Where do I belong?

"Where have you been??!"

"Why did you come home so late?!!"

Mom shouted with anguished in her voice,

Shouting in the middle of dawn.

"Will you stop slapping me?! We had overtime work",

"No! I don't believe you! Have you been to your mistress these days?!"

Mom cries with her anger,

I was just behind the door listening

Listening how they quarrel

During breakfast mom is so silent, dad wasn't there to eat. Just me and mom

Mom is always sad, dad is always almost nowhere to be found at home.

They always fight, fighting like they don't see me

It's as if they were only two of them without me

Mom? Dad? Can you both consider my presence?

Can you at least think, I am here

I am here hurting,

Hurting the fact you always clash with each other,

Aren't you in love with each other before having me?

Until one day, dad comes home

Hastily packing things.

"What are you doing?!!"

Mom mumbles!

"I will leave this house! I cannot bear to live here anymore with a nagger like you!"

"What?! What about Andy? What about us?" She pleads.

"There's no us anymore since the day I found someone better than you!"

"Someone who doesn't nag me all day long",

Dad replies.

"Dad where are you going? Dad, why are you leaving us? Dad, please don't leave 😭". I cried begging...

"Andy baby, dad will have works to do. I will just visit you here often, don't worry okay?" Hugged and kiss my forehead and flee.

Mom cries out loud, I felt sorry for my mom

I felt sorry for myself as well

Mom was very sad, she barely has time to take care of me

Until one day, mom glows up again

I was happy, happy to see my mom glowing back

She smiles, she makes herself beautiful

I was happy, until...

"Andy, meet your Tito Jim. From now on he will live with us"

I was stunned, Mom has a new boyfriend.

Mom and Tito Jim got a new baby,

I have a little sibling, I was supposed to be happy

But I wasn't, Dad never visit me again

Mom's attention was not on me anymore

Not anymore since then,

Now I am asking myself

Where do I belong?

Can somebody tell me where?

Where do I belong?

Is there a place that wants me?

It seems I have lost a place

A place called "Home"

This is a fiction, but as I was drafting it made me cry too 😭. As I was imagining some dramas of a broken family. The child left alone in the middle of nowhere, feeling lost in the place where she is. I dedicate this to all the child who is a product of a broken family. Stay strong, life has more to offer if nobody is embracing you then embrace yourself. Sending my warm hugs for you! 😍