Sunday. This day was supposed to be church day and family day. Since I have Saturday duty so, it’s seldom for me to go home. Just like other Sundays when I can’t go home, I stay at the place where I’m staying and do all the laundry since I cannot do it on Saturdays. I should’ve stopped being a weekend warrior. Now I’m all stuck with a mountain pile of laundry and other things. I was not able to go to church today because it was raining so hard.
I finished all my chores in the afternoon. Instead of taking a nap, I turned my laptop on and work on the questionnaires for the upcoming first summative test. I am handling 16 subjects in all, good thing I already started the other week so I’m just finishing all the Math’s because it is the most complicated to make with all of its signs and symbols, it needs to be done manually when uploading to our LMS which is moodle.
I was busy with online works and I am just listening to music to get by. I received a notification from my Instagram account. I froze as I read the notification. A ghost from the past commented on one of my recent posts I already wrote an article about him, I left my heart in San Francisco
“I’m better now,” that’s what I put as a caption on my post. He commented, “Nakita nako ang sadness sa nawng” I see the sadness on the face.
I was like, how could you say that? As if you still care? But I just ignored it. I continued on my work when I received another notification, this time it's not just any comment from my posts but a direct message still coming from the same person. I’m feeling annoyed with the fact that I already blocked him on Facebook, I was not able to block him on Instagram because I thought he’s inactive on Ig.
It’s been a year I think since we last talked online. He was so persistent that my curiosity beats me so I responded.
Only to find out he was sad that’s why he’s reaching out to me. I feel insulted, I wanted to say “Merisi” Good for you, but I’m not that kind of person who’s tactless. I’m still sensitive about people’s feelings. He may have hurt me in the past, but it’s still not enough for me to say bad words to him. He‘s undergoing something. Maybe he remembered me as someone who gives him comfort, that’s what I thought of. But I’m not being marupok or fragile. He’s still a friend just with a side story.
Now that we’re exchanging messages, I wanted to ask him a lot of questions. I just don’t find the courage. I am also thinking that I am not in the right place to ask questions to him, for the reason that there was never an “us”. He ghosted me, right after I already developed feelings towards him.
Is it right to comfort him? Now, I’m having second thoughts of continuing this whole conversation with him.
I should’ve not replied. It was just really unfair on my side. How could he be so comfortable sending me a message after a very long time, telling me about his breakup? I don’t understand what he’s trying to imply. Is he trying to tell me just so I know that he’s single again? I am already healed with all the heartaches. Now he’s back just because he’s sad. And I don’t understand why do I have the feeling that I want to help him pick his broken pieces. Send me somewhere please T.T
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Yan, magaling. Nakakaalala lang pag sad boi ampt. Ignore mo na yan, jan magsisimula ang lahat for sure. Sad boi sya, tas aaluin mo, tas in the end ikaw ang pagbabalingan nya ng feelings nya, tapos ilaw naman na si marupok - ewan nalang talaga ha ayaw ko nalang mag talk pero..... Sige tuloy ko nalang. Pero sa huli ulit ang labas magiging rebound kalang kasi di pa sya nakaka move on sa nauna. So maganda na ing advance tayo mag isip. Timbangin ang mga bagay bagay muna.