January 8, 2022

It has been two days that our office was on the lockdown. Consider this as a part two of the story.

Little recap, last Wednesday night, we found out that a certain officemate is positive for antigen test. She is has a slight fever Tuesday and still pursue on Wednesday. Me and my Co-department are with her as we were conducting a year end inventory and she is leading us. Wednesday night we found out that she is positive to antigen test which means she has infection. Thursday, office is on the lockdown. All that are present are compulsory to have antigen rapid Test before entering the office. Five of the personnel are positive to antigen.

Me and the rest are on isolation due to most of us are close contact. A Rapid antigen test kit was sent to us to have ourselves tested.

During that time, and day, Thursday, it was a mixed of stress, horror, thriller, suspense and anxiety for everyone. Like for me example, I found out that those who got a positive antigen results are all asymptomatic and they are not a close contact of the person who got positive last Wednesday. So if they get infected, how about us that are close contact of this person and was with her for a couple of days?

That is what I am thinking most of the time. Another stress is that we are not the priority to have the test kit. There were no employees left to prepare the test kit. The admin personnels are tested positive to antigen too. All that is working on preparation is one shuttle driver. He was called and was needed to sacrifice for all the employee as he is the only one that is not a close contact of anyone, as he is picking different group of employee during office hours.

Also, the administration is super stress since they need to contact our HMO provider which is so hard to contact when it comes to RT PCR test. Our health provider is ETiqa and they are hard to reach when we need them the most. Consider this as a review and facts about that HMO company.

We don't have any choice but to wait for our turn for our test kit to be provided. I waited since 8am till 3pm. As soon as the test kit was given to me I tested myself.

Imagine all the stress I was feeling during the waiting hours. I can't eat. I only drink water and vitamins. I was planning to do an exercise but my mind is all about the results. Truly, Covid scenarios are affecting everyone's mental health. It makes you weak and makes you give up. What did I do to kill time and be distracted, I watch BTs Run, the reality shoe of BTS. I watched all the funny videos but I know my laugh is full of air, like it was a force laugh. I still think it did helped me because I distracted. I didn't cry. I was nervous, scared and even shaking but still I did show it. I managed to hide what I feel because my family will be surely anxious. I don't want them to worry a lot.

As the test kit arrived, I tested myself immediately at home. After 15 minutes, boom, Negative!!

Why I was so scared of the results? It is because I am symptomatic. I have a flu like symptoms and it is hard for me to breathe. I still have sense of taste and smell, I have little dry cough but now I don't have it anymore. The one that is persistent is the slight fever and tension headache. All of it are symptoms of Covid.

When the result is negative, I snap a picture of the test kit and report it to my manager. Everyone from our department is negative but our main driver is positive. He said that his family are all symptomatic. They had been tested for rapid antigen test and are all positive too. I feel sad for them and what they will be going through.

I big thorns have been lifted on my chest. I went to messenger to give hope for those who are still waiting for test kit. I was happy for myself that I am not a carrier but still I don't want to be Complacent but vigilant to protect myself not only for me but for my family.

Still praying for the infected, symptomatic or not and for the people who got positive to be well very very soon. In this time, we are all responsible for each other. No one should be left behind. Let's uplift who are weak and be strong for those about to give up. We need each other now.

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