About feelings

Day 1: Feelings
Date: Monday,22nd of November,2021
Published by: Greatwolfman

Feelings, many scholars have defined it with various words but I can only make use of one to buttress my point. Making reference to Cambridge Dictionary:

Feelings;

emotions, especially those influenced by other people:

I find it most accurate because she is the one who has influenced the way I feel right now and that has pushed me to write on this subject, the best way to express the feelings words can't fully explain.

There she was again, happy as she ran across the yard, I almost forgot she wasn't mine anymore until I saw the new guy. My heart came crashing again as reality struck me and I woke up, it was only a dream.

I checked the time, it was only 3 am and I couldn't go back to sleep, I tried using my headphones to play music from Ed Sheeran's new album which only made me feel worse. I had deleted your contact in hopes that I would forget it but my brain just wouldn't agree with my heart. It took a lot of energy not to dial the number as I switched my phone off.

I tried to sleep and the memory of the last time we spoke came to me, you were drunk that day as you spoke to me. You said you missed me and you hated me at the same time, I could you were crying over the phone. I couldn't do anything about your current state so I listened to what you had to say hoping it would help clear your thoughts and whatever you feel inside. Until the conversation came to end.

My personal feud against taking alcohol has been going on for a long time, if not, I should be drinking right now as I write the article to try and help with the burden. I've moved on, I really have but sometimes old scars open and begins to bleed again, that's exactly how I feel.

I know it's okay not to be okay but it's important we try to find the light in the dark. Although I miss you, that's all about that, my heart beats for another. There are a lot of things to be happy about, the lives of my parents, my new puppies, my great friends, and also your happiness, I know it was only a dream but I pray that smile never leaves your face.

Some people say feelings are overrated but I believe that is what defines us. It is one of the best gifts bestowed upon us by the almighty, be it love, pain, anger, frustration, depression, joy, and happiness, it's ours to express.

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Imagine if we couldn't express how we feel, imagine if we couldn't cry or scream or smile, what do you think life would be all about. The thoughts of that alone is sad. Feelings is a major driving force of society and this gift is not only particular to human but other animals. An Elephant would mourn the loss of a loved one for days guiding the carcass, the mother hen would chase after a Hawk for taking one of her own, a lion would fight to defend the pride.

2021 is soon coming to an end, this should be a period of reflection on the past as we walk into the future, I was fortunate to come across a 30-day writing prompt that would help me express my feelings and bring more clarity. I have always had issues "communicating" so this would serve as my therapy session.

Here is my advice to you who has decided to keep all of those feelings bottled up in there, it's hard to know who to trust so you are a bit careful with whom you want to share it with but I will tell you this from experience, if you wish to move on and be happy, you have to let some of it go. Express yourself the way you know how but ensure no one gets hurt because that would be wrong. Cry if you must, scream even, but let it flow out like a river. That freedom you will feel can not be fully justified with just words my friend.

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