March 15, 2022

I went to work late today because I was not feeling well due to my cough. My cough has phlegm already and it is very itchy on my throat. Last night, I am not sure if it is about the weather that I felt I have high temperature. I can't sleep too and twisting and turn in bed became a habit. I lacked sleep that is why I got up in bed late. While taking a bath I realize I will not be friendly for today. I know I will feel irritated. Then I remember this is a good topic to share and find out if there are some people like you that feels the same when working so I am doing this article.

We are just human. We cannot be perfect. I am a person that is nice and kind but there are times I have mood and attitudes too. I am born to be introvert that is why there are things that I do not do sometimes and let me share it to you.

I am not in the mood to talk

At work, whenever I know I'm lacking sleep I will put on my earphones and will not talk to anyone. I don't like sounds from a conversation, I get irritated to loud laughter and screaming, I am not in the mood to share anything when being ask and I don't look at anyone. I make sure I will not start any conversation. If they try to ask me something they will tap me. I will answer the question but I make sure to be specific to not let the conversation longer. I am in my own little world and I am glad that I have my team that understands me when I am in that kind of mood.

Whenever there is someone calling me on office local number, I get grumpy but only to one person

I can count in fingers how many times I can be nice when answering the phone. That is only when the person calling has higher position than me. When the person on the other line has the same level of position as I am, I am always tired and feel low when answering the phone. Some even commented before that I sound like a bully person, already grumpy when answering the phone. For what I know with myself that is my normal tone when answering any kinds of phone calls but it doesn't sound the same with other people. That is why some of them will initiate to be very nice in tone when they call me so I will do the same. Yes, I do the same but it depends on the call.

I will explain further. There are people at work that don't understand their work even if they are a tenure at the office. There is a certain person who has been in the office for 25 years already an sup until now, she is still asking me on what to do with her work. I have a regular conversation with her everyday and she is asking the same question over and over. Bad thing I need to explain it to her, but since she is calling me everyday to ask the same questions it seems she never listen to my explanation. She is the specific reason that is why I am already grumpy over the phone. And I am only grumpy when she is the one that is on the other line. There is always one person that will test your patience and that is her.

Sometimes I feel like talking and I'm talkative and making fun of others

I think I have multiple personalities lol, because sometimes I start a joke with my officemate or make fun of them. Sometimes I am laughing everytime there is someone made a mistake but in a funny way. I am fun to be with when my personality is like that. I am in a roller-coaster of personality and there is something wrong with my mood, seriously.

When they are initiating a team building or anything that will forced me to socialise with different people, I say No

I say no. Being an introvert, it is hard for me to mingle with other people. Actually when I am going home, when I know there will be an officemate that I will see in the road, I just bow my head for them not to see me. That depends if a person is very close to me. When they belong to different department, although I'm seeing them at work, I do not look at them when I see them in the street. It is much better for me to go home alone or go home with a person closest to me.

When it comes to team building, company outing and Christmas party, I am pressured already when I happen to know it. I will abruptly say no and fill up a survey that I will not join. I don't want to force myself to do the things I don't want to do. It will take time to change my mind and there should be a deeper reason why I will join. Definitely socialising will never be the reason of my approval. If I need to lead in a choreography of a dance, definitely I will help my team and perform. That is one of the factor I will force myself to be there and of the prize is right, other than that, I will take me 2 weeks to change my mind.

It is easy for me to cry when pressured

I already shared to you in a post, that I was pressured by someone at work to do a report that I was submitting everyday. I made a post about it last last week and that is the reason I cried at work. It just came out. I was really feeling bad about the redundancy she is trying me to do and I felt its unfair on my part because that is her job. I hate it.

I am still not grew up when it comes to pressure. Mostly the things that makes me stress at work are the additional work load that they should not give me because it is not my job at all. They are just trying to make me do it because it is part of my task but when I will try to analyze it, it is not my job at all. I have a full workload every day, and thinking on how can I squeeze what they are trying to add on my list makes me cry. Also, I don't want to stay in the office like the regular overtime because they will just suggest I should render overtime for it because I have another job which is on the night shift. It is unfair on my part to give me additional task when they should be managing their time and do their job instead of me. At work place there will be people that will take advantage of you when you are nice so you are considered warned.

Loud Conversations /Sounds Annoys me

We cannot avoid this, there will be groups in the office that are having BFF relationships, like they are soulmates that when they see each other in the work place they have a conversation that will took them half day to finish. You will hear them laughing loud, screaming, talking loud and just being a happy soul inside the office. They talk all the time and they are very close.

Some of them are not in the same department at work, so when they meet in floors surely they will create a noise. I don't have problems with conversation unless it is not loud. I can hear their conversation and sometimes the topic is annoying and will last for whole day. I do not show my irritation, I don't want them to feel bad. I pretend it is not happening but my introverted personality is having a hard time absorbing so I will put on my headset. Sometimes these people are overacting with their emotions and they don't care if they make other people feel irritated to what they are doing. I always adjust to them. It's hard I have to tell you.

The Ms. Congeniality Annoys Me

In the office there is one person that is a friend of all. I don't have problems with friendly people and I myself, even if my face doesn't correlate with being friendly, I try to be friendly too, but I get annoyed with people who are a friend of almost everyone. I have been to seven companies already and there is this one person who is always a "she" who is a friend of all and very popular. I am not sure if this is insecurity but maybe definitely it is, but I can smell if the friendship si genuine. Mostly, from experience it is not because the Ms. Congeniality is making friends with you with a purpose and that is to get additional information. Mostly I don't trust them because I can smell the purpose. Thst is the benefit of bring a virgo, I csn smell the intentions and I can see through the eyes the truthfulness of a person. Spefically the Ms. Congeniality has a dual personality that I can feel abruptly, so this is differ to the congeniality you normally know.

I apologise for revealing my true me. Again, I am not perfect but on the other side I might not look friendly but I'm am. I am nice and willing to help someone needed it, but I avoid people who do not listen and open for understanding. I have my own limits because I have lots of things to do at the office, my time is limited too, that's why. Before I end this, I used a picture of Abby. That is the girl in the pictures here but honestly I don't know who she is. I found her picture on Facebook and she looks similar to me and my face expression that is why I use it here. I don't own the picture. If you happen to know from what movie character she is please leave a comment on my post and I will watch it.

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