Men weren’t a CLOWN but our life seems like a JOKE.

How do you understand your man? There was a time that man just sit along in the dark, open the beer and sip then looked at how much he drunk, then he cried. The darkness embraces him and gives the seconds to mourn. The man you looked like wasn’t the real man inside, the man whom you knew could be secretly stranger now. Have a deep look at how you're man thinks his life is now a joke.

If you haven’t experienced drowning with your own kind of aggressive thinking might be your underside.

Man is being overlooked and undervalued most of the time, we think they are brave because you see how they fight, seen how they are strong for working in the hard day under the hot sun. The colour of the skin could make the masculinity more vivid, the serious face they got every time. They seem unbeatable but are they?.

Mental illness is something that wasn’t open to most men. Depression and anxiety were secretly attacking the target, you could see a man smiling at you before going to bed, then suddenly you woke up without him, looked upon and you saw him in the silent. Doing the most guys do, either silent or drinking some liquid. You might not understand but this was a sign.

I got this point when I saw some posts about suicidal people. They are happy and innocent but deep inside they are attempting something. Followed by some documentary about the evaporated people of japan. They just went without any trace, most of them are males.

But why do they choices to leave without a trace? They felt that their life wasn’t exciting anymore. They feel like it could be easier to just be gone. They don’t want their misfortune to be obviously seen either by their wife or child.

We, men, are weakened, some seem fierce every time but deep inside they wanted to cry. It's not that’s easy to figure out who was the weakest and strong because men are masters of hiding things. The pain is better to hide rather than be seen.

That’s the best thing about the alcohol in the body, it's not only women who are over-thinker but we men also do. They want to sleep but sleeping doesn’t want to be with them, and that’s is too hard especially they are expecting to be alive early in the morning.

They are also tired of moving the same as what they did every day, so you might also be asked if they like and still want his job, or what you are doing the same every day.

Job and money is the most triggering anxiety for any man, imagining they will lose jobs are like a time machine that will travel in their future. Looked like they will come to the end of the zone. They evidently think about the future of their own wife and children. So they going to be weakened. Silently enduring the anxiety.

That’s why my job as a supervisor in my early days I think I am not yet ready. Imagine seeing people and then asking what was their life, then the protocols and evaluations were within me if I will accept the person to do the job. But I will assure you that I will be on the track, I need to choose people who could really do the job and make the job quick with their natural skills. It's sad and makes me drown but I tried to explain to them why they can't get the job.

The hurtful thing is that I understand their life but I need to secure the people whom I worked with. Yeah, I am still young but I think I have seen a lot. And as the natural-born man, I get them. Life becomes a joke as they made man's deep cuts in veins.

Another thing that triggered me to write this is that I saw a post of my schoolmates “4 years graduate still useless” as he said. Yeah after the college dream was done it's not really that we could find a nice job as we expected and thickening after we received the diploma.

Of course, it’s a side of man to get the job, help the family. That really makes most of our brads gets upset and talk that what is happening in life was becoming a huge joke by the universe.

I may be telling you that don’t put too much pressure on a man, boyfriend, brother or husband of yours. Looked at how were they being, what happened to their day and after. More pressure and lack of understanding might result in the breakdown of your man.

As they carried the whole life of the family, they don’t want failure and hunger for the one they loved. They wanted to secure everything, and they even do everything and even anything but life seem like a joke if no one and even single people could understand their side. I hope I give my message to you, thanks for reading..