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I Need Help: Emotionally Drain

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Written by Β Β 239
2 months ago

Whenever I need help I am not so used to sharing it to the people I love. I do not want to burden them with my dilemmas and personal issues but then right at this time I wish they knew everything that is going on me and help me.

One of the disadvantage of being strong is that no one checks on you if you are still okay. No one would dare to look you in the eye to read your emotions or even hold your hand so you won't let go.

I need help, I do not know how and why am I going through a lot right now but both financially, emotionally I am falling. I tried to get back up but then there comes some situation that would put me down.

But I am fighting. I am fighting for my children. They are the sole reason why I wanted to live and continue living despite what I am going through.

My Beautiful Children

Gheia
Gasha

Meet my loves. They are my source of strength. I get up and do things like I am not bothered at anything because I they make me strong but then there are cases whenever I am alone just like right now I get to realize that I am getting drained. I wanted to do something in my life so to get that spark of motivation.

I am on that part of my life that I cannot pray because I cannot focus. Everytime I attempt to pray I get distracted by my own thoughts and my heart is not cooperating. It would seem like my very soul have given up and lose all the hope that I can get through this.

But still I wish God won't let go of me despite this feeling.

Grateful despite of what's going on

Despite what I am going through I still appreciate little things that I have.

  • My Job even when its draining.

  • Shelter

  • Clothes

  • Food

  • Water

I still appreciate that I could get to work at home though this might come to an end anytime soon but I am still grateful just that I have so much to consider as negative and its affecting my peace.


...end thoughts..

Di po ako nagpapaawa dito I am just making this blog to channel my inner thoughts and emotion kesa po bumigay ako. Nakakapagod ang araw-araw na lumaban. Masarap sumuko pero di ako magiging masaya pagka ganun kasi my children needs me most.

I hope that to everyone who feels the same way or going through the same pain will be healed someday.

I hope I can be financially free. I do not when, how or why but really I do pray for this to come and for all my sufferings to be paid off.

I even have a lot of what ifs I were this and that in life but I know it won't help. Sometimes I want to live in a dream where I can manipulate things and I can just wake up when it feels like a nightmare instead of the reality.


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God is always holding our hands sis tayo lang yung bumibitaw at minsan ayaw magpahold. Find yourself to go to the Lord, kneel and pray. Talk to Him as if you're talking to someone who is closest and dearest to you who is willing to listen everything.

Laban lang sis kaya mo yan. Hwag mawalan ng pag asa.

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2 months ago

I will πŸ™ kinokondisyon ko din utak at puso madam. Pra kasing ang layo ko na :(

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2 months ago

sis keep praying lang and pakatatag ka for your children. pag pray ka namin dito and if you want to rant, go lang madami naman kami makikinig.

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2 months ago

Salamat sis T.T kaya ata namimihasa ako kaka rant kasi madami kayo na understanding... Salamat ng marami

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2 months ago

okay lang yan ate hihihi madami kami makikinig.

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2 months ago

Asking for help is very difficult. I have a problem with this too, but this year I had to get over myself and ask for help multiple people. Sometimes it is necessary for our survival. So reach out to your close ones and medical if needed πŸ’™

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2 months ago

Thank you dear. I will. I have already informed them and will seek medical attention. Will see if i can go on leave by august for this.

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2 months ago

Fingers crossed for you my dear πŸ’™

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2 months ago

You're an inspiration poπŸ₯Ί hope I'll be strong as you

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2 months ago

You're an inspiration poπŸ₯Ί hope I'll be strong as you

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2 months ago

Laban lang dear. I am strong because i have to. Pagka may mga anak ka talaga iiyak ka lang sa gilid pero tatayo ka ulit pra sa kanila

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2 months ago

If there are people who can fully help you, they are your loved ones. Don't hesitate to speak out.. Soon, you'll feel better.

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2 months ago

Thank you Jane. Oo nga eh ive already tried to reach out... Nakkatakot lng talaga ayoko ma misinterpret nila ako and gusto ko tumayo and e fix sariling problem on my own... I got used to hiding and crying secretly pag di na kaya

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2 months ago

Daghan jud ang mibati ug sama ini nga sitwasyon, pero ang kinabuhi ING Ana jud, naay hapsay ug lisod nga sitwasyon pero kinahanglan mag padayon Kay WA Tay lain mahimo kundi magkinabuhi kauban ang Ginoo.

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2 months ago

Tinoud jud lge. Need rjud ta m laban ani usahay lng jd kapoy oy ambot nlng jd ::(

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2 months ago

Laban lang ta madam. Kapoy gyud mo face sa situation over and over again pero seeing your kids, for sure makes you recharged and strong again πŸ’ͺ

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2 months ago

Yes madam mura na ni cla nako ug charger. Like everytime ma lugmok ko kiss and hug nila would remind me na okay na... And that pwd nsad ko m laban balik

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2 months ago

What's the problem dear, no matter you are facing. Don't give up, help is on the way

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2 months ago

:'( a lot and sometimes I want to give up but I have kids to take care so I got no choice but to fight.

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2 months ago

same here sis.. kahapon nakapag Myday ako na umiiyak dahil hindi na talaga kayang pigilan..

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2 months ago

Ill pray for you to heal din sis and ma resolve lahat ng dinadala mo... πŸ™ God will find a way sa lahat.

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2 months ago

salamat sis..

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2 months ago

Same tayo ate, lahat ng pinapublish ko dito connected sa totoong nararamdaman ko. Wala akong magawa kundi lumaban, di tayo nagpapaawa kundi nilalabas lang natin kalooban natin, laban tayo.

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2 months ago

Oo dear wla nang option2 dapat laban lang talaga. Fight lang tayo hanggang huli...

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2 months ago

Laban lang sis,may mga anak ka na nangangailangan ng yung aruga malalampasan mo rin yan,lahat tayo nakakaranas ng problema sa buhay pray kalang at huwag sumuko ha,God bless!

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2 months ago

Salamat sis πŸ₯Ί god bless din sayo...

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