It really much sounded gay when men share anything in between?

In the field of greens, we always looked for roses, the red and vibrate color to lean on. That was us sometimes, thinking and imagining that we somehow could rest assured, sleep in a bed full of roses, but in the reality and mind of people who knew it, roses had torn. How could you lay down in a field torn? How beautiful it was to be imagined, to think about. But when reality comes out it's nothing but hurt.

I was overwhelmed by people who comments on my previous article, I thought it was too gay and feminine style to open up to much drama. That is one of the reasons why somehow I only limit myself by sharing a negative vibe and too many personal problems. I learn to divert my emotions when I am problematic, I do such things to hide a little bit. Chat with people whom I really don't know in person. Teasing and having fun like we just enjoy the time alone, kill the boredom. But sometimes it's not that way, sometimes I am downed reading and reacting 'haha' 'lol' and other emoji that at least could filter the whole being I am in that moment and time.

Read dot cash is dominated by women, that's what I saw. Most men weren't that active here like women are, not all men could publish one article per day but the opposite gender could, they are more engaged in the way where some of them really relate to women's topics. Like the last biggest monthly sale on online shops, most of them tackled things that online women and women at heart knew. Make-ups and dresses and more things that it feels like they were rewarded.

Well honestly, I am only a fan of online shopping when it comes to things that are not edible or medical grade. I am still hesitant to buy online something that will be consumed or medicine that brand is quite unfamiliar. There are too many products online and I am really afraid that somehow it was fake or a scam. No one knew until proven somehow.

Back to the main agenda.

I am actually a fan of reading women's articles pertaining to their lives. That's it I love reading and somehow I do compare myself to them. Comparison where I tested myself if men and women are really different sides in something. I do also look for something that will come closer to my curiosity.

I found brave people who could express what happened exactly. Like they are motivated to speak toward me by giving the scene of the exact thing that happened before. I honestly can't do that, I could but I don't know how really. I always skip something just to remain secret and others do not know the same level of the picture I see. Anonymously as it was intended to be.

Past relationships are also something. I was really caught reading others' articles mentioning how many exes they had, how many past relationships they encountered, and even what exactly happened to both of them. Well, I will be honest to you now, back then I never was serious in any relationship, I had a lot of people who come and go, but I don't give a serious glance for I knew yet my priority. Somehow I need fun and fling but nothing really explicit, I also knew my limits.

It really much sounded gay when men share anything in between?

Honestly, this was just my thinking, I don't see other men who share life and things happening in their life as gay-ish. Just that my thinking that when I shared and open many things all the portals in my life I might sound gay to myself.

That's somehow other visual effects on me, back then I really loved just writing. When I re-read the work I must sound gay-ish, yet I know some won't observe just me, but there is something within me that is thinking of better cancellation before anything or someone else might see haha.

In the end, I really loved the works of others that I knew I am not good at. You know yourself when I always read yours because I see something interesting. I admire people who could defend and portray the exact thought in a scene because I can't do that, In my head, I think I sounded gay.

Is the article crumpled and short? I am not yet emotionally well so bear with me please hehe, Thanks for reading...