22.08.2021

Today's the day when i quite it's not easy for me to say that i lossed hope and I'm quitting everything. I didn't expected I'll see this day when I'll write this by myself that from now I'll no more able to continue

Yes you heard right!

It's unexpected for me as well and leaving passion isn't easy i spent my 7months writing different kind off stuff and never loss hope so how can i quite in just one day

Everything was fine until now but i had to make decisions ahead and for this I'll have to quite it for a while or forever

I still no many peoples will think I'm joking but it's not like what you're expecting

I know from which situation I'm going through and it's difficult for me to continue now i didn't faced any difficulty finding topic but few things made me disappointed a lot which is why I've to take this decision.

I don't think there's a person exist in this world who did too much hard work from beginning and started with zero got nothing then my hard work changed everything and now I'm almost standing where i wouldn't think but i made my dreams reality

I did hustle to make friends i found a whole family my club mates and experienced person always stays with me and supported me motivated me in every condition

And i don't have any complaints with anyone unless few of complains which isn't related to them or not even regarding platform but few things disappointed me which is why I'm taking this step.

7 memorable months but i lost my way

I never thought about this even though when i started my journey i only dream to be one of best person in platform and was dreaming to complete my first year with best ever community person and with friends.

But i totally lost my way in just one night when I'm imagining things which can't be happen when I'm setting new targets but suddenly something happened and i took decision to quite

I know quitting isn't an option and I'm not a loser i never threw my guns away i will prefer to fight without bullets and will continue till i reach my destination but i already lost that gun.

I tried my best to not hurt anyone

From beginning till now i tried my best to not hurt anyone i don't like to do this and in my past 7months i never abused anyone from beginning till now i always remain friendly no matter i knew the person or not i always remain friendly with them

And i believe everyone who know me here knows more better than anyone else coz i interacted with them every time i learned soo many things from them

They guided me whenever i did mistake and i don't have enough words to say thanks and your respect will always remain in my heart I always try to remember in prayers

Though i tried my best to not hurt anyone but being a human we do mistake even without knowing yourself so it's my request if i hurt anyone since beginning then apologize from my side and please forgive me i already forgive everyone even I don't mind anyone and never happened anything like that but still if you think you did something wrong for me then i already forgive everyone.

I'm quitting but I'm not a loser

Now i know peoples will call me loser but as i know my struggle is real i never steal anything from anyone as long as i know being here since more than 6months is full with memories and progress

I didn't expected what i got in return i got love and respect from others so I'm quitting but not as a loser i still have many things to share with others I've multiple topics to write but can't do anything I'm in situation where I can't do anything.

Reason I'm quitting

I know many peoples will still won't believe that I'm saying this but the only reason I'm quitting is to make my future life better

I'm not a person who think for future i always remain in present or past and past is horrible and these 7months changed me totally becuase of being here i found a purpose of my life

But things are getting worst I'm depressed and can't stop thinking about my future

I know my present is going good in term of financial but from inside I'm dying each and every day I can't sleep at nights and getting mad being alone don't have one to share my problems Don't have a person who tell me solution

I can't deny reality my worth is nothing I don't have a bright future ahead can't deny what other peoples think about me they always look at me as a failure and it hurts too much even i tried ignoring them but I can't handle it anymore

I need sometime to take stand and shut everyone's mouths they don't have any right to say anything but still I don't want to make anyone feel uncomfortable coz of me that's why i should do progress in my life these are the days when it's time to take decisions to make my future better

I'm sorry to whole community

I'm clearing this again i don't have any complaints regarding anyone everyone treated me very well and they all was like my brother's and sisters

I do fun sometimes and it's only for fun i don't have any other concerns with anything I'm happy with my single life all i do is to make other laugh or whatever you think

Well it's time to say goodbye and it is unexpected for everyone but i can only say sorry to them because it's still not like what you are thinking my intentions was never to hurt someone and still I'm not a person who do this but today i did something hilarious by pranking everyone and it's my first and last time doing this i don't want to play with emotions and don't have any such plans in future as well i just want to see who will remember me if something ever happen like this so i hope everyone will forgive me and will remember me in their prayers.

Closing thoughts

Still it's all unexpected for me and I can't believe that I'm doing this so It will be written in history there was a person who was loyal with BCH and platform and with everyone but suddenly he destroyed his own dreams.

And i sold everything and now I'll start my new life and journey need your prayers nothing else needed I'm thankful for everyone who was with me till now you guys are awesome and will always be remembered and will expect you guys will not forgot me and I'll try to get back very soon here's end of my era.

fin.