Painful Tears from "Unexpected Person"

You cry from unexpected person. Did you experience with this? Without expectations even one inch but unexpected scenarios occurs.

Yes, the pain is somewhat like needle point. It's really hurt. The worst is you never expect that person gives yourself a painful tears. Unexplainable self emotions been felt.

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Highschool Days

In my previous article I said, I joined a dance troupe which is the folkdance. This is the opportunity which helps me a lot and to develop me who I am. I am chosen to be qualified of a folk dancer in our school which is I couldn't expected since I was a transferee student that time.

The memories I have until now I cannot forget and I'm forever grateful to be part of the dance troupe. We performed also a dance number everytime there is a program in school and activities like Intramurals, Foundation Day and others. We printed a t-shirt also for our group and we named it "Inborn Society".

The bondings we have are memorable. I love them so much. When I was being part of the group, I am so happy and I enjoy a lot. Sometimes we went into the beach, it's a swimming time!❤️ Also in the mountains for a picnic and we brought there a foods. We celebrate everytime if there are birthdays. We went also if there was a fiesta from one of our co-dancer setting.

Honestly, I joined them when I was a second year highschool and all of them are third year so I am the only one who was a second year so they were ahead 1 year to me. I missed them a lot. I was so sad when they were all graduated already. I attended their graduation day. I don't know and I am so sad since I couldn't see them anymore at school.🥺I'm really proud of them. One of my co-dancer is valedictorian and the one which is my ex-boyfriend, he is salutatorian that time. I'm really happy with their achievements. I hug them during their graduation day.🥺

So it means, me and our trainer left. When I was in 4th year highschool. I thought there would be a new recruit of folk dancers for the replacement to all the dancers who graduates already. Until one time a bad news came, my trainer called me and talked to me that he was very sad since there was no longer competition for folkdance category so it was ended already and I am so sad too.🥺

After what happened, everything was new for me since it was my days habitual that I am so busy on rehearsals, housing time, sweats body and enjoyment for almost two years in folk dance so it's normal I felt strange feelings for how many months. Still I met my trainer since he was my MAPE instructor but the bondings with my co-dancers was stopped since there were all busy with their college.

I admit that I miss those days when I'm joining a Folk dance but there's no other choice but to accept the reality. Sometimes I felt I want to dance and perform on the stage since I miss it so much!🥺

The Painful Tears

One time, when I have a class on the other subject. We passed to the MAPE classroom then someone called me. I was turning back at it was my trainer. So I went towards him and he said that we would have a practice at tomorrow morning because we performed in the afternoon since there was a school program. after I heard what he said I was so excited and the happiness wakes me up.

Even when I was heading at home, I was still excited since the time that I've been waiting so long was granted. I will perform again. When I was already at home, I told mom immediately with an excitement face that I'm going to school tomorrow because we were going to perform a dance.

So in the morning, I wake up early. When I took a bath I felt the excitement. My mom prepared to me a breakfast and for the lunch. After I was done, I went already. When I was at his classroom, he talked to me but never mentioned about what he said yesterday that time so I was curious. He didn't even asked that we were going to practice but I didn't mind it since I thought he was busy. All I did there was scrolling at my phone while waiting to him so that I didn't get bored. I was waiting him to approached me back but he didn't until it was 12:00 pm. So it was lunch time. I went to the canteen and I took my lunch, so I was expecting that time that he would call or text me. I was in a curiosity why he didn't call me and it was 1:00 pm already.🥺

After 15 minutes, I heard a sound and it was our Folkdance music. So I went fast outside from the canteen to see the stage. I was shocked since there was already perform the dance. When I saw it, it hurts me a lot.😭 I wanted to cry that time but there were a lot of students there so I decided to went back home.😭

When I was already at home, mom and her friend cooking something banana cue that time but they were all shocked because I cried so loud in front of them.😭 It was the time that I felt pity to myself. 😭 I couldn't explain my emotions. It was really painful.😭 Mom comforted me immediately and she felt mad to my trainer.🥺

It hurts me the most, why he did it to me? I was like a stupid because of the excitement and waiting there alone.😭 He lied to me.😭 That's why I realized that time why he didn't approached me back and only he was did was passing by me while sitting there alone.😭 Yes I admit I was really mad at him.😭 Everytime it was MAPE time, I don't want to see his face because it makes me remind about what he did. My heart still in pain that time.😭

FINAL THOUGHTS:

Why he never told me the truth? If by chance I will understand him so I'm not hoping and the worst I was really excited that time, he makes me stupid there.

This is a reminder, please don't do this to others. You don't know what they feel. I promise it's really hurts. We should be careful. We should be aware with this. You gave people in pain into sorrowful ones.

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Thank you so much. I hope I give you some life thoughts with this article of mine.

God bless everyone. Stay safe always.🙏

-JRamona20 💜