It's another blissful and a busy day again for me today. I still can't believe it, my son is turning to one. I still remember how's my November 5th last year. I woke up at 4:00 a.m. because I need to prepare my partners breakfast and food pack for his lunch. It was just an ordinary morning for me, but every day I keep on praying that I will give birth to my son before our due date came. Exactly 5.00 a.m I am done cooking, when I suddenly felt that a sticky fluid run out from my inner, but it has no pain so I just don't mind it. I was about to call my partner, when I suddenly feel pain from my hips. My hips is aching but it's still bearable, so I just continue preparing my partner's stuff.
Every hour the pain is getting serious to unbearable. I thought I'm going to give birth that day so my mother-in-law asked me to monitor my water bag and she even asked me if it's already get broken. But I says no, not yet, because the fluid that come out was blood. She gasped as she knows that if it's blood, that means my labor pain is unbearable. She told me to have a walk, and since that time she doesn't have worked, she accompany me. We walked, from our house to our public market. We bought some maternity dress from there too, just for additional with what I have.
While we were walking, there were times that I do a pause from walking, as the pain is getting painful. But since we were outside, I keep on trying not to let people notice my pain. But actually, I really don't want to walk that day because I really can't handle my pre labor pain, but I had to. When we went home, I still manage to wash some of our laundry, so if ever I give birth that day, my partner won't need to wash in my absence.
The whole day with pain make's me forgot to eat, I was full because of water. The pain continue until night time. I was really tired and I'm getting weaker because almost the whole day I keep on walking. My mother-in-law keeps on monitoring me, as she saw that I'm really in pain, she was worried. Until my partner decided to bring me to the hospital.
Since the pandemic abundance, it was really hard to look for an ambulance, so we just use motorcycle with sidecar to go to the hospital. We travel for almost 25 minutes before we arrive at the hospital. My pain is getting unbearable, I feel like my hip and body would separate any time in extreme pain lol. That's how painful a labor pain was. During that time, when you arrive at the emergency room station, no doctor will approach you and you cannot go inside immediately. But instead, the guard with some papers will be given to you to sign up 😂, they will check your temperature, let you wear facemask and face shield and sprayed your hands with alcohol then you have to show them your negative covid test results . I was really annoyed during that time because I can't barely breathe and I'm really in pain. But I have to follow the safety protocol for my own safety too, so I have no choice.
When we go inside the emergency room, I still saw different kinds of patients. I saw some pregnant woman too, and they are already wearing the hospital dress as I think they will give birth any moment. I feel envy as I don't see them having any pain, like they can walk normally, while I, can't even manage to stands straigh😅. When the Ob-gyne called my name, she asked me if what I am experiencing and if there's any fluid come out from my cervix and if the pain has any interval. I told her everything, even my bleeding. She says she will check my cervix if it's already open. But after the examination, she says it ain't open yet. And there's still no signs of labor yet, and I'm only having a pre labor. I was a bit disappointed 😃, like no labor but I am currently having a pre-labor? And of course I don't understand, what does it mean😂. It's my first time, so the doctor explain it to me and gives me some medicine so my cervix will open. She even told me to keep on walking so it would open itself.
We went back home that night, we arrive home at 1:30 a.m.. I really feel tired, but I can't sleep because the pain continue. I was crying because I can't handle it anymore. I keep on talking to my son, begging him to help me with my pain. Sometimes I can feel him moving, like he was responding me. It makes me smile, as I felt that my son can hear me. But the whole night I really don't have any sleep as the pain continues.
To be continued........
Thank you for reading.. I will end up here as I still need to read some articles first before going to sleep..
November 05,2021 22:10
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You endured a lot, that's why women's are called the strongest beings on earth. My mom always tells me , obey my words I have endured a lots of pain just for you, whenever I teas my mother.