While playing with my son, I keep on thinking about what topic should I write today. But my mind is a little bit lazy, as it is not allowing me to have any idea. So while trying to get some stressed, charot 😂 I suddenly jump up into a deep analysis with my life. Have you ever been asked or have try to ask your self about your mission? Like what do you really want to be, what's the plan about the future, or do you ever have a mission? Because sometimes I tried to ask it in myself lol. I really don't know my mission, so today I try to create mine.

So today I look at my son while playing, well actually sometimes I just let him play while I'm typing my article in my phone. But because I feel a little guilt, as I am not giving him enough attention, I play with him today and disregard about writing. Same situation last night, my partner and I was busy with our phone. Then I suddenly look at our son, he was lying in his hammock silently. I suddenly felt sorry, because it seems like I'm forcing him to sleep though he still want to play with us. So I close my phone and get my son to cuddle him.

Then today I suddenly ask my self, if, am I a good mother to my son? And how about to my partner? Am I being a good partner to him? While thinking, I jumped in to a realization that maybe I am, or maybe I am not. Since my partner and I sometimes argue in many things, I think I'm being too sensitive. While to my son, I think I'm lacking with attention because I keep on trying to reach my goals instead of trying to be a perfect mom to him. Though I know that this is all for him, I must still learn to manage my time so I can still have enough time to him.

So now I gather my mission statements list and those are;

To be a good partner and a good mother to my son.

As I have realized that maybe I need some adjustments to make my relationship with my partner last into a happy ending. I know that our relationship is not all about me, so I might have a serious talk with him later. I will ask him some questions, so I can know what should I do. And also I must let him understand that I went through Postpartum depression that is why sometimes I'm a bit sensitive. I think my partner is not aware about Postpartum that's why he can't understand me being moody. And to my son, giving him enough attention so he won't have any tantrums again. Because I know he felt bored inside our house and he needs someone to play with him.

To be the best as I can

I want to continue to be the best for myself. I don't wanna go back the old me. Before I use to do those things that I don't want to do, just to impress other people. I keep on trying to be the best for the happiness of others, so now I want it for myself.

To be a successful business owner

As I have said in one of my article, my business is now facing bankruptcy. I will continue my business when we are already living in our own house. But right now, I will keep it closed.

To be a role model to my son.

I want him to see me as his role model, so I will continue being good to everyone just like my mother did. I want my son to grow up with respect, love, and kindness in his heart. I want to educate him the same way as my mother did to us, but of course I won't educate him to let other people abuse his kindness.

To one day save a lot of money and help the needy

I think all of us wants to help others who's in need. And since right now I still don't have lots of money, I will just share my full support to people who showed more efforts for their success. Because I can't give my support, to those people who don't do anything but just waiting for a miracle. I don't like that, so I will support those who works hard for their dreams.

And most of all,

To believe that through God all things are possible, if you just believe.

Every thing and every decision that I'm going to make, I will put God in the center. I will asked his guidance and protection to make my mission possible.

So this is all for now my dear reader's and up voters. I hope you'll like my article for today.. those are just base on my thoughts, about trying to figure out my missions and trying to create my own mission. I hope you've already had your mission lists.

Thank you and stay safe 💕

October 21,2021 16:16

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