"We chose not to say goodbye...and our paths led us to where we are today..."
This is one of those lines in Amare's article. Her article reminds me of how we fought life and how we accept defeat. I chooso to support her. It's my goal to support good articles and good writing from awesome writers. I'll check out yours too one of these days.
Check her writings and if you want to keep posted on some of her writings, do subscribe on her too. It's good to subscribe each one who in some ways helps us through their writing skills.
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Humility and pride are two different thing which when the other leads the latter and the latter leada the other.
I happen to read this excellent article of Ansherina, her article of humility and pride helps me remember high high the heaven is and how humble the ground to let the sky rule over him and contribute balance in the world we are living.
Here is the link, in case you want to read one.
https://read.cash/@Ansherina/know-yourself-humility-vs-pride-5ade8400
Forgiven but not forgotten
I want you to know that you are forgiven. I have forgiven you for all the bad things you did, for all the lies and painful heartbreaking memories you have given me. ***I have forgiven you.***
Even if I forgave you, I cannot deny the fact that I cannot forget every little thing about you: *the false hope that you told me, the comforting lies that you did, and the not so true love that you gave.* Evenso, I was still happy back then even if all of those were just trash**, I treasured them all as gold** not after I knew that all of those were just a show.
But when I see you know, I can remember the memories of ***the past and all the pain were remembered as fresh as yesterday was,*** but my heart has forgiven you even if mu brain still remembers everything.
***What else can I do?*** But to move on and forgive you because that's the least that I can do to give myself a chance to improve and be happy once again.
How to know if a man is serious about you?
There are different kinds of a man's seriousness towards a woman: **serious enough to break your heart** *which is kinda sad,* **serious enough to take you forgranted** *which is somewhat hurtful,* **serious enough to make you fall in love** (hey! If they will make you fall in love it doesn't always mean they really love you, sometimes they just make you hope for nothing), and **serious enough to love you** (this is what every woman dreamed of).
In this article, we will be talking about how to know ***if a man is serious about you in terms of loving you.***
"I love you" are words spoken by almost everyone but not understood enough nor taken responsibility of when spoken out. Here are some of the guidelines to see if a man is serious when he told you he loves you.
A man is serious in loving you when he understands you even in your doubting moments. He never let you feel less of a woman.
A man is serious in loving you when he respects you not just as a person but as a woman. He treated you the way he wants to be treated; if he thinks you're his other half, he would not disrespect you because you are part of his.
A man is serious in loving you when he take care of you without expecting you to do the same. He will not let danger to come across you, he will always keep you away from danger.
A man is serious in loving you when he is committed to you even before you commit for him. He is decided to commit even before you agreed for any commitment.
A man is serious in loving you when he doesn't need a test if you will be a good mother to his children or not, he loves you when he sees your flaws but still choose you.
It is said that even if there are millions of reason to leave someone you love but because you love them, you will always find one reason to stay for them and love itself is enough for it.
Love is not just a language of the heart but also an action of art. So when you want to love someone, do not just feel it. Show it and be decided that even if pain will come and trials will shake you, then let love bound you a thousand times.
What do you think love is?
Love is an abstract noun; by abstract we mean complex and unidentifiable. This is a thing which everybody wants but not everybody gets; this is a feeling where anybody could feel but not everybody understands. It has many forms and understood only by the heart.
Is it really understood by the heart? Some say yes that somehow edifies our stand of how love is being understood. But, heart itself is thinking if she really understand love enough to take the risk and stand for it.
There are some basic principles of love such as follows:
**To love is to give.** This being said means if you love you are to give something out. But what confuses this principle is that, everyone can give with or without love. Some may give out of competition and not of compassion. Others give expecting something in returns while others don't. You see? It's not an easy thing to identify and understand if the one who gives truly loves you or not.
**To love is to understand.** This means, if you love someone you have to understand their twist and turns of characters and moods. You have to understand that they are just humans who may feel anxious, sad, and discourage. Yet, this is also very complex, why? Because, loving someone is not to understand by brain but by heart.
**To love is to forgive.** This is the most crucial part! Everyone can love but not everyone can give out forgiveness. Because us-humans love to remember. We always remember the past and use it against each other especially the bad ones during the sinking moments. Yes we can't easily forget because those lies, those painful feeling that love brings will never be erased within us. But it's a matter of acceptance.
Now, what love truly is? It's not just a noun and not just a feeling. Love is a decision that will bind your today to your future. It's a decision that your heart and mind must agree to give your abstract heart a good and wonderful memory that your legacy be remembered of a love well fought in the midst of life's battle of confusion and trials.
Indeed, love is abstract but abstract is beauty and the beauty you make depends on your heart's stamina to fight for it and leave it behind with memories unfold.
*Think and never rush! Join the forces of pure and sincere love. Do not waste your tears for temporary ones. Be a warrior in* ***your own little and complicated world.***
"Heart that forgets"
How I wish I had the heart the same as what you have, a heart that easily forgets the pain and the memories we shared.
How I wish I had a heart that has no memory so I cannot have any tears shed on this journey.
How I wish I had a heart the same as what you have, a heart that never cares even if I am in despair.
How I wish I had a heart that has undo button so I can turn back the emotion that has been wasted in agony.
How I wish I had a heart the same as what you have, a heart that easily shift and cause my shattered world.
How I wish I had a heart that has the courage to tell you that I am unable to forget the good things I had with you.
How I wish! It's all the words I repeatedly utter since the day you left me and chase for someone better.
How I wish! Are those short yet hurtful regret of being enslave to your shadow.
I know I am not better and will never be better than anybody else because you've stepped on me and wasted everything that I have, but at least I had the heart that purely loves the way it should be. A heart that always remembers the good things and bad things this life brings. One day you'll see, that this heart will make a better memory out of the tragic memory you gave me. And one day for sure my broken heart will be mended and then I'll stand and say "Don't ever ask me to forgive you because I don't have a **heart that forgets".**
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JasmineC's Pentalk: ReadCash and It's Investors
It has been over one week since I decided to write this article. I am in the middle of my daily busy days and I don't have the luxury of time to write. Now, that I have spare time, I want to err out my thought about @Read.Cash and it's investors.
Investors? Yes! You read it right. Investors! Don't you know that you, and every writer here is an investor? The day you decided to register here is the day that you've decided of becoming one of readcash's investors.
Now, how do you become an investor?
Your articles are means of investment. We generate income through articles and the more the income it generates the more the value of BCH becomes meaningful.
Your helping the traffic. Yes, you are helping the data traffic in the internet system by clicking on the site and indulging here in readcash.
Your time is gold. Your time spent in here through writing, reading, commenting, liking or upvoting means gold. Why gold? Because, you are helping the system be more equip. Time also is wealth.
Your idea matters a lot. Whenever you right, you give out ideas, you give out thoughts that help each one of us in this platform to understand more and be more creative in any way possible.
Your opinion means a lot. Everytime you have complains, readcash is trying to work it out to meet half way. Everytime you are happy, readcash is feeling the pleasure of achievement and success. Each opinion you share is an investment for a better read cash.
Our contrubution as one of the investors varies onto how your passion molds you into someone who think before clicking and analyzing before speaking.
Now that you and I were investors tell me your opinion as to how we can improve readcash as a platform. We believe that there is always room for improvement. Your idea matters, answer the question below as honest as possible.
How readcash impacted your writing life?
If there is one thing to describe readcash, what is it?
If you are to rate readcash from 1 to 10 where 1 is unlikely and 10 is very likely, how would you rate it?
If there is one thing you would luke to ask readcash, what could that be?
If there is one complaint that you have for readcash, what could that be?
If you are to be the founder of readcash what improvement would you like to have? Why?
How was your experience here in readcash? Was it good? Why?
Drop your answers below.
Upnext: JasmineC's Pentalk: ReadCash and the Sponsors
@ErdoganTalk! I was amaze when I look at my readcash account and behold that you have been flooding upvoted to my articles. Just wow! I am indeed encourage. I also do hope that my articles touches your heart in some ways. Keep safe and have a blast! 😍
Tortured Heart
In life, we have decisions that makes us who we are, what we are, and how we are at present and even in the future. Sometimes we are imprisoned with our own standard and decisions.
There are times that we thought good career would make us happy, yes it does but there is still lacking within us. At times we think money is the key but there is still something different within ourselves that we could not understand.
Most cases goes like this, we are too focus on making others happy and that we set aside our own because they matters and at the end of the day in our silent hours we shed tears and scream in our niche because there are things that they don't understand about you. We are considering their emotions, their likes and dislikes, we study their every yes and no and accomplish their every wish, so they could feel at ease and you gain their trust because you value them and then suddenly you forgot yourself. You have forgotten the thing about you, that you also wanted to be happy as they are.
You want to choose your own happiness but you losses control whenever they opposes because it's them that matters and not you after all. How about when someone comes and awake your inner you and you suddenly remember that you have a self to consider, and then those that matters and the one that somehow matters does not get along and it shakes your world and makes you feel empty within.
You have to make a choice again but this time you have to hold both chain for them and for the other one because you don't want to lose any of them. Then you start to question of, "Am I not doing the right thing?", "Am I not allowed to be happy just as they are?", "Am I that wicked that my right to feel the feeling has been taken away from me?". It's a question that tortured the heart and still you smile and hold the smallest light of hope that someday those that matters will matter you too just the way you did to them.
Time flies fast and you are still holding that hope until you've come to decide to let go of the other one and live a life away from any of them and try to forget how the torture made you feel numb. Deep within you there's a shout. A shout to ask for at least a chance to be happy, but as soon as the shout shouts that shout louder and louder, your tears rushly falls down your cheeks which remind you that the battle within isn't finish yet. That you have to choose them amd forget your heart because after all your life will never last forever. After all, you will be going home far away where no heart break and tortures that would make you cry and sigh.
You have to cry your heart out when you have too but never hurt them by choosing your own because after all you will never stay long in this borrowed world. Who knows when? And who knows where? As long as you leave a legacy and treasures for them, you will be remembered as the one who loved them and if your absence make them cry, maybe they'll remember the other half of yours that suppose to complete you but remained halves because you lost it while you sail for them.
A tortured heart does not mean the end of life, it maybe the end of you but not the end of them. So if torturing your heart makes them feel better, cover it with a smile and stay "okay" in their presence. Hide your scar and forget your heart. Because when you fight it now, you're fighting your own heart and your own will too, so let your heart be tortured by you. After all, you're good at pretending to be okay even if you're not. If it hurts, cry! If it bleeds, heal it! Never let your guard down and see where your tortured brave heart can lead you.
What is your ideal age for marriage? Do you believe on the saying that "love conquers all"? Why or why not?
JasmineC's Pentalk: Read Cash's Reaction
So today, let's ask @Read.Cash on how they feel and let's see what's their reaction on the legendary @MarcDeMesel 's investment to them and towards the people's different views and reaction here on readcash. Let's ask them 5 questions and we hope that they will answer. If not, then let's leave that question to them.
How do you feel when somebody invested to your platform? Are you not pressured @Read.Cash ?
What was your main reason of building read.cash? Would this be for articles only or we are part of boosting BCH to make it evenmore valuable to the market?
Recently, there are writers who are a bit disappointed to new changes made, what is your message for them?
How do you see read.cash in 5 year-time?
How do you end up making this site an article platform instead of captcha, investments2x, or instead of anything else, why think of having it as if designed for writers only?
We are waiting for your replies and I hope we will learn something new today.
So guys! I end up trying to ask these questions so we will see how readcash feel and reacts because their reaction, feeling and impression is important on making this platform stronger.
**Upnext**: ReadCash and it's investors.
More to read on the next more article on Jasmine's pentalk about "Peoples good and bad reaction on readcash".
Stay tuned and be informed.
Note: ***We are encouraging readcash to write their answers on the comment section and let us hear your heart out.***
Hello everyone! I hope you're doing all fine today. I have a question. Let's throw up questions and answer me with all honesty. When is the last time that you ask yourself of "Why do I have to cry? and Why do I feel this way?".
Welcome to JasmineC's pentalk!
I have decided to have a pentalk here in readcash so we can talk of many topics, interact with each other and above all learn and have some entertainment time after our long and busy hours daily.
***In this pentalk, we can talk a lot of things.*** You can suggest which talks would you want to have talk with and which topic would you like to discuss. I will be choosing supportive fan and I will also be a supporter to those who support me here. ***So, how can you support JasmineC's pentalk?***
**Be a reader**
When I say be a reader, that means you have to read the topic thoroughly, do not just scheme it but understand it.
**Mention your friends** who have something to talk about the topic we'll be discussing in the future.
Tell your friends about readcash and the pentalk that we have here. And encourage them to leave comments. That would help!
**Be a good commenter**
When I say be a good commenter, that means write your opinion out base on the topic. Critic constructively and express your thoughts accordingly.
**Subscribe**
Do not forget to subscribe to be updated for the future pentalks and some giggling articles that I'll be posting.
**Like**
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Of course, ***I'll be supporting you by being a sponsor.*** I will be choosing active and energetic fan/follower/supporter. I hope to be entertaining you in the future.
***Support my first pentalk!*** https://read.cash/@JasmineC/jasminecs-talk-the-legendary-marc-de-mesel-abddf883
JasmineC's pentalk: The legendary Marc De Mesel's Readcash Investment
Todays topic is about **a man who chose to support** @Read.Cash platform amidst of it's commodities fluidity.
When @MarcDeMesel invest his money here in readcash, ***did he question the credibility of the platform?*** ***What makes him decide to invest here instead of anywhere else?*** You see? He is not scared on investing here, nor doubt the credibility and the capability of the site. I believe ***he chose to give not because he had much but because he knows how it feels to be needing some support.***
Honestly, I have been in the entrepeneur world not too long ago. I started building my own business at the age of 25. I am tried and tested many times, maybe because God wants to see how much I like the life I chose and how deserving I am to the path that I am taking. It's almost 2 years since I run the business, and being the brain of the company is the hardest part of my life but it's worth it. I will not tell you who I am nor show you my face here, but someday I will be sharing to you some of the fruits of my labor. Thinking this business talks and experiences, ***I was amaze how this man*** @MarcDeMesel ***took the risk.*** There were questions behind my mind and there is this urge of wanting to personally ask him. I made my own assumptions and concluded my own conclusion.
Because I cannot personally ask him, let me ask that question right here.
Sir, did you ever doubt when you think the posssibilities of investing here?
What makes you decide to invest in this platform?
Elites don't risk the money without returns, so how do you think of managing the rise and fall of the platform as it will impact your investment too?
What is your advice for the aspiring writers and the people here in readcash community?
If you have to describe readcash in one word, what would that be?
We will soon know how @MarcDeMesel become a legend in @Read.Cash .
While waiting for The legendary @MarcDeMesel to answer the question. Let's ask the readers!
***To all the readers out there, if you were MarcdeMesel what would be your answer for these questions? Leave your comments and let's share it to the world.***
****Upnext****: JasmineC's Pentalk: Read Cash's Reaction
Me, Myself, and I
"You will never know joy until you know sorrow..." That's one of my principle in life and with that I can say that I don't cry in sorrow but I rejoice in it, how? ***By accepting that I can never have everything I wanted but I can have everything that I needed and maybe "sorrow" is one of those.***
Let me introduce myself by saying "***To obey is better than sacrifice."*** That is who I am. I am a woman with lots of pen names depending on the genre that I am writing with. I used my real name for educational books, I am Jac Door in international magazines (New York Times) and that happens only once in my life, I am Dreamer93 in another platform, Carnation as a teacher, and Jasmine as my phone name and my pen name here in ReadCash. Each of these names had it's own meaning.
My real name is named after a bird and a feminine name, Jac Door means my own door of reaching my dreams, Dreamer93 because I am born a dreamer even how difficult life is --- I always dare to dream, and Jasmine because it's a princess in the movie Aladin (I'm a princess too, but not of Aladin 😍). I made a better version of myself by ***making a difference for the people who looks up on me*** to not stumble on the way I live my life.
So to start with who I am, I am just a simple woman who once was a girl that grown into a lady who believes that we can never know joy until we know sorrow, and that it is best to obey than to sacrifice. There are lots of times in my life that my principle were tested and tempt me to disobey my father's instruction, multiple times that my mind is thinking to rebel against my parent's will, and ***times were my heart deceived me and almost fallen to the wrong decisions in life.*** But those were the times where my mind is rational enough and strong enough to do the next right thing and the last thing I remember is even if I am in pain because I am fighting against my own will to do the right thing (to obey), still I chose to be on the right tract. ***I fall but I never remain fallen,*** I stumble but I never stuck myself up, I was pained but I count it all joy because I know that I just need to composed myself and to do the next right thing because in that way I would be leaving a legacy where no one could ever take it from me ---it's a legacy of peace and joy.
I am a woman who loves to reach for the shore amidst of waving seas, who loves to play the music even in trying times, and ***a woman who sets a standard by being a standard herself.***
I also have my masculine part of my feminity, I love ball games, I used to play with my brothers (maybe because I don't have elder sister to play with back then). I love Math more than English but I teach both. I must say, ***I am a woman who loves game but don't want to be played on***, so I distance myself to those who loves to play game becaus***e I am not an entity to be sold and a toy to be played,*** I am a woman of whom my mother cheerished and of whom my father loved and protected. ***I am not just a woman but a princess in my father's castle.***
So, who really is me? I am a writer like you, ***who loves my pen more than my phone.***
Trees and the People
***Don't you know that we have a best friend in this world*** that serves us in sickness and in health, 'til death do us part? Yes there is, they are call TREES.
*****When trees are fruitful***** we will be feed by it. We can eat her fruit to quench our hungry stomach. ***When trees are strong*** we can take it's leaves and make it a paper, clothes or sometimes a camping roof. ***When trees are big enough*** we can use them to make houses, tables, and other expensive furnitures. ***When trees are dying*** you can use them as firewood. You see? There are things that trees can do for us-humans. But what did we do to give back to mother nature for the bestfriend she provide for us, for the trees who contunually serve us in good times and bad times. We did nothing but abuse it. We did nothing but consume them without planting another generation of trees for the next generation's best friend.
Do you know what we forgot? ***We forgot that trees are living too.*** Thay also have lives to be protected and not abused, they did not argue with us when we use them every now and then, that's the purpose of their lives and they are willing to serve their purpose, all they want is for us to stay committed and to take care of them by replacing them with their little ones when you are to use them (big ones).
***Our bestfriend served their purpose, it's time for us to move and be committed to our purpose as the care taker of this present world.***
Death is REAL
All living creatures are scared to be separated from their loved ones by death. ***Even animals mourn over the death of their fella, how much more us---humans?***
Yes, we are scared if death, even a thought of death would make our body shiver and feel the discomfort. Questions like "***what like would there be after death?, "shall I see my loved ones there on the other side of the world?"or, "will they still remember me when I'm gone?".*** There are lots and lots of questions that we tend to ask but none of these questioms comforted us.
****Death is real and it's inevitable. De****ath is real and no one is rich enough, and good enough to escape it. Nobody could escape it! Death knows no exemption, and it doesn't qualify qualifies but qualifies everyone. We all have the same destination in life and that is death. It is the scariest truth and the saddest event of human life.
**When death knocks at your door, what will you do? When death pass by you, what will you do?** When death calls for you, what will you do? When death comes along, are you confident to say "yes you can take me home"? I doubt you could, and I believe refusal is your quickest decision and the memories of this world is the greatest thought of allibis.
Death is real so be ready. ***Death is not a game to play but a truth to accept,*** and when it comes I hope you are ready to face it and know where you will be after death. Do you know where you will go after death? Do you know if you will meet your family there?
Death is real so be ready today. Do not wait until tomorrow because you do not know if the sun shines over you tomorrow. ***Accept Christ and be save today!***
Where do broken hearts go?
*There are so many questions that my innocent mind and my naive heart would ask, and one of them is the question of "where do broken hearts go?".*
***Where do broken hearts go when it's only refuge is you. "***You" who abandoned me in my sorrowful land. "You" who promised an unending love and unending dream but fails to prove it right in front of my broken dreams and shuttered world. "You" who loves to comfort me with lies and poison me with truth. ***So tell me, where should this broken heart go?***
***Where do broken hearts go, when it's tortured by the memory of the past*** that you left behind and force me to believe that everything will work out just fine. It's you who made me as terror as I am today. It's you who tamed my foolish heart and play the game where you cannot gamble. ***It's you who let go of my hand when I needed it to be held so tight***.
***Where do broken hearts go, when there's no one around who could understand the language of pain*** that this heart is shouting and begging to be free. I don't believe you would understand how you made me laugh and love then left me like a barking dog with no owner on the street fighting with strangers and cold.
***Tell me, where do broken hearts go?***
This is the question that lovers in this world were asking, ***trying to persuade themselves that refuge exist; and jump from a heart to another*** to find comfort and feel the missing piece completed. Yet, failing to realize that there is always refuge in the arms of God, the one who made the heart to love again and mend the broken heart to be whole again.
***You do not need to go elsewhere, God understands!*** You do not need to find love to someone else because nobody is able to fix your broken heart except God who made you whole. Remember that you are whole before you give your heart to someone unworthy and undeserving.
So, where do broken hearts go? Broken ***hearts must go to God so the broken pieces will be mended and be whole again.***
Bakit kaya ganun?
Bakit ganun? Kung sino ang mayaman ay s'yang yayaman ng lubusan
At ang mahirap ay lubos ang kamusmusan
Bakit kaya ganun? Kung ano ang bawal ay s'yang gagawin
At ang nararapat ay babaliwalain
Bakit kaya ganun? Kung sinong nagmahal ng lubusan
Ay s'yang iiwan ng walang dahilan
Bakit kaya ganun? Kung sinong may-awa s'yang kinakawawa
At kung sinong may puso ay s'yang inagawan ng pag-asa
Bakit kaya ganun? Kahit anong bigay mo ay kulang pa rin
At ang pangarap ay kay hirap abutin
Bakit kaya ganun? Kung kailan ka natutong magmahal
Ay s'ya ring araw ng pagkahangal
Ang dami kong tanong na walang sagot noon at ngayon
Mga katanungan kung "bakit kaya ganun"
Cryptocurrency: Bitcoin Cash in ReadCash
***Once a Philospher said that money is just a machine that keeps the fluidity of commodity flowing.***
In the 21st century, cryptocurrency is one of those booming industries in terms of trade, business, investments, and financial freedom. ***But how does it looks like and how does it operates?***
In today's generation, we want convenience: we use digital wallet, digital payment system, and digital money. Due to this trend, different cryptocurrency takes place and painted their own picture in the industry. Now, ***the rise and fall of the inflation of the cryptocurrency such as BTC, ETH, BCH, XRP and many more depends on how fast the circulation of money is in the system.***
The ReadCash platform uses BCH as it's cryptocurrency equivalent for every points burned and every dollars gathered. You can convert it to any currency you want but BCH is the promoted one in the system. ***It simply implies that even in pandemic situation right now, cryptocurrency never loses it's strength;*** it may have downtimes but it doesn't mean it's the end because money is just a machine and it never gets tired roaming around and still going on to whatever direction and wherever place in the world. ***For whether it's digital money or tangible money, people needs it to trade, and for goods and commodity.***
Sentiments of a Broken Heart
***Man is sentimental by nature: we give meanings to everything, we cheerish and treasure memories, and we live to love and love to live.*** How could humans feel this way?
There are things that my heart did not understand, it has questions that never been answered, and answered that wasn't understood. Even if I tried to figure it out, I ended up asking of, how did I end up loving you? ***You are not that lovely, not that charming, not that intellectual, not that good enough but I ended up loving you.***
One day, I realize that your flaws made you the way you are; your shortcomings helps you to so more and reach for more.
I rejected you a million times.
***But it's too late!*** I told you that you are not enough and I want someone better than you are. You strive hard just to win me and make everything you could so I would see the beauty right through your heart. I never know how much pain you've endure and how much sorrow you bear just because I told you that I don't want you.
Then another day has come, years had past and you made up your mind. You told me that maybe you're not enough for me and I deserve someone better. I feel happy and I even whisper to myself of "yes, at last". I say yes at last I don't have someone like you who teated me too special that I cannot make my own way up or way down. I am happy that day because I don't have someone who will tell me what to do and there would be no someone to cling and annoy me with I love you's.
***Days has passed and I start feeling the emptiness, I*** start feeling broken and I feel like I miss something. Then, I remember that I used to have you by my side, cheering me up and annoys my day. I started missing you. My heart seems missing the person whom I thought isn't enough.
**I have decided to reach you out because I know that you will always want me and maybe you waited for me in secret just like you did before**. I hold my peace and let the days passed by, months after months, and one day I cannot bear it anymore. I look for you and wanted to just at least see you, I called you but you did not answer, I was upset, I even shouted my phone as if you're there. I called you again, texted you, chatted you, and I start to cry. I realize, I've never cried this hard because of you, it's you who cried over me. ***What now?***
I walk around and try to relax, I saw you from afar and I went through you and shouted, "hey! Don't you want to go out later? It's my polite invitation, I promise not to argue" and you said "No, I have appointments". ***It was new! You never say "NO" to me before.***
Then the last thing I heard was, "we have to go". Wait, we? And then I wake of to the reality that he's holding another hand, he is wearing a really sweet smile, and he is giving it to her. I thought it's just me. I thought there's nobody else. Then I remember that I've always wanted him out when he is with me, ***and now that he's with someone else I feel like my world will stop revolving and the sun is not shining any longer.***
Sleep where are you? (You're the first and the last person I think of)
Everytime I close my eyes***, I am reminded of your face and recalled the memories we shared together:*** the laughter, the adventure, and the journey that we had in life. And, suddenly I can feel a hot water flowing down through my cheeks and I believe I am crying again.
Indeed, ***you are the first person that I thought of when I wake up and the last person that I think of before I sleep;*** that has been my daily routine even before the day you hurt me so bad. It's just funny that this time, I am asking of "sleep where are you?".
I couldn't sleep, I am afraid to close my teary eyes***. I don't want to recall the laughter we've shared*** because I don't want to remember how you've hurt me, and it pained me enough to make me end up crying instead.
I have so many questions left in here. I wanted to ask if why did you leave me like that and how could you do that to me. But instead of asking, I end up blaming myself, maybe I had shortcomings, maybe you're tired, maybe you forgot the feeling you had for me. ***If only you told me the reason of why and how maybe, just a mayb, I am hoping that maybe we can work it out.***
It's been a while that I couldn't sleep the way I soundly sleep before. ***Is it because you left me or is it because I cared for you so much that I forgot about caring my own self***? I cannot tell. I don't have the answer to my own question.
All I ever wanted for now is to sleep and forget the memories I had with you that makes me ill and help me to cheerish the goo things so I can dream for more and escape this nightmare***. I want to rest my heart from the painful memory that you left me***. I want to keep the remaining pieces of my heart for myself to be better even without you.
Now, tell me am I not worthy to have my sound sleep? You already leave me and hurdle your own way, so please give me the chance to sleep and shut the memories I had with you that keeps hunting me, so I won't be asking again of ***"Sleep where are you?".***
Read Cash: Upvotes
***There are people that you do not know but connects with you in any means.*** Their support encourages me to do more and see the beauty of life in a different perspective.
I know that I am not really an excellent writer. Even if I had been writing for many years, still it isn't good enough because I'm human and would also commit mistakes. I appreciate those people who supported me from day one until now here in readcash. ***Upvoting does not mean you have much, it only means you encourage another writer to write more and do more.***
I personally want to thank each upvoter, ***whenever I received an upvotes, it fuels me to always give my best shot.***
***Upvotes encourages fellow writer***. It is another way of saying I like your article and it touches my heart. It is like saying thank you. So, to my upvoters thanks a lot and rest assured that I will continue serving you through giving you unlimited editions and productions of articles.
***Readcash upvotes is an encouragement to everyone, and upvoters are the one who pushes us to do more!***
ReadCash: $14 in one week
It was one thursday evening when I check on my phone and wanting to upload some write ups in my blog in wordpress. I read a blog of someone with readcash affiliate link and I tried. With questions and curiosity I join the readcash team and start exploring. That very night ***I earned a few points from ReadCash that turns into real cash.***
During my first day in readcash, ***I was just enjoying myself reading some articles, commenting and earning a few points***. I remember that I had lots of writings online with different pen names depending to the genre, so then I copy pasted one of them and many liked it yet it was tagged for copyright purposes. I feel like I lost my own piece in this platform and I don't feel like writing in here***. I was discourage and scared of what if my writings will be used just by anyone with no credits then I will lost another master piece.***
The first piece I write about read cash is entitled "READ CASH FRUSTRATION", I feel like not writing in this platform, that's what in my head. But, when I wake up in the morrow, *I was comforted with one of the readcash team reassuring me that it's just for the reason of security and credibility*. So then, I start writing again.
From that day onwards ***I begun to let my hands dance again and write anything it wanted to write,*** and I was amazed that I earned dollars each day. I earned while I enjoy doing the writing thing.
Thus, from the day I registered here in readcash until I reached the 7th day which is my 1st week ***I earned an approximate amount of $14 dollars.*** Amazing, isn't it? I did not expect it. And I enjoy doing it.
*How about you?* ***What's your readcash story?*** *Click like, subscribe, and comment below. I will give* *****upvotes***** *for the three persons with readcash story. I will choose three, so comment your story below.*
Don't you love me?
***I remember the day when we first met,*** our eyes met at the center of our own universe. You look at me as if I was the most beatufil creature in the room. I was captivated and fallen for it.
***I remember the day when you tell me you love me,*** I feel like riding a roller coaster I want to scream and ponder if it could be real.
***I remember the day you take me out for a date***, my knees were shaking and my heart screams for joy. I wonder if you feel the same.
***I remember the day you tell me that I'm beautiful***, I feel like flying in the sky. And those smiles that painted your face that day remains fresh in my memory until today.
***I remember those little memories that we have.*** I hope you do the same. If you will ever forget, I will keep on reminding you that our imperfecr love is perfecting pur hearts.
But, why? Why did you leave me behind as easy as that? Did you forget or you chose to forget? I have still many stories to tell and we still have lots of memories to share. *****Don't you love me anymore?*****
***Those memories that I kept in the deepest part of my heart were gradually consumed by fear and pain.*** Why did you do this to me? I thought you love me more each day. Why does your I love you turns to hate, and your I miss you doesn't seem like missing at all? Am I not enough? *****Or don't you love me anymore?*****
Before this heart dies a death so tragic, please at least explain which part of our hearts fails to understand the essence of this love, so we can find a remedy before it's too late for you and me. But I guess, you don't want it.
Don't you love me? Let me know so my heart would die a natural death with less pain to carry and don't give me some more happy memories to keep ***if you don't love me the way you did before anymore.***
Mundo ng Pag-asa
Akala ko ikaw na yung taong bubuo sa buhay kung kulang ng sigla
'yun pala puso ko'y para lang sinangla
Ipinagkatiwala sa iba upang makuha mo ang gusto mong di ko inakala
Nasasabik pa naman itong munting kaluluwa
Sa pawnshop (puso) ng iba mo ipinagkatiwala
Bakit kaya ganun?
Minahal mo naman ako noon
Minahal mo nga na ako?
O sadyang pina-ikot mulang ang puso ko
Iniwang luhaan at talunan
Pinalit sa iba ng walang dahilan
Hayaan mo at ako'y maglaho
Bahagyang may mundo pa akong tinatago
Hayaan mo at ako'y hindi basura
Dahil ako'y may mundo ng pag-asa
Teardrops
***Don't you know that people has common language that needs not to be translated but to be understood?*** Yes, we've got a language that ***our eyes has the only power to speak about,*** and our actions has the only ability to act it out when we are out of words and cannot express and compose our thoughts. We have a language that our heart could easily understand and process interpretations even without speaking it out.
They say, eyes is the window of our soul. Indeed it is! ***Our eyes speaks what our heart couldn't tell,*** and it conveys a message that even confusions couldn't figure it out. ***Our eyes is the greatest exit of our breaking and crushing hearts,*** it is the outlet for our full and crazy mind, and it is the extension of the silent speech whenever our mind reasons a reasoning that our heart cannot reckon.
***Tears are a language that God understands***. It is also a language that our understands even in the midst of arguments and confusions. ***The language that our heart couldn't express and our mind couldn't speak about is conveyed by our eyes through teardrops*** and those were the only expression that everyone understands but only God could understand it more.
Fallen Heart
It amazes me when you tell me that I light up your world
As if I'm flying up above the skies unfold
It's evident that you love me more
You overcome the waving sea 'til you reached the shore
How can it be when all I give is just a smile
You got me right in time from mile to mile
I rolled out, I scream and I cry
Whenever I look up above the sky
I missed the moments I took forgranted
Never will I do this way unwanted
It's heart breaking and my knees are shaking
Holding my breath though my heart is aching
My heart skips it's beating and scream from within
It's shouting that my heart has fallen
So before you'll break it in part
Please remember that it's me who picked your broken fallen heart
Don't Tell me if You Don't mean it
***If you are about to tell me that you love me and you don't mean it***, please stop right there because it only hurts my pride as a woman, my heart as a man, and my emotion as an individual.
***If you are to tell me you want me and you don't mean it,*** please stop right there and fix your mind because you will just ruin my life and break my heart that I am guarding for so long.
***If you are to tell me that you'll stay and you don't mean it***, please stop right there and remember that life can be so cruel because you might end up crashing my world while trying to figure out if it's love or a mere fantasy.
***If you are to tell me you'll wait for me and you don't mean it,*** please stop right there and made up your mind while it's not too late because you may end up frustrated and make me feel bad for not choosing the same path that you risked for me.
***If you are to tell me that you'll be there in good times and in bad times and you don't mean it,*** please stop right there because you'll end up making me hopeful for things unsure.
***If you are to tell me something that you can't afford to do, please be clear and choose to do the the right thing and don't tell me if you don't mean it.***
@JasmineC
