless times to convince me to follow him. Weak voice turns into a loud and clear calling "come and everything will be okay" and encourages me to obey. I let him rule me again hoping everything will be okay. I let him to put confidence in me. I let him dictate what should I do. To the point, I let him took my life. Seconds by seconds I feel numbed and let the red thicker blood flow like there's no tomorrow. It is a fault to let him rule me, just to end the unbearable pain? Definitely yes, co'z you don't know the reason behind it. You don't know the feeling of that calling someone you trust but choose to left you in time of need. You don't know the pain and even the reasons. You don't know the feeling of being somebody and nobody.
No one notices the scars start to re-open again. I want to stop his ruling in me but how could I fight when I couldn't find the reason to fight for it. How could I fight if from the start I already claim to be defeated. I see hope when you slowly walk at me, teared eyes co'z finally my pal back into senses. I look at him with begging and relief but why is the world so unfair? The light I saw became my dark nightmare. " I love you but I need to go", to go where I was not there.
Begging is the last thing I do. I want to beg but for the first time the ruling voice stops me from doing so. Head high turning my back and walking away from him while it slowly killed me. I am not immune to it being alone at the end of the day. Oh! I remember I will never be alone co'z the voices from weak to loud and clear are there with me all this time. Tic Tac, tic tac and tic tac that sound witness how I surrender and let him rule me.
Funny, as they think when they knew I was there in tons of suicidal attempts and thoughts. How good an artist I am to fool them with a plaster smile written on their face. Strong as they think without it was a forsaken of being belittling. Don't judge me just because my solution is not the solution you expect. Saying suicide is bad and never be a problem solution but have you ever try to fit in with my shoe? Have you ever tried to experience my experience? Have you ever tried knowing the wounded me? If not, then zip your mouth to shut up and mind your own business. I am not that foolish to commit with lame reasons.
Now, ruling my mind is not a choice co'z the enjoyment and happiness voice effect has the deadliest mind alive. I don't know when it will leave like others did but hopefully not for now. Let me taste those things I have never tasted before. Evening comes the darkest ruler. Let me do the cuts, braises and bleed in red thick blood. They smell good and lead me to sleep so deep that no one can wake me up.
Monday is no longer a lazy day. Happy to see the progress in my life slowly but surely. One step will always be the most difficult step but let the goal win. When my heart is not okay, let it rest. I don't have a heart problem if you think that way.
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Blast in Happiness
Blessed Sunday to all😇
**Kringgg….. Kring** looked at the alarm at 5:00 in the morning to prepare before going to church. It was supposed to be like that but sleepiness wins. Stop the alarm clock and snooze after a 30 minutes nap. Then ring again and snooze again at 5:45 am and harshly prepare co'z 6:00 am the service will. I am the flash in just 15 minutes. Tulog pa girl😂. Seriously, it has become my habit to set an alarm and snooze it back. I don't know if it is a good or bad habit.
Before I proceed, I would like to share a few words to ponder from my earlier preaching. It talks about the "Grace from God '', His grace is very sufficient like the feeling I don't deserve it but still His grace surrounds me. Feeling of committing sin again and again is so shameful to ask favor and blessing from Him yet He is so faithful to supply our needs and hear our prayers. I was rebuked with the preaching today because of abusing the grace but thankful for the correction I received. Yes, being rebuked by the word of God is painful but it heals and satisfies our soul.
Drawing no more😂 plan to celebrate and bonding as well happen this afternoon. Original venue plan in the river but some of the girl's parents forbade them because of the viral video about the sudden flood that took 3 lives. We respect their decision so we move it into the beach near us. While waiting for the food, I facilitated the games for fun and killed the boresome.
First, buwan-buwan laro (I don't know the english term) moon-moon game?😂. Draw an average circle that all the players will fit in and the taya (catcher) will run in the circle to catch a player. It is so much fun because the players will panic and avoid the catcher. Pushing, fitting in and shouting is the common thing and adds fun to the game.
Second, patintero is a famous Filipino game and will never fade. I divide the group into 4 members to guard each line and the goal is to pass from the start to finish line. Technique is a must to accomplish the game and small distraction ro catch the attention of the guard so the allied will proceed into the next box. My team wins with the score of 1-0.
Third, the red light and green light from squid game. It was so fun because I sang in different versions of whatever my mouth could speak. Like " Okowa-kowa chuchu Yamshnida" sorry for that invented word, I just made it for more fun. Ended with saying " red light, green light" because I felt ashamed saying my invented words and I saw some people look at us. First round, all players were eliminated because of my gesture and facial expression that burst into laughter. Those games have consequences for the losers. I decided they will crawl to the winners and they obey hahaha. I feel like I control the rules whatever I want but I will never do that for fairness. Some notice my hype, some assume it's because of someone but maybe they're right hahaha.
Evening comes the rain falls as the weather informs. They said two typhoons will land here in Mindanao but hoping together with prayers it will not happen. Expected for the following days a rainy morning or afternoon or evening or even dawn. Keep safe to all of us. I will be back tomorrow to clear the unseen notification bell. And yes, the technical problem is still not fixed but I am used to it. Early, goodnight and sweet dreams read.cash citizen😘❣️.
Shalom and Greatness awaits😇
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Glimpse of Me
Magandang Buhay to all🎉
2nd Saturday of the month. The weather seems gloomy and it affects the mood. Rolling the bed and sleeping all today is what I want but I don't want to dwell with my thoughts co'z laziness will be triggered. Mama says "If you want to be successful, conquer every little laziness you have". I can't think properly to construct a topic today, I just have to lay and sleep all day but surely mama's mouth will be a machine gun hahaha. As we took a break in my online class I decided to type and do the challenge again that I made before "15,10 and 5 minutes challenge" to activate my mind and whole being. It is good to take when you feel sleepy doing but the work ahead will make you productive. Thinking of this challenge awakens my sleeping mind and brain already but I decided not to do it because my loading mind didn't cooperate😂. You know, my sassy side is awake also because I took a nap while doing the oral recitation for those who did not make it last Saturday. I don't know why but the voice of my professor seems like a lullaby in my ears. How ridiculous I am to think of it hahaha. When I was in the moment of deep nap my professor suddenly asked a question. I thought it was for me but thank God it was intended for someone else hahaha. Conscience haunts me, so I fight my sleepiness.
Let me properly introduce myself outside this platform. This is my first time writing about myself. Lemme start😊
My real name is "**MARIELLE**" and is spelled by others as "Mariel" . It irritates me co'z Mariel is a very common spelling. One of my teachers before, assigned us to ask our parents about our name's reason. Excitedly, I asked my parents and said "I name you after an artist" I googled the artist but could not find it. They just made an out of nowhere connection with their names. There are times when I register on social media. I prefer to use "Maryel" to represent simplicity of spelling and pronunciation. When I joined this platform, my first choice of username was "JustMe." It meant writing purely through experiences and untold stories that my personal friend could not recognize and play mysterious hahaha. Sadly, it was used already. Second option, "JustMaryel" to carry may real name but in different spelling that I prefer the most misspelled at all.
**I am an Athlete**
Athletes by mistake. It is not supposed to me but my friend because of personal matters, she insisted I am her swap. On the day, I was carried into the huge field to train and I didn't have shoes to wear, honestly I do even know what the play was. They handled me with cloves, bat and a ball, it was for softball games. Throughout the process, I was able to be a captain of the team and be assigned to different positions. The danger is the catcher, the person behind the batter. Achieving those is not easy, I undergo several hit balls in my face and chest without mama's knowledge. Everything paid off because I learned it all.
**I am a Youngest**
They look as if being the youngest is a privilege and advantage without knowing the struggles. Yes, we are most favored most of the time but we also carry the most high expectation parents have because they think we youngest are the last hope especially being in a poor or average family. What happens to our older siblings whether successful or not the expectations are still high. We are 5 and I am the youngest who takes care of my mama.
Typically, a simple girl with so much to offer. Hobbies and like? mostly the common like others but not into make ups. I love weird things but not into exotic one. Lastly, very complicated taste even food is life😂.
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Push Me into...
No feeling can surpass the feeling of seeing our parents proud, happy, disappointed and crying. Every laugh and smile motivates us to conquer more but when they cry every tear breaks our hearts piece by piece. They want what is best for us and teach us to dream high. We want to be successful to return the sacrifices they made and shoulder those needs they want. Gladly, I slowly made her proud because of read.cash. September 6, 2021 when I was inspired to hold my earnings to accumulate 1BCH is one of my dreams. I open it up to mama and encourage and support me about it. Day by day I am eager to publish one article per day. Successfully, when I look at my wallet, I am amazed by the result. I am able to accumulate $85 from September 6 to October 6 *(thanks to you😘, who support me)*. No plan to cash it out but circumstances happen.
Before welcoming and setting goals for October, mama went into sickness and it's going back again and again. I encourage her to see a doctor but she refuses because of the swab test. Also I see some bills need to be paid. Without further notice, October 5 when I convert my $85 dollar or 4,250 pesos and October 6 when I get the cash without a second I buy some cough medicine to sustain 7 days taking 3 times a day, sack of rice and LPG tank. The rest was used in buying vegetables and fruit and some goods. Months of earning just spent within 5 hours but I am happy with the result because it is visible to my mama, she is proud of me.
I made my day yesterday because of how grateful I am for this platform.
`(I am not bragging instead expressing my gratitude)`
Sorry for that dramatic paragraph, a few days ago I read the article "Who's Kickin' My Butt?" by @FarmGirl about the people who push her to strive. Those articles are related to my introduction, so I decided to make an entry. Read their entry. It will inspire you like how they inspired me. https://read.cash/@FarmGirl/whos-kickin-my-butt-6e123bce
`Note: I made this not for comparison, if we have the same perspective it is by accident and not my intention.`
**Mama**
She kicked me not physically though, kicked me to continue my journey. I can't bear to see her stress with the bills, so the platform is a way to help her even in small amounts. Looking at her and seeing her face being proud of me pushes me to write per day even though I plan not to. Her smile and laugh sooth my souls and mind dreary. She is my inspiration to survive at read.cash. Generally, my earnings will be used for her and for bills. I want to spoil her in small things because she deserves it throughout the year of sacrificing.
**Goals**
You know, I love planning but not setting goals. There is no wrong in trying, if I fail, at least I try. I already shared my goals and one of them has already been achieved. Goal sets push us to achieve our goals and remind us to keep working to make it happen. Goals that we do anything with our power to taste our achievement of our goals.
**Rusty/RR**
Your so generous to me even at the first stepping this platform. Blessed I am being noticed by you day after I sign in inspite of it I experienced his missing for few days but I make it an inspiration to continue. Many writers worried and miss you for being missing two days and thankfully you were back. Thank you for your generosity @RandomRewarder.
**You, literally you**
You who patiently endure my nonsense works, you who support me, you who make comments, you who subscribe, you who likes, you who upvotes and you who sponsor. Those of you who invite me to get up and write on my tiredness day. You who made me achieve my one goal and you who makes my mama medicine purchase. All of you help me to make it happen. We don't know personally but you help me as my family.
`Check and read their works of my generous sponsors. Thanks a lots😘. Happy to see you in my sponsors block.`
Those are the people I mention above push me to survive. What pushes you on this platform to continue?
Shalom and Greatness awaits😇
`Lead image is not mine.`
JustMaryel sending you Love❣️
Rise for New Beginning
Amazing day awaits us. As the sun rises, hope will be. Many writers including me noticed the absence of Rusty and we missed him so much. Today, as I opened my unseen notification bell, I saw some notification from @RandomRewarder and was so happy with it. I hope that Rusty comes back already. You know, those two days are a challenge to all writers to see how perseverance, determination and passion we are in writing. I hope you also receive what I receive😊. Let us be happy and joyful with the new beginning. Speaking of beginning, today I began to change some of my routine. Weekdays wake up will always be around 7 o'clock and I realize if it continues it will become my burden when I enter the real world.
Before sleeping I put my cell phone into alarm mode and set a 4:00 am in the morning alarm to do some jogging exercise together with my niece and a friend of mine. I am totally confident that I will be woken by the ring but unfortunately the alarm did not ring or snooze at all. Thanks to my niece who woke me up to make the plan successful. While waiting, I checked the alarm set and found out the inaccurate set of information. The picture above will explain.
Starting at 4:30, the 30 minutes is self preparation before jogging. Exact time, we did our jog and some memories flashed back. I remember the last time I jogged early in the morning was way back in 2015 together with my church mate and friend. We have one friend that will wake us up in our respected houses. Imagine, our irresponsible we are hahaha. The funniest thing about so called jogging, when we reach our destination goal we always take a snack, a coffee and bread that cost 200 pesos or $4 dollars. We do the chip-in technique. Seems we feel we are done, we do commute to return at home. Generally, our jogging ends will be bonding because no jog happens. We just do the walking and chit chat until the destination. Still I missed those moments.
Going back to our jog, at 5:00 am we reach our destination and do some coffee to ease the coldness we feel and talk about random things. As we return, I suggest walking to relax my muscles and I feel the pain beside my stomach. Perfectly the sunrise is visible, so I took a picture of it and saw beautiful rays. I feel my feet and thigh as heavy but still need to manage. The sweats are dropping because of tiredness. Some tricycles offered free rides, but we instantly refused, which was a good approach of course.
As we came back home, I just took my shoes and sipped some water to refresh. Lastly, I go to the seashore to see the beauty of the wide sea. Seeing how peaceful and clear as crystal the water is encourages me to swim and indulge the warm feeling. Finishing house chores early in the morning feels satisfying and more time to finish the unfinished works. Hopefully, I can continue this kind of routine to be more productive and healthy.
If you're wondering, I am fat, I'll answer it with a big yes hahaha but not too fat. As people say, I am in a average.
Shalom and Greatness awaits😇
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`All the photos used are orginally captured by me😊.`
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sshhh, I was a Boy...
Having a baby boy is a pride of the family. A boy that could carry the surname unto the next generation. A boy that could help in farming chores. A boy that can do whatever they want. A boy that I wish for. My parents' gender expectation when I was in the womb, is a boy as the midwife said to them. No ultrasound and seeing into obgyne because every cent is precious and the living status is really poor. They have faith and confidence in the midwife. Also the beliefs they have. The way Mama's appearance, the womb formation and more traditional belief in identifying the baby gender. My Papa is so excited with the thought that the baby is a boy. When the moment of truth comes, no one expects that the boy they expect is actually a girl, which is me. Even if the expectation fades, the love they give is so much. But there are some points that I wish I had.
Seeing papa working in the field under the sun when my brothers are not around, I want to help and take over but he never lets me because I am a girl and supposed to do the house chores together with mama. How I wish I was a boy at that moment when papa is tired and exhausted with overflowing sweats.
As time goes by, everytime the fields of coconut trees are time to harvest there I am doing the house chores, cooking their meals and snacks together with native coffee and giving them water. Seeing the lack of people to do the work urged me to help and said some flowering words to the worker to let me. Even snack time while they eat initially replaces them one. by one to learn the works and I must find it so hard for a girl to do.
Secretly, I learned to remove the coconut from the shield, look for the coconut in the growing grass and do the cargo to move some coconut into the nearest place to access. Yes, I did those things without their knowledge and presence, especially papa's awareness. Surely, he will be enraged to die and upbraid for letting the girl do the work of the boys. Those works are really for the boys because it needs strength including their body build and it is so dangerous especially removing parts.
Throughout the years when papa was being a bedredden co'z of disease my urge to be a boy becomes dominant to help mama regarding the farm especially in harvest time. At the same time they found out about the secret and thankfully papa slowly accept it to help mama managing the harvest. I did what was my papa's responsibility before and oversaw the whole duration. I have an attitude of risk taking and adventure with a curiosity on how to take care of carabao and horses are my next targets. Those animals are the responsibility of my two brothers but slowly forgotten when they enjoy and meet friends. I learn to handle, feed and ride the carabao but before that I experience terrible and scary that I thought will be my death. In horse is what I struggle the most especially the controlling them in riding. I experience those things for us to survive while papa is not able to do. I never mind the hardship in learning those works because I have to stand firm like a boy co'z mama see me as her strength. Those down moment and feel I am weak, I always think I am a boy in the version of girl figure. I was a boy in experiences.
Shalom and Greatness awaits😇
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Good morning everyone😊 Thank you so much ate @Bloghound for the renewal and for the increase of you sponsor. God bless you more and more and more BCH to come😇 Thank you for believing in me that I can do and push me to continue.
Beauty of Word
It is the 5th day of October. The weather here is quite gloomy and misty. The news said that there will be a typhoon and heavy rain is expected. Despite the coldness and my bed won't let me go again I still need to wake up and finish my overloaded paperwork. Thank God, 83 reading references had finished together with the video recording and tomorrow will be an editing portion. I am so happy, I finished what is being planned. You know, I love to do plans but never be executed hahahaha drawing pa more😂.
Seriously, I made a short post yesterday about the unseen notification bell and option in writing. It has been two day now and the problem still exists. I restart and refresh and all still nothing happens. So, I just do the "trial and error clicks" hahahaha. Hopefully it will be okay. Too much with that co'z that is not my topic today😂
I plan not to publish today because I feel like I need to rest but read.cash has been part of my daily routine and I have a target goal for this month. So, I need to grind and be motivated. Also, I find this challenge quite unique. Before making an entry I ask their permission. I first read this in Sir meitantei koodo entitled ""What's the word? #PromptFactory" followed by Athaliah ""I've got the easiest words: #PromptFactory", together with Mareng Ruffa'' ``Adventures in Writing". Without hesitation I also made my entry and searched **randomwordgenerator.com** for 5 words. (It depends on you how many words you want). https://read.cash/@meitanteikudo/whats-the-word-promptfactory-8a28798f https://read.cash/@Athaliah/ive-got-the-easiest-words-promptfactory-071431e2 https://read.cash/@Ruffa/adventures-in-writing-60f3238f
*Lemme me start😊*
**Note**
It has two meaning on it but I'll just go with *"written down"*. As a student it is important to take down notes every discussion. I just take down notes before when the teacher required or check it for requirements. I have a notebook before for each specific subject but I take down notes only in one notebook, resulting in every topic worsening with my penmanship. Geez I have my own font style hahaha😂. College taught me to take down notes because it is more on verbal. My style? write what I learn or use the simplest word or use my dialect word. (pag bisaya dzaaii para dali😂).
**Asset**
Asset? If you're referring to property or what, sorry I don't have one.But I have a precious asset that I am forever grateful and thanking God for giving this most valuable asset. My family, they are my biggest asset that is even under depreciation. The more years will come the more value they have. In terms of physical features, my assets will be my eyes together with my lashes. Wanna know the deep me? just look my eyes co'z it will never lie.
**Plaster**
First thing that popped into my mind was the mixture of cement, sand and water to make the ceiling or wall plain. I divert into something to survive that word😂. We also plaster, plaster our pain, plaster our struggles, plaster our tiredness, plaster our feelings and many more plasters by using our simple smile. Plaster to cover up our scars, imperfections and flaws. Plaster yourself so people can see how strong and independent we are but there is nothing wrong with plastering because we just want to present ourselves in the best way. Me? I always do plaster but not faking😊.
**Teacher**
I'll share about it yesterday. Happy Teacher's Day to all the teachers and upcoming teachers. I am grateful for the lives of teachers because they lead us to our destination. We learn because of them and our learning becomes wide and broad with their help. Thank you to all my teachers from elementary, high school, senior high and college for impartinating life lessons and knowledge.
**Leave**
If someone leaves, someone will come. I would like to say I am used to it but not immune. People leaving without prior notice is, I think , the most painful one. I was at the point of leaving but I don't have courage to step out because one feeling overcomes the thought of leaving. Gosh I want to write more but my class is waiting and I am already late😊. I will leave but I will come back (sanaol may come back😂).
Shalom and Greatness awaits❣️
`Check their exceptional works. Thanks a lot my generous sponsor😘❣️ I am happy to see you in my sponsors block😊.`
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JustMaryel sending you Love❣️
Thank you so much mareng @Sensaii for your renewal for sponsorship. God bless you and more BCH to come❣️.
I dunno what happen to my notification bell. It started yesterday evening that I can't see the notification bell and other option in writing. I just do the trial and error click.
In my relax time you surprise me with your sponsorship😊 Thank you so much it help me to be motivate more inspite my exhauted day. Thank you again @Greatwolfman. May God bless you more and more😇
Last Year will be My Ending
Spending more than half of my life following what is right. Started at the age 6, nothing knows except my name, age, residency, family and basic identification for myself. It was 2006, we're I start to face the world of schooling. I never experienced being assist my parents, hesitate to enter the four corner called classroom co'z I don't know anything as I look the faces of my classmate but still I fight that fear because they said I must do well in school. Looking back where I started feels great achievement already, imagine I survived those years of hardship and difficulty. Now, here I am a fourth year college student facing more challenges and difficulties that sometimes lead me to give up. Someone told me, "you achieved and survived many years surely you will also survive with that one year before ending" (I just translate and shorten it because it so mahirap you know🤦😂). That is the reason why I am exhausted everyday, online modality makes me so much exhausted and hard than the actual (face to face). Online class needs more hard work to learn and do the ipinagbabawal na technique (forbidden technique). Poor connectivity occurs in virtual meetings to catch ample time to self study and learn those figures and processes. I am typing this one while I took a break from making my reports. From 7 o'clock in the morning until 1:00 of afternoon of making and reading. I need to take rest and make some nap to relax my body, mind and especially my eyes. Imagine my professor required only 10 slides but my topic accumulated 83 pages hahaha pano ko ikakasya. Any tips? Hopefully I will end this day with finalizing powerpoint and tomorrow will be the video report recording and the next day will be video editing co'z deadline is fast approaching.
Monday is my lazy day, like my bed, and I can't let go , especially because the weather is gloomy and rainy and the cold breeze of wind reminds me that Christmas is near. Today is way different from my usual monday and I am happy because I have a productive monday. As I imagine reading 83 pages makes it impossible for me to finish and understand everything written there but I survive kahit walang maintindihan hahaha ako lang ba nagbasa ng marami ending wala n gets?😂.
Today is a teacher's day celebration. I remember when I was in high school I was so happy when teacher's day came because there was no class for a day hahaha and a program to showcase how great our teachers are. Prepare poetry, letters, flowers, gifts and dance numbers. Truly they deserve that celebration because in their lives people become successful and professional.
We all experience having strict or terror teacher but mine was way different because when she see some dirty in the class automatic get out. Taking quizzes with a score of not passing except tomorrow will be a recitation for the whole discussion that the quiz coverage. But also I have experienced a teacher who is very approachable and treats me as her own child. When I don't have viand she will share the viand she have and we will eat and talk random things. Sadly, she resigned after a year for some personal reasons. Also, I have a teacher that forced us to make a letter for her. Even though it was forced, the message I wrote was from my heart.
Different attitudes and behaviour our teacher has but let us remember they contribute a huge part of ourselves by teaching and guidelining us to achieve every dream we have. Before, I dreamt of being a teacher but I realized it is so hard to become one, especially their work. I salute those who have the courage and passion to dedicate their life to becoming a teacher. Salute to all the teachers out there.
Sorry for the entry today. I'll be back at evening, I will just rest my eyes and my body.
`Check their exceptional works😊Thanks a lot for believing in me😘❣️ Happy to see you in my sponsor block😘❣️.`
Shalom and Greatness awaits❣️
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JustMaryel sending you Love❣️
What a blessing to start up my day😊Thank you so much @Lucifer01 for welcoming me with your sponsor😊 It motivates me to do more. Thank you again from the bottom of my heart❣️ Happy Monday everyone😊
Cage of Voiceless
It is the 3rd day of October and I can feel the Christmas vibes co'z the cold breeze. Some houses start decorating for Christmas and the last kids start the caroling. It is so good to reminisce when I am their age. I remember my caroling days when one house gave 5 pesos and collect until it becomes 50 pesos or $1. I feel like I won a lottery already hahaha I missed that feeling. Being innocent and small brings so much happiness. After the carolling we will count the total earnings and divide it with us to buy some biscuits and candies. Reminiscing my childhood memories hit me that I am already an adult hahaha if only I can go back into being a child again without hesitation I will grab it. So much so that I feel like I am too old for it hahaha.
Today, no particular topic, I just do free writing without a timer like I did before. I always believe and doubt myself if I can do it right, no self confidence and being undecided. Those feelings I felt are what I realized I am lacking too much in myself. I always encourage others, give advice and have confidence that they can do it and achieve it. I lack to believe that I can also achieve, maybe not like them but in my own way. Lack of confidence to do more beyond my comfort zone. Worst is the lack of seeing myself as who I am. See my strength, see my own capabilities and see that I can if I do. I am too selfish in myself to give some rest from those things that people expect in me. Their expectations become my burden. Sadly, no one noticed what sacrifice I did to make it happen to the point I forgot my own self knowing.
I become an undecided person because they decide what I should do. No one listens to my voice until my voice fades and is nowhere to be found. Being a go with the flow type person is developed by their voices. That everytime they speak, I must do it and obey with it. They dictate where I should take the path. Following their voices, I become voiceless in my own life. Honestly, I want to shout to hear my voiceless voice and make a decision but they are afraid that I can make mistakes and failures. How selfish they are to zone me into their perfect world and not let me go in reality. I love to make mistakes for me to learn and take failures to strengthen but they did not allow me. So, how could I face the real world if they did not let me experience those things that the real world has?
I took courage to speak up but the moment I did,I just received many questions and ended with nothing. But still I am proud because I tried even if it failed. More attempts and still the same ending. I come to the point to rebel without their knowledge and I succeed. I taste the freedom I want and being out of the cage but still their voices lead my way. I want to bloom in my own way.
Sorry for the random thoughts and an entry without direction. I may now take the rest that my body, mind and heart long for. Time check 6:18 in the evening (Philippine time) and I still need to clear my notification bell before I'll go out and read all your articles hoping I can finish it. Happy Sunday everyone😘😇.
`Check their exceptional works. Thanks a lot my generous sponsors😘 Happy to see you in my sponsors block😊❣️.`
Shalom and greatness be with you❣️😇
`Lead image is not mine.`
JustMaryel sending you Love❣️
Good evening everyone😊 Thank you so much for the renewal of your sponsorship mareng @ExpertWritter.May God bless you more bch😇
Appraise the F's
Checking our life is essential to know if we are still in track. Asking our self, are you okay? evaluate our mind and checking our heart is what we forget sometimes. With too much baggage we carry, so much errand and overloaded mind reason why we forget to consult our self. We love to ask people, how are you? guiding them, giving advice and sometimes leading them to forget to ask yourself, am I okay?. We always proclaim, "I am okay" even when the heart bleeds and many moments mind explore from overthinking. We keep ourself okay because of some reason that we need to be strong co'z someone watching or depending me. Let us not be too harsh on ourselves by checking it.
By the way, I realized that I also need to check and evaluate where I am and how far I go. I read many articles from different authors regarding the F's in life. Special mention to you @FarmGirl the first one who made this checking the F's.
*Without further ado, lemme start😊*
Family
I am very open about my family here at read.cash. Currently, my family is at peace everybody is okay and supporting each other. Unlike before that is full of chaos and misunderstanding. A big but in my family, recently I discover big revelation. At first I hesitant to accept co'z all this time I feel betray. Everybody knows about it except me, they are afraid about my reaction and they know it will hurt me so much. Also, they don't want to change my perspective regarding that person. Slowly, accepting it cos it is already done and nothing I can do.
**Financial**
I don't have savings or earning money before I join this platform as I am depending on my mama. Now it is different, I am able to buy what I want of course in a low budget hahaha and I have savings that I can be proud of because I work hard for it. Honestly, God is so faithful to us. We experienced nothing to eat at the table before but now we can eat what we want with the hard work of mama. I am happy with our financial status, and I earned enough at read.cash alone.
**Fitness**
Bagsak palagi hahaha (I always failed in this matter). Did you experience planning everything but never happen😂 I can't remember when was the last time I did proper exercise. I always set a goal to lose weight but always failed because the day I start mama will serve delicious food and I can't ignore it hahaha food is life kaya ayon hindi parin pumapayat😂 Next time I attempt I will conquer it with self-discipline. Hoping I can acquire😊
**Friends**
I do have a lot. Maybe we didn't usually communicate but our friendship is still there. Shout out to my drawing squad😊Wanna know why drawing just clicks😊 Even though I had experienced fake friends, I still found rare friends because of them. Blessed that I have a friend I can lean on.
**Fun**
My family always talks about me when I join outdoor games with the children like saying "it does not suit me because of my age" but who cares I love to reminisce about my child days. But now, mobile legends is what I play to release my stress. Two to three games are okay to be back to reality. So much fun especially when we do the party.
**F-uso**
Sorry I just added it😂 It's so cringe you know hahaha. My heart is okay still living and kicking and admiring someone.
Second day of October is Saturday. Time check 2:07 in the afternoon and I need to go back to the class and do some super long report. I will go back in the evening to check and clear the notification bell.
`Check their exceptional works. Thanks a lot my generous😘❣️ Also excited to see you in my sponsors block.` @Athaliah `thank you for you sponsorship🤗❣️`
Shalom and Adios❣️
`Lead image is not mine.`
JustMaryel sending you Love❣️
Wonderful evening. I am so suprise that @Caleb07 is added into my sponsors box. Thank you so much :) God bless you more and more bch to come :)
Midst of Starting Point
It is the 1st day of October and last day of the week. First day to start the month with a big bang is what I want to do. Circumstances happen that stop me to do so. Gosh, so much overload on my shoulders. I am at the point of giving up and continuing with this platform but I don't want to. I was planning to set a goal for this month and share it with you guys but maybe I will not do the plan for this month but trying my best to keep in touch with you guys. My study consumes so much time having heavy requirements that need to be finished. Hectic schedule this week and the following because the subjects I had are major. My decision right now is tentative co'z I can't give up on it. My mind changed, I will still set goals for this month for me to find a reason to continue my journey here. You know, leaving here is not that easy because it becomes part of my life in just one month. Sorry for the drama😊 Hope you are doing great as we welcome the month of October.
*Lemme start😊*
**Publish at least 25 articles**
Last month I had 28 articles but this month I will decrease but I am trying my best of course to exceed the 28 articles. Hopefully I can. I lowered my goal because I know how hectic my school schedule is for this month and up coming. If you wonder what year I am, it's a secret hahahaha kidding. I mentioned it in my previous articles or maybe I will write (if I have free time) about myself to get to know more. Too much with that.
**Give back to the Community**
As I start with nothing, people still believe in me. No knowledge about the platform and most of you I did not know personally but you support me and my nonsenses works hahaha. Being a month and a few weeks staying here and observing how generous people I encountered encouraged me to give back even in small amounts. I know my earning is not that huge like others but this month giving is what my heart speaks. Please don't expect huge amount from me🙈. I experienced as a newbie that even a small amount of upvotes is a way to encourage me to continue. Woah, hopefully I can achieve it.
`Thanks to my generous sponsors, upvotes, subscribers, likers and commentators that push and influence me to do so.`
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**Read 10 to 15 articles with Interaction a Day**
Above mentioned, hectic schedules are overloaded but trying to find a way to still interact and read all your articles. I don't want to be "publish and go" . I feel it's unfair. I'm sorry if I can do it. I will still catch up on what I miss. Possible, Sunday is the day I will clear my notification bell.
I think that will be my goal in October. Nothing much and nothing special about it. In terms of earning, I don't have a target amount but I still dream to achieve 1 BCH. Maybe not for now but hopefully soon. Usually I cash out my wallet savings when it is needed the most. My mama always encourages me to save it up but I am the one who is eager to cash it out because I can't bear to see mama shoulder all the bills and necessities. If I can help then I will. Last time, she was so happy when I handed her P1,000 pesos or $20. Oh , I also forgot that this October I will save to buy 1 sack of rice for an estimated amount of $50. Ang babaw ng kaligayahan at goal ko, di ba?😂 Small things make me happy you know😊.
While typing, I decided to continue co'z I have goals that need to be accomplished. Sorry for my indecisiveness. Let us be more grindy and motivated.
Shalom and welcome October will greatness😘❣️.
JustMaryel sending you Love❣️
Thank you @Codename_Chikakiku for your sponsor and believing in me :) May God bless you more :) Btw, good afternoon everyone :)
Last Entry Before Ending
Last day of the month September. Tomorrow will be a new month, a new goal set, new motivation, new inspiration, a new day to start up and a new month to grind harder to achieve high goals. As far as I remember, I ended my August with thanksgiving heart and welcome my September without goals set but just go with flow and try to exceed things and proclaim I can do more. I read many articles about their monthly goals and monthly reports. Deep inside I am hoping that they can do it and also I can do it if I will try. You know small improvement I made here at read.cash I cherish because I work hard to make it possible despite the busyness, discouragement and giving up for person reason.
Throughout the month of September I published 28 articles including this one. I'm so astounded that I made it. My heart cries for the overwhelming support I received from all of you since the beginning when I joined this platform. Every single day I tried to make one even though I am exhausted from errands. Running out of topics and my mind didn't cooperate most of the time. Loading yarn hahaha😂. Still, I published more than I thought co'z my plan is to publish 20 only but I exceeded it🙈.
Second, in terms of earning I accumulated more than last August but I will not show it co'z shyness surpass. My earnings are not like others that reach 100 bucks. How I wish that I earn and hold that BCH. I am happy with what I earned right now in read.cash. If you're asking about the noise.cash, I have one but I can't retrieve it when the hackers are gone. Apparently my accumulated amount made by read.cash alone. Thanks to all of you who believe in me when I couldn't do it for myself😘❣️
Third, the picture above. Reaching that is not part of my hidden goals. It is so unexpected because two weeks ago I was notified of reaching 500 views and now received this one. But I couldn't achieve it without you guys. Like entering this platform with small dreams to achieve atleast 100 view but it is more what I dream of. Another thank you for always checking my not-so-good outputs and for all the support such as upvotes, comments, subscribe and like. It helps me to be motivated and grind😘.
Let us move on (sanaol naka move on😂), seriously I am so happy and grateful that I am part of this platform even though we don't know personally stillI can pour out my untold feelings and experiences that years are hidden. They figure me as a happy go lucky person as they see my smiling face all the time. "Behind my smile every untold stories behind" conceal the burdens with smile. From unsearch path and go with flow little by little I make improvement. One of them is the "15, 10 and 5 minutes Challenge" originally by mareng @Ruffa. It literally explored my mind with a time bomb set hahaha😂. I really hate being pressure co'z I am prone in mental block. Like having a speech or examination and thoroughly memorizing it but when the moment of truth comes all the things will vanish instantly. That is the effect of pressure on me. Are we the same?. I am out of the line😂. Maybe tomorrow I it try to make a goal plan for the month of October hopefully I can achieve that plan with you help and support. This is JustMaryel sincerely thanking you all since the very beginning. This is my last entry before ending my September. https://read.cash/@JustMaryel/15-10-and-5-minutes-challenge-c691dbfc
Shalom and great day to all of us.
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10 Most Preferred to Answer
It is the 29th day of September and one day from now October will be welcome. Some prepare their monthly report while others continue grinding to achieve the September goals they had set. I don't prepare nor set goals for September, instead doing my best to improve and make myself believe I can do more. Today, I will accept the challenge by picking 10 random questions as a giveaway. Below are the most I preferred to answers.
*Lemme start😊*
**What is or was your best subject in school?**
If recess time is a subject, definitely I am achiever on it hahaha😂. Seriously, when I was in elementary school I was a fan of mathematics but when I reached high school I wanted to burn all the mathematics books, lol. Maybe algebra is okay but the rest will set on fire hahaha. College comes what I hate is what I get. I take courses that involve mathematics, analysis, forecasting the future events and more related to it. To answer the question, it's mathematics. I am not the best like others but I can survive everyday facing it.
**Whom do you secretly admire?**
If I could tell, it couldn't be a secret anymore. It's Jeryel composed of his name and my username here in read.cash hahaha. I already published about him "Diary of Admiration" but no name is revealed. Enjoy reading if you're curious enough about him. https://read.cash/@JustMaryel/diary-of-secret-admiration-989e198d
**What’s something you never leave home without?**
Hanky or handkerchief is already part of my life. I have a weird taste of perfume to avoid getting vomited. Hanky is the solution. Now, even if I wear a mask, hanky is also there.
**If you won 100 million dollars, what would you buy first?**
House and lot for my mama and for the rest of my siblings. Car to travel as in long travel and I could use it out at night to see overview spots that I love. I also bought a laptop and a printer that I dream about the most. Gets 10 percent of it as a tithe. For the rest I could invest it into real estate and make a business. How I wish that I have that huge of money.
**What makes you cringe?**
Seeing young lovers doing PDA and exchanging cringe lines. The cringiest part is "I can't live without '' part. Manloloko din naman hahaha. I am not bitter, you know, pero walang forever😂.
**What are you terrible at but love to do anyway?**
I am terrible at expressing and writing in straight English but I love to do co'z it helps me improve. Here in read.cash I feel terrible every time I publish co'z I am not confident enough of my output but slowly I love doing it everyday hahaha I don't want to.
**Out of 100 random people, where would you rank yourself in terms of your intelligence?**
Maybe 75 a passing grade. I am not intelligent nor bright but I am in the middle or average of it. I can survive with my own strategy and learning capability. I have my own kind of learning which I am good at. 75 out of 100 is not bad but sometimes in some things I could rank myself 50 or below 50.
**If you could tell someone something anonymously, what would it be?**
*"****You are Enough****"* People may feel that we are not enough but you are enough. People say you are ugly but you are enough to present yourself as beautiful. You are enough to believe in yourself that you can do more. Enough to knows our worth. Enough not to listen negative like what others say.
**What are you hiding?**
Hiding him to avoid teasing that irritates me hahaha. I am open to say anything about him except his name. I just want privacy and nurture our moments. If you think we are in a relationship, the answer is no we are not, it is just getting to know more in private.
**What three words would you have on your grave stone?**
*"****Time to Go****"* To remind them my time here on earth is gone and I need to go back where I belong since the beginning. Everyone has time to go and no one knows when it is but let us be prepared if that time comes.
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Challenge ends here. And thanks for saving me this time. @Caleb07 marked done. If you want to join just click the site. https://read.cash/@Theodore/giving-away-my-1-week-full-amount-salary-in-readcash-1ee60794
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I would like to welcome again @Caleb07. His original acccount was @Theodore but it happen to be spam again without knowing the reason. It is his third account already hopefully this one it will not spam again. By the way, the question challenge is continue just tag him @Caleb07. Thank you for welcoming him again. God bless :)
I can't say YES!
Time is fast approaching. A few days from now we will welcome October. The weather is quite good for now because when noon comes it becomes hotter and hotter. By the way, yesterday I published "We're not a Couple". I'd mention the continuation of it and some are curious hahaha. So, here I am typing and trying to reminisce. https://read.cash/@JustMaryel/were-not-couple-13ec569a
*Without further ado, lemme start😊*
He and I met in church, and someone invited him to attend the service. It was 2017. As time goes by, we become friends until he approaches me for courtship. I made excuses to stop him but he is so persistent. I know that I am not ready for it. He is so open about what he feels and literally our churchmate, pastor, cousin and even his family know it. His family is very fun and approachable to be with. Yes, you read it right, I bond with his family. When we talk privately he always asks about the progress and so on. Throughout the moments we shared, I know in myself that I slowly fell for him and he knows it but I still did not say "*yes"* because somethings off and I don't want to yield into a relationship with doubtful feelings. I know you're wondering why I did not say "*yes"* and here is the reason why.
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**His Too Vocal to Everyone**
Weird right? hahaha😂 but yes it is one of my reasons I did not say "*yes"*. Some people want that kind of person but not me. I have this principle that "*I want a lowkey relationship"* no pressure from people, no teasing and we get to know more. You know, it irritates me when people tease us. It usually happens,, when people see us talk accidentally they always tease about this and about that. Most of the time, I avoid talking to him or approach even if it is important. It is ok to be vocal but not too much. I talked to him about it but nothing happened. I always feel uncomfortable when it comes to teasing but he is feeling proud. The more people know about it the more pressure I am because they always push me to say *"yes"*. I don't want that pressure to be the reason why I say *"yes"* . He's too vocal, everyone but Never in my Family. Family first as a sign of respect and formality but he never did.
**Finish My Study**
I always remember mama's threat that if I want to study, I need to focus on it but if I want to enter a relationship, she will force me to stop schooling. Throughout this year I carry that threat but a good threat.
**Hobby vs. Priority**
He loves to play basketball but sometimes he is willing to set aside his priority just to play basketball. Without hesitation, when basketball is something he is always available. One time someone has ask me, "why they did not see him at work place", I don't what to answer because what I knew is he work. When I asked him about it, he just replied "I played basketball". Like what, he chose his hobby as his priority. He was so irresponsible that time. Girl thing, one mistake will never be forgotten hahaha😂. Second, he chose basketball over Sunday service. It turns me off big time. I feel like he chose his basketball over prioritizing God. One of the aspects I want in my relationship is "Prioritize God above others". He did it many times.
**Love Fades**
Main reason above all. Yes, I loved him (past tense). I pray to God and ask His will about it. One night, I poured out and prayed to God " ***Lord, if he's not the one please let my feelings change. I don't want a trial and error relationship with God"***. Vividly, I remember that that's the exact word I matter to God. It suddenly fades just within a month. Imagine just one month. But then, I want to assure that it fades from thinking about what I feel when I see him with someone else by thinking I feel happy deep inside. It took months before I decided to talk to him. Pastor together with his wife - Pastora set a schedule for our talk about it. About it, they told me "Please pray before you make a decision" and *baka daw nabigla ako at may pag-asa pa* (maybe there is a small way to be okay).
It was pandemic and locked down when I made a final decision to end the courtship. He just responded "I will wait for you unless you are into someone else ''. It made me feel guilty hearing that but then I just replied "No need to wait and if we are meant to each other God will make a way to make our path cross". Everything ends in a courtship thing.
Now that he is in a relationship with someone I am truly happy with them. I am happy to see that finally he found someone who makes him happy and he deserves it. We are both happy with what we are right now and the good thing is during thanksgiving day we had a talk as friends. Sometimes people tease us but I just laugh at it. If you would ask about my relationship status, I am happy with the person I secretly love. This kind of love is way different. It is a strange feeling and very heavy.
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