What if I choose to be away from my family to have a better future? What if I did? Do I have a better life today? For sure the answer would be, Yes.

So hello there lovelies, it's me again, having a hard time to get an interesting topic to share as I am being too lazy today. Lol. The cold weather won't allow my brain and body to be productive. However I do read numbers of articles today, but I didn't consider it as productivity.

Well today I didn't do any special. I just keep on wandering around the internet and scrolling up and down in my Facebook.

While the rain is pouring, my memory is traveling back to my old life. The starting point of my regrets and what if?

23 year's ago..

I was eleven years old when I meet a couple who never had a child of their own. They are actually my younger brothers Godparents and so my father has a good connection with them.

Since my father is a carpenter they always go to our house, if they need someone to fixed something in their house and so they built a good friendship.

The couple comes from a wealthy family, but they are very humble.

One time they look for someone to help them sweep their yard, as at their yard they have lots of plants and they also have some fruit trees, and so every day their yard was full of fallen leaves. They ask my father if he can recommend someone to them as they want a trustworthy person to work with them.

Since the job is too light and easy, my father recommend me to them. At eleven years old I already know how to sweep and so they accepted me, besides I only need to sweet their yard in the morning before I go to school and in the afternoon after I finish my school then I can go back home.

The couple is very kind, they always offer me some food every time I go there to sweep their yard and they always ask me about school. They always told me that if I needed something for school I should just let them know. Also from them, I learned to eat bitter gourd 😁. In our home I don't eat bitter gourd as I don't like it's bitterness, but the wife forced me to eat that vegetable as she says it was good for me.

At my younger age, I was too thin and so the wife is very much concerned about my health. Every time I go to their house to sweep their yard she always offer me some food or snacks. She won't allow me to go home if I won't eat as she wants me to gain some weight. As a kid I really don't understand her, but I do follow her as a respect and also I always love the food that she always prepare.

Every time that the husband was out for business trip, I always accompany the wife in their house as she can't sleep alone. I really like the smell of their house and every morning she always prepare a delicious meal for us. Since they show me their kindness, I become comfortable with them.

But then the time came that my family needs to transfer. Which means,we will be living a bit far from the house of the couple. Since I was already high school that time and I have been working to them for almost one year. They felt sad that I can no longer help them to sweep their yard and so they tried to ask my parents if they will allow me to stay with them. Which means I will be separated from my family.

They gave assurance to my parents that I can still continue my studies and they are willing to support my studies until I finish college. And since my parents wants me to have a better future they agree. They allow me to stay in their house until I graduated college, but the problem was I disagree.

My parents tried to convince me, besides I am allowed to visit them every weekend but I still refuse.

At that time I'm still innocent about the future. At the age of twelve all I wanted is to be with my family, and I don't care about the future.

The couple was a bit sad as I refuse to stay with them. They have already trusted me and so they tried to convince me but I still refuse.

Currently

Now that I have already seen the bitterness of adulthood, I realized that refusing to have a better future is wrong. If only I listened to them, I think I won't struggle this way. If I can only turn back the time, I would definitely prefer to be separated from my family and have a better future.

But it's all had passed and no matter how much I regretted that decision, I can no longer turn back the time. I can no longer change the fact that I have already wasted the better opportunity for me.

I can only imagine my life if I had finish my studies. I can only imagine myself living a comfortable life. I can only imagine it.

However I know I can still have a great life. The process of my success might be a little bit hard, but I know in time I can still have a comfortable life, together with my son and partner.

Past is past and what am I trying to say here, is once the opportunity knocks on your door you shouldn't slip it away. A good opportunity only knocks on your door for one's, and so always grab it than to keep on regretting later.

... thank you for reading.

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