When I was young I was once a victim of bullying. Girls at the same age as me, use to laugh at me. They even call me with different names because I am skinny, because I am small, and also because I have scars and I hated it.

That experience brings negative impact to my growth. I totally lose my confidence and grown up with a very low self esteem. I even become introverted person. I don't have any real friends as all those people whom I consider as friends just betrayed me. They always backstabs me and they even hated me for being myself, and for being silent.

As I grow older, I have experienced being neglected. Have meet people whom I considered as my own family but eventually they just disrespected me. This incidents was I hated the most to remember, but I can't erased it in my memory.

However despite how unfair the world was, I still continue to show my kindness. I didn't stop to trust the world and it's people, as I know not everyone would turn out as a monster. I love them all heartedly. But it seems like I am being cursed as all I get is pain. They don't value my kindness. They underestimate me and they abuse my innocence. Life is so cruel, I really hate those dark past of mine.

I even reach to the point where I felt tht the world hated me. Well I think that's what they called depression. I become weak to face this wide universe. I feel afraid to face the reality, and it was all because of my unmeasurable fear's. I then locked up myself inside my own comfort zone. I distance myself from people as I felt that's the only way I can save my self and get hailed after being shattered.

Later on trust issues was built, and it becomes my wall to the outside world. The darkness and the silence of my comfort zone becomes my safety bullet from fake people who broke my heart.

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However as the time passed, I slowly felt that loneliness makes me rooting from inside. I don't find the real purpose of my life.

I have dreams. I have goals and I also have some aspiration in life, and if I'm not gonna come out from my comfort zone, I'll die as a failure. I don't wanna be loser until death as it is not the purpose of my life.

Life is what you make of it

It′s the fire in your soul

If you keep on hiding it from the world

You will never know

Who will see the best in you

And stand by you through the storms

So keep shining bright like the sun

And don't stop for anyone

Indeed life is what we make. If I keep on hiding, no one will notice my existence. I'll be forever invisible yet visible and people won't see my worth.

So even with fears I attempted to came out from my comfort zone. It was scary. My heart is full of doubt, but I had already decided that I won't look back anymore. I am the real captain of my own ship and I don't have any reason to keep on hiding. The world is big and I must shine like the sun.

However I am certainly sure that I would still be going to face the same storms, but at that time I have already decided to stand strong and find out who's gonna stay with me. Who's gonna love me and who's gonna value me.

Some will stay, some will go

Always remember

They don′t define who you are

Let them stay, let them go

Never forget

You gotta love who you are

And those who love the real you

Are meant for you.

Upon sailing under this wide universe, I have met different people with different intentions, again. Some of them even become part of my life as they show me how important I am. They give my life some happiness, but eventually they also left me with a lonely heart.

However I continue to let people come and go. The real one will stay and those who are not meant for me will be gone. I know for somehow that losing them won't define me.

People indeed come to our lives with a reason, it might be they become our lesson or they might teach us a lesson.

When you know your truth

You know what you deserve

You know what is best for you

So don't be afraid to have it all

I know what I deserve, and I know what's best for me. I also know that I am enough, they just don't appreciate it. So this time, I am not afraid to have what I have. I am not afraid to face this universe anymore. Those fear's of being hurt, being neglected, and to get judge are now gone.

Those who loves me real, will see my worth, and those who didn't appreciate my existence are not my lose. I love myself and I will love and embrace my imperfections. I know I was born to stand out, and now, no one can dim my light.

Those who loves me real, are meant for me.

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In conclusion;

This whole universe was wide, and it was full of strangers. People may comes and may goes to our lives . They will come with different intentions and their existence was indeed unexpectedly. We may face the same storm over and over again, but we should stand out and shine bright as the sun.

We may face rejections, and heart breaks from people whom we thought who loves us, but no matter how they broke our hearts, we should love our self. We should appreciate ourselves, as we know that we all deserves all the best within this wide universe.

Those who loves the real us, was meant for us.

Message;

This blog was also posted in Hive, as this is my entry for Ladies of Hive contest. I just want to share it here as well so you could hear this beautiful song that somehow motivates me whenever I'm in despair.

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