Welcome back self: I'm back to finally normal

After so many things happened and more challenges to come we were now in the normal state, the pressure is finally gone and things will be in the state of normal. That’s how life was. We will be blinded by so many things in life and things to suffer but whatever the things will do, we will move on not because we want to but we need and must.

Finally a good hour of sleep is captivating my inner self at the moment. Honestly I listed some topics about what happened on the funeral nights, well bare with me because those things weren't intended to move along but surely it will be a memory to field.

Not writing seems addicting, I don’t know but might be that was the reason why some users are quite found the enjoyment of not writing, within my near 1-year-old here, I never experience a straight of days to count not publishing any, reading and commenting to others, it's like a normal in myself to do. But finally, I am back, we were back.

I missed a lot of things in my outside life. I missed all of you. My last post on NOISE was a month ago. I don’t know but I am more comfortable on the other side which is read dot cash. Things I missed also are those people I met virtually, the group chat created for read dot cash users. Well, I am actually active there in my free time, the group where anything could turn to a topic even if it jumps to some random and goes to the weirdest of the weird topics lol.

I had a lot to tell actually, I listed all the norms and things that I saw just the first time, people's behavior, and stories I heard on the night of funerals, some topics are good, fun, and bold, others were from the horror and topics which made me upset in such other manners.

I just started telling you that we were fine now.

Why do days of not writing seem like an addiction?

I think most of the users here could sense that, when we started to write honestly, my goal is to write and I conquered that mindset, then when I was too tired to write it felt like I felt the same feeling when I opened my laptop and wrote was the normal thing I did. Kind of something actually.

It's weird that feeling because even though I am not that tired anymore, I am not that loaded much anymore. How to divert that feeling and come back to normal things I do every day? This is actually a challenge for me now, and also seems like an answer to understanding more about others that comes from active users to none.

Finding motivation is something right now, I had a lot of tells but the moody thing that exhibits my terms seems like the opposition.

The room is empty unlike before, the good scene where I wished to happen from the past few days but now it feels weird. The silence makes me a picture that it's different now, something is sudden, and more and more bad terms were maze in my gaze.

Normal I say but honestly, I found it difficult to start up. I don’t know but that are the weird words from my thoughts at the moment. There is something that could paralyze me up, write then suddenly I felt bored and diversion to social media where I was in my past few days.

I expected this one, and more active for the next few days will be the solution I use and I wish.

I haven’t heard anything from you these past few days, well some were written I will catch later. That is also what I missed for the record, reading and listening to others' problems on this platform. Just that also the happy thing is, I wished to read more happily for the next few days lol.

Moreover, I was also impressed with something I can't tell hehe, that motivates me more to be active here.

What happened to our family was heartbreaking indeed yet we were now coming from the normal. I missed a lot of things, one actually is the postponed plan to my rabbitry. I was on schedule to purchase two breeding cages with one back with a good line but I chose to lay low because I had more priority and that is my uncle.

Also a good thing for my cousin who is teaching in a private university. She will help me process my paper to enroll in the university. Also, this plan was postponed because I really missed studying, I don’t know but I want the vibe of doing schoolwork, so this next semester I will be joining the university as an irregular student to take my education unit and try my lack of Licensure exam for teachers.

I also mentioned that my family bloodline was a teacher and I am the one that chose the left, but it seems like the more years passed I missed the vibe and now the plan is nearer in execution.

Things I witnessed and more ideas were listed but I choose to start by telling you I missed you all, I missed being active and now I am back. Haha, that’s all, thanks for reading…