The Tears

I'm emotional now. I have this heavy feelings since yesterday. As usual, I'm always alone here in the apartment. So yesterday, I stayed up all day. Lying in my bed, listening music, visit here in read.cash and watching anime. At 1 pm, I decided to sleep but before that I checked other movies in Netflix but I couldn't find one that will caught my attention that's why I decided to have sleep.

I wake up around 3 pm then I ate some snacks while scrolling at my phone. I visit also my Facebook account and looked the memories I have. After I chatted one of my classmates at messenger. We plan to have fundraising for helping our barrio who is affected by typhoon Odette. The others was done already giving some amount included me. Any amount will do and it's really a big help already. We chatted some of my classmates also to inform them. I told our batchmates too. We sending the amount through Gcash.

After that, I cooked a viand for dinner. Honestly I was bored that's why I want to have some work to do to make me motivate. I have a headache if I'm always lying on the bed and that's the reason I get up then energize myself. I decided to cook a vegetables since it was the acceptable for me due of vaccine. I could say that my second dose was fine compared to the first dose because I didn't felt hungry and sleepy. The pain I felt where I was injected was healing fastly.

I washed my clothes first before I sliced the veggies and prepare all the ingredients. While I cook my viand, I felt sad again because all of a sudden my family appeared in my mind. It makes me sad. I want to get home. I want to travel there but I don't have a choice because there are a lot of complications.

After I was done already, I went to room again and lying in bed. My partner has a duty too that's why I couldn't disturb him. I didn't noticed that the time running fastly. I walk straight at the kitchen and ate my dinner. I was hungry already. I fastly heat my rice and viand. I played a music. It was really hard to be alone sometimes because you can felt it that you want someone to talk to. After I washed the dishes and I immediately walk to the room to iron some of my clothes. I rest about 1 hour.

While I was busy scrolling at my phone, I decided to visit my Facebook account then I was shocked when I saw a My Day from my friend. I was having a tears that our dog was died. I couldn't believe what I saw.😭 I chatted my sister and I was praying that she will online. The dog name is "Jik-Jik". I love seeing videos of Jik-Jik because when he was a little my sister always playing at him then having a record video and sent it to me. Everytime I was having a video call to my family I always saw Jik-Jik. I always watching video about him that makes me enjoy. He gave me happiness all the time. After few minutes, I cried. I couldn't accept what happened to Jik-Jik.

I asked what was the reason and he said Jik-Jik all of a sudden he vomit then he didn't have an appetite to eat until he became weak and died. It's really hurt seeing Jik-Jik in the pictures. My heart was in pain. I couldn't explain what I felt. It's really painful. It's really fast. Why he died so fast?😭 Until now I couldn't believe that Jik-Jik is already gone. Honestly I don't have mood since last night because of the bad news about Jik-Jik.😭

At 10 pm, my sister replied to me. I was glad she has a signal already but she said it was seldom. She replied to me a lot of crying emojis because of what happened of Jik-Jik. She was really in pain. I know my sister felt a heavy emotions last night until now. She was close of Jik-Jik. She was the one who always beside him that's why it's really painful to her.😭

We will miss you Jik-Jik! You are always in our hearts!

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Thank you so much. I hope I give you some worthy time with this article of mine.

God bless everyone. Stay safe always.🙏

-JRamona20 💜