Maintaining friendship.

A friend, as some would say; is a soul in two bodies, a shoulder to lean on, a playmate and an adviser...

If you have the perfect friend; hold on tight to him/her, don't let go. Real friends are rare to find.

My mum and I were involved in a conversation yesterday, she spoke about not having friends and how my elder brother too can't even keep friends. It was then, I realized my elder brother and i, got that trait from her. While my twin brother got his; from my dad.

Of a truth, since my birth and still in view: "I've never seen any of my mum's friends. Classmates, church members..." None; have I seen.

My elder brother:

During my childhood years, hardly has there been anyone who comes home to visit my elder brother, I usually wonder why? He doesn't keep too much friends, and even the few ones he has, he can't really maintain that relationship.

My twin brother:

This boy is a keeper of friends, he knows so many people, my twin brother can keep friends so well. In school, he's kinda popular, he can call both the old and the young; on phone, he maintains good relationships with the mummies, daddies, course mates, church members, school mates, Facebook... You just name it.

These attributes of his; amongst all others have really made me realize that: "Being twins, doesn't mean we'll love doing the same thing."

I started schooling at the Prestigious Yaba College of Technology in the year "2019," my first semester in ND1, yielded no friends, I'll just come to class, do the needful, ask the governor of the class few questions and zoom off after lectures have ended for the day.

ND1 second semester, I finally interacted with few people.

It was in ND2 that I finally got to know my friends... The only friends I'm still with presently. Since then, I haven't been close with any other person apart from these three friends of mine. (Esther, Joyce and Vicky) I've tried so much, but I just can't make friends or maintain friendship.

If you ask me to name five relationships I maintained from my secondary school years, you'll sit back and hear me bluffing. Of a truth, I can hardly call names. Even the three friends I'm with presently. I can't guarantee a continuous friendship after school life is over.

I've tried and tried, but I just can't maintain relationships with people.

• It's so hard to pick up my phone and put a call through.

• It's so hard to chat with someone I've not chatted with for eons.

• It's hard to call the parents of children I had once taught in time past.

Me: Hello ma'am, Good day ma'am, this is Dorcas.

Her: Oh! Dorcas, good day, how are you?

Me: I'm good ma'am, just called to check on you and the children.

• Oh yeah, is it that hard? No; right? So why can't I just do it?.

My brother would always tell me: "Dorcas try to keep relationships ooh, call people from time to time, call Mrs Osisami, call Mummy this, call Mummy that..."

And I'll be like: "what would I tell them?, I'm not calling jhoooo, don't worry."

It's so easy for my twin but so hard for me. I've always been calling myself a "loner" I just hope I don't truly end up being so alone.

In case I loose contact with you, or I just suddenly blackout from your phone screen and eyesight, please know that it's not intentional, just try to keep communicating with me please.

I can't even make friends, create or start conversations; even if I badly want to...

• Is this normal?

• Do I also have people here, that can't maintain relationships?

No matter what people say. It's really good to socialize and get to know people.

It's good to make and maintain friendship.

• For referrals: You could be into a business, your friends or people you know are the ones that would refer you to others for them to come; patronizing you. I've heard so many testimonies from CEO's, as regards this.

• For assistance.

• For conversations

• For connection.

Although the friends I'm seeing these days are not really impactful and helpful In any way, but finding a rare gem in a friend is the best asset you could ever wish to have.

There are friends and there are friends.

I just love writing about myself, (strength and weaknesses) I'm grateful for all your support. It's not taken for granted, I love you all.

Thanks for reading.