My best friend stabbed me.

"How come she made false rumors about me?"

Do you have a friend whom you call a best friend? Well, I have mine. I treated her dearly as she treated me dearly too. She was there during my down days. Every time, I had an argument with mom I will make her my escape place. I will immediately go to her, and she as a good friend she will console me, feed me, and makes me laugh.

I am aloof

I am an aloof person since I was a kid because I was always being bullied. I speak seldom with people whom I am not closed to. I barely make friends because we always transfer from one place to another like we are nomadic people, we can't stay in one place for such a long time. This is because my stepfather is a nasty person who always makes trouble because of his drunkard habits. It's hard to find friends when you keep transferring from one place to another. Plus I don't have time to make friends too, during school days after the class ended I will immediately head home or else I will be scolded by mom, so I can help the house chores and taking care of my little siblings.

During my youth

During my youth, the cellphone is already existing and my aunt gives me a cellphone which is the Nokia 3310, and because of that I joined a group of texter (Texting Clan), there I make friends only on text. It's really good though because sometimes if I get upset I will just send a group message to all the members and shared how my days are being ruined and there I received a consoling message which will help me a little to ease my pain. Lezlie is one of them, and she constantly consoles me every time I had a bad day. There were times that our group plans for an eyeball and there we met. We became more closer to each other. From that, I began to mingle and have friends, fake friends.

I entered the University

We shared a lot of good time with Lezlie, I treated like she's a sister to me but we have different interests in life. I wanted to pursue my studies while she, on the contrary, she doesn't have an interest in studies. I was a rebel back then because of my situation but never did I turn back on studies, as I really want to finish schooling. So I entered the university, we met each other seldom due to my schedule. I cannot join our get together every time because I was busy at school. Until one day, I received a text, a rumor text from our clanmates that says "Dyosa had an abortion" (Dyosa is just my codename). I was really shocked because I didn't even know I was pregnant lol. Even more, shock when I know where the rumors came from, it was from Lezlie. I felt broken-hearted that time because I love her, I love her she's like a sister to me. When I was at my 4thyr highschool I was chubby and when I entered the University I got skinny and my clanmates are being curious about why I became slim all of sudden. Then that's their assumption that I got an abortion. Lezlie know I am not a slut, I don't make out with boys easily because I don't trust men enough, unlike her, though she's like that I never judge her because that was her choice in life. I don't know what gotten into her, why did she do that to me. After that incident we never had a chance to talk, I am a frank person and she knows that. I wanted to ask her why, but she avoided me. She avoided me for 10 long years.

From then on, I don't trust with my all again

From then on, I never trust anyone so much. I've learned my lesson not to give my full trust even if that someone is really close to you because you might never know they could be your worst enemy in the future. You can't control their thoughts, so you will never know when will they betray you.

Reconciliation without putting a soul

A year ago, we bump each other on Facebook. She even did try to avoid me again, because she was ashamed. Ashamed that we cut ties because of nonsense reasons. I talk to her and tell her I already forgive her even if she didn't ask for it. That I valued the good time we had together and she also helps me a lot before. She did ask sorry afterward and we became friends on Facebook again, but we did not see each other personally. I do love her, though I was hurt way back, I chose to forgive her even if she humiliated me with a false accusation. We are friends again but not the same as before, we were only like an acquaintance.

When betrayal happens you cannot bring back the old vibes again, trust is being stained and cannot be whole again. So be careful who you trust with, be careful about sharing your soul to anybody.

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