No love lost, no love found

Why do we chase something that doesn't exist?

Is love just a myth, a bedtime story we tell our kids to keep them hopeful for a brighter and more beautiful future?

Is it just one big lie that has been passed down over generations?

Is it just a chemical in our brain?

Over the years I've tried to understand this concept and each time I keep failing to come to a definite conclusion. I've loved, I've been loved, I've been hurt and heartbroken, I've been lied to, cheated on, and suffered a lot of disappointment yet like a fool, I keep running back to that same lie, I keep listening to that voice that says "Love exists".

Recently I decided to give love a chance, I "loved" a girl, I tried to be there for her as best as I could but somehow it seems that the more I try to be a better person to worse it became and soon we moved from talking every day to a week and the trend continued, even when we do speak, it never gets past the casual "Hi's" and "Hello's", in Nigeria, most of my friends will refer to this as "Breakfast - yet to happen".

I'll be dishing out this "breakfast" soon to focus on my other priorities, I don't need this right now. I should be more focused on Fattening my wallet and eating what I want just being happy, not the way I was yesterday, tired, exhausted, and sad with a lot of questions and doubt going through my mind asking the one question I should have asked myself... "Great, what have you done to yourself?"

I've spent years building walls around my private space only to see it crumble each time I let myself believe in the so-called "Love", leaving me with a lot of work to build and rebuild. I don't think I have that strength anymore so I'm going to call it quits...for now (however long "for now "might be"

It's time to remove that gentle man's suit and swing it away, it was getting heavy to keep up with anyway. Maybe being the "good guy" is not always the best.

I have a bad of overthinking every single detail and analyzing different scenarios in my head, a habit I realized I shared with my good friend @Deeepensiverse.

From past experiences, once I start to visualize how I was going to end a relationship, it's only a matter of "when". I have a million scenarios played out in my head already, and today made that decision more concrete, I'm so upset right now so I'll just vent it out through writing, if I don't, I doubt I'll be able to sleep well.

Back to my initial question, is love just a myth?

It's not, it is very real, maybe not the way it is portrayed in movies, the butterflies in your stomach or the sun smiling back at you. It's much easier and less complicated.

If you ever find anyone who completes you and makes you a better version of yourself, don't let them go. Okay, I realize how weird that sounds thinking it out loud now but you know what mean haha

I feel so much better now that I released these bottled-up feelings, read.cash has really saved me from myself. It's time to let my phone rest and get some sleep, it's going to be a long day tomorrow.

In other news...

I decided to mint more Cattos NFT, I was unable to do it with my phone so I had to complete the process with my laptop, at the time it was only 9400/10000 NFTs, and I was targeting Sunday as the time all the NFT's will be bought but then came the whales who bought the rest in less than 30 minutes, I was surprised but satisfied I bought more.

Now, what's the next step on the journey? I bet it would be interesting profit wise. Don't forget to do your own research before investing in anything.

Oh, it just occurred to me, I'm counting on you all to keep this article a secret until I've made up my mind.

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