September 29, 2022

Hello to my passionate co-writers of this site. One day before October, have you met your goal? I didn't have a goal for September and most likely I will not have this October. I know I will be busy starting this October and I am getting serious about my goal. My goal is to earn more because my plan is to make this Christmas one of the most memorable Christmas for my family.

Maybe you are thinking, why is the title like that. Let me explain. Recently, there are lots of things that bring me down. It is not the other's people fault though, it is totally my fault. I should control my emotions about things that is quite impossible to happen to me. I should stay where I should suppose to stay. I should know my place.

My feelings was all over the place. I was totally ruin by my own mistakes. I lost control and I forget what I need to do with my life. I totally forgot about myself and my plans. I can only do that if I will disconnect myself to which I will remember him or them for a while. I should train myself to do my priorities first before them. I should make this a habit.

I have been doing things in less than three weeks now, but will be three weeks this coming Sunday.. It is so hard for me to do it, but still I need to be true with myself. I need to disconnect to connect with myself. I deleted all my social media account. I deactivated my Facebook and my messenger. I deleted Instagram app and logged out of my Twitter account. I hide my Telegram account and I only have Discord and this is for Hive purposes, so that I can still share my future articles.

In my first weeks, I really cried. I was so sad. I can't believe I am doing it. Some things are getting out of hand and I need to straight everything up, that is what I keep telling myself. My hands were irritated to check my social media but I stop myself. I keep myself busy.

I survived the first week and I made my heart strong to be able to surpass the second week. I need to be real and being real starts from this, from being alone, for knowing and executing my plans. While I was on my second week, I start to promise myself that when I overcome the feeling, that strong emerging feeling, I get back to social media to test myself. I will try to test myself if I still hold the same feeling. On social media, I can see them, I will be updated again. I rather not for the meantime.

I even added another activity aside from disconnecting, I will not talk to my friends for the meantime. They always remind me of them. They always make ways to remember them when I am avoiding them. This is for temporary anyway. I will get back after I meet my goal. Maybe December, perhaps.

Sorry that I cannot be specific with this one. Give it to me guys, I will not be specific on this.

I am totally sad for doing this but I need to choose myself now. If not now, then when, so I decided it to be now. I am sad that I don't know what is happening on them. I am totally left behind. I miss them but as much as possible I keep myself busy to forget about them. I pray that I will be focus on my goal, that some good results will happen and I will win this. I need your support guys, cheer me up!!!

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