Pressured to Look for Work

I have been pressuring myself for days or even weeks now because I learned that some of my classmates in college are already looking for work and some are even already hired and working, while I, on the other hand, still has no clue on what I really want to do with my life.

I am already in my final semester in college and only just a few months from now, I'll be graduating already. Just like what I always say, I'm so excited to graduate because I will finally be free from the stress of college life, where I won't have to attend classes anymore and no need to review for upcoming exams, and finish requirements.

However, being free from the stress of college life also means that I'll be facing another stressful reality, and that is the "adulting" stage of life.

After graduating from college, we are expected to immediately look for a job because it is now the time to pay back the sacrifices of our parents. We have to work because there are bills that we need to pay and we have goals that we want to achieve. We also have to start thinking and preparing for the future as well so that we won't have anything to worry about anymore once we get old.

I myself have a lot of dreams that I want to become a reality. I want to travel around the Philippines and even to foreign countries. I want to have my own house located near the sea. I want to provide for my parents and give them a more comfortable life. And in order for them to be accomplished, I need money, tons of it. And to have money, I need to look for work that will give me reasonable compensation.

However, when I was still in my early years in college and even now, I told myself that I will give myself a year off to think and plan about my life. To decide on what really do I plan to pursue after graduating from college. I want to rest for a year first before I face this reality of life. That is why I don't want to think about applying for a job and working yet.

However, hearing my group mates always talking about their experiences of applying and the excitement they have when they are already hired just stresses me out. Some of my batch mates also started working already.

It's not that I am not happy for them because they are just seizing every opportunity they could get, and they're starting to conquer their dreams too. It's just that I'm quite pressured and I can't help but compare myself to them.

That is why I started to look for work already, even just an online job. Since I have previous experience of being a freelance writer and I've been blogging on this platform for almost 2 years now, I decided to apply to some of the writing jobs posted on a Facebook group related to freelance writing. I think it's a good start for me to look for writing positions since I have experience in this field.

However, after about a dozen of applications that I have sent to those job ads and some virtual interviews that I have attended, I'm still not yet hired for a full-time job. Luckily, my former client has already responded and she said she'll give me some projects in the coming days. At least, I have one client now who may give me possible gigs to work on.

For now, I'll just keep on hustling in the crypto-verse, especially blogging here on read.cash and on noise.cash. I'll try to make money out of crypto first until I could find a full-time job.

Well, this is just another article sharing my thoughts and dilemmas on being a graduating college student. If only I could be a student for life but the reality says otherwise.

Anyway, I just really want to live a chill and care-free life so who cares about what other people would say. If they'll be disappointed in me for being jobless in the future, then good for them because they have so much time in their hands minding about other people's life. I'll just live my life according to my own terms.