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You Are Abusing Me

***November 5, 2021*** ***Dear Jane,*** *We opened our eyes together and saw the light, yet the figures were still blurry, and vague. Our curiosity made us explore the world, and things started to unfold. We were innocent back then, and things were hard to fathom. But the world was so beautiful that we couldn't keep ourselves from exploring it and identifying every single thing we stumbled upon.* *As time passes by, we grow and perceive more things, and start to see and appreciate different colors of the world. They're beautiful and plentiful. Some are vibrant, some are dull, some are warm, some are cool, and some are dark. But despite their differences, I couldn't keep myself loving them.* *We work things out together, we face the world and appreciate beautiful things together, we filter out the ugly stuff together, we conquer our fear of darkness together, we cry and smile together, we hustle and bustle together, we get tired together, sleep and wake up together. Because your life is my life, and my life is your life. We are both vital to each other and only death could make us apart and not see each other.* *We both appreciate the beauty in the morning and welcome it positively. The same with you, I love seeing the vibrant color of the azure blue sky, the white fluffy clouds, the trees and plants making the transition from green to the colors of fall. The flowers with different shapes and colors. And the calming water of the sea.*

*In the afternoon, we would wait for the sun's masterpiece together and witness how it paints the sky in warm and relaxing hues. Even if darkness covers the world, we don't fear it as we stay together and appreciate its beauty instead. The glimmering lights of the night are fascinating that made me glow. But when it ends, we both opt to rest to prepare for the next day. And let the night recuperate our tired selves.*

*I love it every time you bring me close to nature as I could see my favorite scenery and its colors. The greenery, colorful and beautiful flowers, the stillness of the water, the chirping birds, and other beautiful views are sending happy hormones to my system. They make me relax and give smiling curves on your lips at the same time. And we both love staying at our favorite spot while enjoying the enchanting view of nature away from the bustling city and tiring work.*

*I thought you would like to stay with me more. But you found happiness in another way. You like to stay longer in a world full of risks and allow me to work there for the whole day until the night. You put my life at stake for the sake of getting what you wanted.* *I sacrificed myself just to grant your wishes. But as days go on, I become weaker and some parts of me are already working abnormally, giving me a fuzzy vision. You cared for me and gave me spectacles so I could see clearly, but it seems like not protecting me at all times.* ***Or is it because you're abusing me?*** *You love to converge to another world and I understand that it makes you happy. I could see you smiling from time to time, but it makes you busy and restless. Not only your body but me as well. And most of the time, you are pushing yourself to the limit that makes both of us exhausted.* *I'm getting tired and dehydrated but you love to play with that thing on your hand, and you're not allowing me to rest. But could you at least, give me some water droplets to drink? It might help me rehydrate. At night, we are supposed to hit the sack early, as we still have to grind the next day. But you prefer to expose ourselves to risks until I feel the pain.* *Sometimes I'm thankful for that pain as it urges you to shut yourself and send me to rest. You promise to give me more rest and lessen the exposure to risks, but you always forget it. You are getting selfish and careless, not thinking about my life and the consequences that may arise once you abuse me and your body. Have you forgotten that we have the same life? My life is your life, and your life is my life.* *If you die, I'll die. But if I die first, would you bear staying in the darkness for the rest of your life? And that risky world where you are enjoying in, would it help you see the light? Because if that happens, even that thing on your hand glows in the darkness to give you light, it would be useless as it won't help me see the light again since I'm dead by then.* ***Until when you will be putting our health at stake?*** *Red strings are now straining me and pain is being felt in my system. I succumbed to your substance abuse and I'm now shedding dry tears. Do not wait for the time to come that you'll regret not minding me. Please bear in mind that my weakness and death might lead you to your downfall. You won't be able to converge to your favorite world anymore. And you won't be able to visit your favorite unwinding place anymore.* *Please, take care of myself and your body. And I'll make you see the light and the beauty of the world.* ***Lovingly yours,*** ***Your eyes*** These past few weeks, or should I say, months, I've been pushing myself to the limit, putting strains on my eyes. And recently, I noticed red strains on both eyes but more on my right eye. And sometimes it hurts when my eyes get in contact with the water. I looked for an eyedrop to relieve its redness but I couldn't find it. Until yesterday, the strains were getting redder and I was worried about it. This morning, I opted to go out early to look for the brand of eye drops I trusted, as I don't want to just use any brand of eye drops because it might cause more trouble. Luckily, I was able to find one and I immediately put eye droplets on my eyes. I also searched for possible solutions to eye strains and I learned about the 20/20/20 rule which is quite helpful. It says rest your eyes every 20 minutes for 20 seconds by looking at 20 feet distance away from you. And the longer you look away, the better. I also learned from Eylz2021 to rest my tired eyes before bathing or washing my face. I know about it though, I'm just too careless to forget about it, especially at night before bathing. I became abusive to my eyes. I also know that the main solution is to rest my eyes from using my phone. But it's quite difficult to totally stop me from checking my phone due to some important business inside the digital world, especially if the crypto market is soaring higher. The best thing to do is to lessen the exposure to my phone and give my eyes more rest without stopping my work in this digital world. But that would be mean, lesser interaction here and on noisecash. Although I'm trying to visit your articles, I couldn't read them all, so I'll just leave a small number of upvotes, and a few comments to some. If you want to see the condition of my right eye, you can check this post, https://noise.cash/post/lq4rww59. This should be a lesson and an eye-opener to take care of your eyes as well. Our eyes are vital parts of our body. If they fail to function well, we wouldn't be able to execute our work well, or, we might suffer the most miserable consequences of our careless actions. Our goal is important, but our health matters more. By the way, I would like to thank @Infinity for his generous sponsorship. Much appreciated. ***Love your health, love your eyes.*** *©read.cash@Jane (All rights reserved 2021)*

Time of writing: 11/05/21 @2:00 pm

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