Fate has favored me, the Universe got my back! 🙏🙏
Today was a very busy day for me, I just had a bonding time with daughter Elora, we watched 4 episodes of "The Adventures of Merlin". This day wasn't just an ordinary day, because it is a day of revelation and realizations.
Before continuing this story though, I just wanna check if everything's great on your end. Not everyone's able to see how you are doing. Are you alright? I hope you are. If you'll ask me, I am doing great because two of my sponsors renewed their contracts.
I already mentioned it here that my arm has been painful for the past month so I decided to gamble and go to Fairview Terraces to look for a blind masseuse. Before I went out, I made a pact with myself and the Universe- I will start to look for a job this week if my quest is successful.
The first thing that I did was go to SM Fairview Terraces to withdraw some money from Elora's savings. I've been trying to set aside an amount since I started earning here because I wanted to save as much as I can so we can go to Japan. There was a long queue and since it's still pandemic, we had to wait outside the bank. I almost thought I won't be able to get the money because of strict measures.
I wanted to cry when I saw the balance remaining on her passbook. I felt like my heart was torn apart because I promised my child that I would save for her. Now, I am using the money to buy her sister's diaper because I am running out of funds. I felt like I failed her and that I am a bad mom. It is a humbling experience because I've been hard on her but she saved me without her knowing. I realized all my shortcomings to my eldest.
For how many times did I tell myself that I will do my best to be never broke again? Yet, here I am. I am getting tired and sick of being in the same situation over and over again. My heart and soul are screaming for change. I was so full of determination to make things different this time as I put the passbook inside my bag. There's no going back. Those were the last of her savings. I had to replace the money and add more. I remember the effort I gave just to open that account when I was with Amrita. That was for my child's dreams.
And then I went to Ayala Fairview Terraces to look for the blind masseuse. I thought they were on the ground floor near the department store but to no avail. Good thing I asked for the guard's help and told me they were on the second floor. Believe me, you'll get tired of walking around the mall because of its design. I was about to give up but I literally pray because I needed help badly- then a miracle happened! I could feel something telling me to continue walking and checking on each shop that I see. I finally saw "Balikatan Massage". I went near it and read the services that they offer, I am so happy because I have finally found the answer to my agony. I went in and asked if someone could massage my arm because I had a sprain. I had a kind, blind woman to massage me and I was glad that we came from the same island of Mindanao. It was a 15-minute massage for 120- not so bad. Now I know why I wasn't able to go to the masseuse an acquaintance referred to me- because it wasn't meant to be. I could feel that despite my loneliness and desperation over the past few weeks, I am still loved and supported by the Higher Power. All I have to do is ask. Fate favored me and it is a positive sign.
📌Conceit and pride won't do any good and life has its ways of humiliating us. Just like what happened to me, I do think I became too proud but my recent experiences brought me to my knees. When I am earning here I didn't have enough time with my daughter Elora, I showered her with presents instead. Then I lost that privilege because of what happened to my first account.
📌Life is teaching me to spend time more with my eldest because she needs my attention and she is growing up so fast. We might be in the same house but we almost do not talk to each other because I am too engrossed taking care of my 1-year-old. I do think it is the reason why she is being hardheaded and doing some naughty stuff. It might not be easy to balance my time with them at first but I have to try hard, if not, harder. My motto should be, "Presence over presents".
📌Help will always be there, all I have to do is humbly ask. I do feel lost, and helpless, I forgot that help is just around me, waiting for me to call. Because of negative thoughts and emotions, I frequently forget that the Universe is abundant and is never lacking. I should ask with gratitude to strive for my dreams, not because of fear and nothingness.
📌In my hands lie the fulfillment or failure of my dreams. I can either choose to end up where I want to be or regret it for the rest of my life. I should pursue my dreams, if I got good employment, everything will adjust. The Universe will make it happen. The time to act is now, not next month or my partner finds a job. I got to reach my own goals.
Thank you for reading my story for today. I hope I was able to impart something of value to you.
What are the lessons you learned today? Was it so impactful that you decided to make some changes in your life? Let me know by leaving a comment below.
I am not sure if I sound like a robot because of my statement above, but, really, I appreciate whatever it is that you can advise me about life because I need it.
Author's note: This content is original unless stated otherwise. Everything written here was based on my personal experience.
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