“Am I in Heaven?”

[WP] I am seeing all white, “where am I? Am I dead? anybody out there?! Is this heaven? Hellooooooo...”

***

I was in great shock by what happened to me, instead of running fast to get away from the place I don't have much strength to do so, I just kneeled watching the nipa hut burning while crying heavily. The man who molested me was double killed, he killed himself in front of me and then got burned. He was cremated immediately, “it's good he will proceed to hell anyway” that was the last thought I remember.

Now I am seeing all white, “where am I? Am I dead? anybody out there? Is this heaven? Helloooo..!!” I screamed as am seeing all white, the place is unfamiliar I have never been here.

“Hi Nicky, how are you feeling?” I heard a voice, but I cannot see where it came from and who was it.

“Who are you?! Where am I?”

“You are now crossing the bridge of death, you are in the middle. If you choose to walk forward you may not be able to come back”

“What? No! I escaped from that nymphomaniac how come I am here? I can't leave my mom”

“There are things you have to sort out, you have to know it by yourself if you come back”

“So I still have a chance to come back?”

“Yes just walk backward, if you want to. You just have to choose, if you walk forward you will have eternal rest. No pain, no sadness, and nobody will hurt you now in here, my child.”

“Eternal rest? but what about my mom she will be alone without me. She will be sad, I am the only one left to her when my dad left

“Then choose what is the desire of your heart”.

I look forward I can't see anything, I look backward I saw the stairs going down.

“I have to go back, mom needs me” Then I proceed walking back, I heard somebody calling my name while crying.

“Nicky!!! Nicky my child, don't leave mom, please fight...”

Then I saw my body being revived by doctors, “123 clear! Clear!” while mom calling my name, my heartbeat showing in the machine is declining.

“Mom...” I said.

”Nicky!! Thank God for your alive huhuhu!” while hugging me.

“Mom I hear you calling me how can I leave you?”

“Ma'am, now that her vital signs are stable you should make her rest, avoid upsetting her, she might be okay but let's be vigilant on watching her,” The doctor said before leaving the room.

“Mom, what happened to me? why I am in a hospital?”

“Nicky, you should rest for now. Aren't you hungry? you've been sleeping for two days without eating, what do you want” mom said trying to avoid my questions.

I wonder what happened to me, the last time I know is that I saw the nipa hut burning, I escaped from that tragedy. I cannot understand why I end up being hospitalized and almost died. I am puzzled, as for the shadow I don't see him for now.

Mom had her leave on her work to take care of me, sometimes she's out to buy some stuff. If she was out she let Aunt Nina look for me, our old made neighborhood. She is good, she's like a second mother to me. I remember when I was little she took care of me while mom is working. She collided with mom, they have the same experience their man left them for another woman just that she doesn't have a child while mom has me, she sympathized with my mom and treat me will like her real daughter.

The reason why mom doesn't want me left alone in the hospital is that the doctor warned her to always look out for me. I also wonder why I have so many wounds in my body, maybe because I bump into sharp things when I was running in the woods or I didn't remember the man hurt me. I don't know, I am puzzled but I am not forcing myself to remember what happened because my head hurts so I just follow what the doctor said not to overthink, aside from that mom begs me to be good so I won't be in danger again.

***

To be continued...

Part 1 Locked up

Part 2 Shadow

Part 3 He saved me

Lead Image from Pixabay.com

Image 2 from Unsplash