There are many times in our lives where we tend to ask of why, how, and where did I go wrong. At times we also wanted to be chosen, we wanted to be the center of someone's universe.
Sadly, the more we want to be the center the more we'll be dragged down to the bottom and instead of empathy and mercy with love, we only received objection and suddenly be rejected of the world we wanted to be in.
There are times when we tend to play the game of race even if the chances are dim and not sure if we'll win. We gamble, we strive, because we wanted to prove that our love worth it all. Less that we know of that it's not love anymore but obsession.
Most often than not, this characteristics of wanting to be chosen will lead to a demand statement of "It should be me!" It should be me who will stand by your side, it should be me who will hold your hand in happiness and in sorrow, it should always be me. Yes, this statement is an act of selfishness, it's an act of wanting to own and be own solely for someone alone. Solely!
It may sound selfish but believe me it's what most of us wanted to be and to have. We want to be someone's only one. But, the thing is it's not always granted to us. The answer isn't always yes, because sometime it's a "NO". It's the matter of acceptance. Yes, it should be you, it should be you who must love yourself in a way that you have to free it from the pain and the guilt of the past that lingers your heart enabling you to feel the bitterness of life. Yes it's you! It's you who must be on the right one, and it's you who must not be feeling that way. Be free and use your "it should be me" in a more positive and not in a needy way. You are not a bitch, you are precious!
This is what goes on in our mind most of the time... wishing why wasn't it me, but often time we also forget that there are also down times... do you also wish for those down times too... like saying why wasn't i the one who was divorced or why wasn't i the one who was heart broken or why wasn't I the one who was raped.